Chapter 65: Chapter 65

Chapter 65

The clock was alarming again which caused me to wake up suddenly. I just woke up with my eyes staring directly at the ceiling of my room. I could hear the rain dripping on the roof and even the rain dripping on the ground. The cool breeze hugs me even though I'm already curled up in a blanket.

I slowly tilted my head to look out the window. The curtain dances again with the force of the wind. It was deafening to hear the thunderous rain that almost deafened my ears. The cloud is overcast.

When I took my eyes off the window and wandered to the drawer, the books were on top, then I just remembered that it was Monday and I had to hurry to get in and I wouldn't be late for class.

I was about to get up when I seemed to be stuck in my seat and suddenly my eyes went blank.

As soon as my eyes widened, I felt warm water flow from my eyes down my face. I seemed unconscious when I vigorously wiped my cheek.

Someone knocked outside the door which woke up my spirit. I did not stand, but, I just looked straight at the door.

"Sweetheart," she called in an angelic voice then I heard her knocked again but I still didn't stand up or even say a word. “Sweetheart, let us talk,” she said while weakly knocking.

“My princess, open the door,” my Daddy said. Last night they knocked on my bedroom door but I didn't open them until I fell asleep crying. After I left the stage, I went straight here and here I was crying. They tried to talk to me but I did not go out the door or even utter a word. I was not ready to face them. I am not ready for what they will say. My heart is not ready yet.

I covered both my ears because they kept knocking. My ears are ringing with the knocks they are making, with the heavy downpour, with the things that are bothering my mind, with the weight of how I feel, and with myself. I no longer knew what else to do.

"Talk to us, daughter," she said. My chest seemed to ache even more at what Mommy said, so I stood up suddenly.

"Please, leave me alone," I begged them as I stood in front of the door.

"Mommy and Daddy will explain, sweetheart," she said. I was just shaking my head and holding back the tears from flowing. "S-s-sorry."

I sighed as I shook my head, I begged, "P-p-please, let me be alone." Gradually their knocking subsided and when I noticed that maybe they were gone, I leaned against the door as my eyes filled with tears.

As the rain poured down, tears flowed down my face again. I am not yet ready to listen to whatever they have to say.

I still can’t believe it until these times. I can’t believe my sister is Bria, half-sister. I can’t believe they were able to hide the whole truth from me.

Do they really love me? Why did they lie to me?

Gradually my body slipped on the floor while crying silently ....

Sobbing and crying silently. Chest pain is straining. Questions and confusion in my mind I could not answer. How is it all and why did this happened?

I stopped crying when my cellphone on top of the drawer rang. I stood up and wiped my teary face then came over to pick up my cellphone and see who was calling.

I slightly rolled my eyes to see the number properly.

Unknown number, so I just didn't answer the call. Maybe that's just who he is.

I need to restart again. I need to accept the truth even if it hurts. I had to face them and listen to their explanations. Maybe they had a good reason why they did that to me.

I really can't believe it. In my 18 years of living, I haven’t even noticed everything and I haven’t even doubted. I was comfortable with myself and it never entered my mind that I might still have a sibling or that they might not be my parents.

Bria said that she's my half-sister, therefore, who is my real mother?

Where is she?

Why she left me?

What is her name?

Where do I find her?

Such are the questions in my mind that have no answers. Even if I search the corners of the world, I still can't find the answer. Only my parents can answer but am I really ready?

But I can't escape the truth. I can’t force myself on what I want. Here it is, I have to face this test.

It's just like I'm standing in front of a drawer. I was just stunned. I never noticed that my cellphone was ringing before. My mind is blown away by the wind. My spirit was embraced by the very cold breeze and I was about to drown in my own tears.

Again, my cellphone rang, so I answered the call.

Iries, by the way. So maybe the number is unfamiliar because Iries was the one calling my cellphone earlier.

‘Are you coming today? Today is another day for rehearsal,’ he said on the other line.

“Okay,” I replied then I ended the call.

I don't seem to want to go in even if today is the rehearsal. Even if I force myself to act, I can’t and my body gets more and more lethargic.

Until now, the rain has not stopped which seems to go along with the weight of how I feel.

I didn’t seem to be shocked myself when someone knocked again. I was pretty close to the door. I'm just like a statue. Good thing for being a statue are no pain, numbness, and no problems. I just want to be a statue so that I don't feel the pain I feel now.

"Won't you talk to your parents?"

I know her voice. Even though she didn’t mention the word ‘Doña,’ I still knew her voice.

At that moment, I suddenly moved my body. I rubbed both my cheeks again. I walked a little closer to the door.

"They wanted to talk to you last night," she added and I knew she was standing outside the door.

I know. They knocked the door last night but I just ignored them. I didn't open the door for them. I don’t feel like being prepared for what they have to say.

I'm just asking for fun but why am I experiencing this? I just want to be happy but the world seems to be depriving me of the joy I crave so much.

"Please, come out," she pleaded with me as if softening my hardened heart.

“N-n-nanny,” I stuttered calling her. “... t-t-they lied to me,” I cried. I leaned against the door again. "They made me a fool, Nanny."

"Open the door," she gently commanded, so that's what I did. As soon as I opened the door, she immediately hugged me. Then I was stunned as tears flowed down my face.

I could not speak as she hugged me. My tears flowed even more as my eyes remained wide staring at Mommy and Daddy standing on the stairs.

Their eyes widened as they looked at me. There is sadness in their eyes but what can I do?

I let go of Nanny's hug with me without taking my eyes off Mommy and Daddy.

I almost shook as my tears fell to the floor, and I ran down the stairs.

I rushed into the rain and kept running while crying. Right now, no one will notice that I’m crying. Now, I can pour out my resentment on them. As the rain began to fall, I started to cry, and I stopped running. I no longer knew where my feet had taken me.

I sat down while both my hands held my face. I ignored the coolness of the breeze and the rain. I feel good even if it's raining.

I kept on crying. No one will notice me. I also don’t care what they say and think because they don’t know how I feel.

I stood up again and walked away. I have never met other people. It is raining now and maybe they are in their respective homes with their respective families. But I ... I'm with my parents but I feel very heavy from what I found out last night.

Wherever my feet take me. The downpour seemed to have no end. The branches of the tree danced with every gust of cold wind that hugged my body. I almost hugged myself in the freezing cold. I'm getting cold.

I stopped. I'm sobbing. I’m soaked in the rain that I feel good.

I looked around me. I couldn't see much because of the heavy rain.

I almost jumped in panic when the thunder and lightning struck and instead of being scared, I laughed and was soon replaced by crying.

I just stood and hugged myself while letting the tears flow down my face. It wasn't obvious anymore because it was raining and I was soaking wet from the rain. There was no sound in my crying when I stopped crying when I noticed that the rain was no longer falling on my body but it was still raining around.

I looked up and at that moment, I was amazed. I have an umbrella above my head, so I don't get wet in the rain.

A black umbrella. I slowly faced whoever was holding the umbrella.

At that moment, I could not take my eyes off him. I feel like his face is so bright and he is still smiling at me.

My heart ached suddenly bounced and throbbed rapidly as I stared at him. Even the spill I can't do.

It seemed at that moment I could not feel the chill. I also didn’t seem to notice that it was raining hard and thundering even the lightning.