Chapter 45: Chapter 45

: Hate to love me

Britney let go of him but Chris hang on to her, tightly, his Head still resting on her shoulder.

"what?" she said softly, double blinking. Wondering if she had heard right.

He allowed the tears to flow  down his cheek.

"I'm so sorry," he said, still clinging on to her. She pushed him away and looked his square in the face, then her expression completely changed as she slowly backed away from him.

"Please, Britney, " Chris pleaded comming closer.

"you..you.." Britney stuttered as the words over powered her. She suddenly felt weak.

"Y-you need to leave.." she said calmly still processing the news.

"Let me explain, " Chris offered as he felt his heart get sliced into two, he moved to ward her, trying to reach out to her.

"I want you to leave!" Britney yelled

he paused at her angry tone, cold and loveless.

His gaze fell to the floor.

"I won't," he said firmly.

"What?" Britney asked, feeling an anger start up within her.

"I'm not leaving, because every time one of us walks away we both get hurt even more and I'm tired of bleeding," he said taking a few large strides and pulling her toward him.

"so instead of bottling that anger inside you, let it go now!" he yelled pulling her close.

She pushed him away but that didn't stop him. He pulled her back to him. She tried in vain to get away from him pushing slapping screaming crying.

Chris received his punishment with wee push she gave him or slap he felt across the body.

He could handle that pain but not the one he would feel if he let her go. After a lot of crying and pushing she realised she could not break free from his grasp.

She was facing the window and Chris had enclosed her in his arms from behind. Holding her tight .She screamed out one final time till she stopped breathing deeply.

Tired from all the energy in form of grief she had inflicted on him he still held on to her tightly like a magnet.

"It's been less than a week since we broke up. Just A Week!" she said between sobs.

Chris squeezed her tighter, pushing her locks to the side as he embraced her tighter.

"one week Chris!" she yelled.

"I've been bottled up in this room regretting everything I said to push you away. I cried every night for you praying and hoping that you were thinking of me too. Was it that easy for you to replace me so soon? Is that your so-called love for me?" she asked.

A teaf rolled down Chris cheek at the anguished felt rolling inside him but hold her he did. Not even hesitating for a moment.

"What am I to you? What am I to you!" she repeatedly yelled as if trying to find the answer in herself, "how could you do this to me? Am I worth half as much as you are worth to me. You constantly accused me of cheating but look at what you did. It was only one dang week. What if a month past? Where would I be? you probably would have made love to very other woman in LA. Let me be!"

She said it all, and in one huge wave of adrenaline tore herself out of Chris arms.

But Chris had set his mind on something and he wasn't looking back. He walked toward her, stalking her like prey till he back hit the wall, his arms wrapped around her waist on instinct.

"Let me go! Let me go, I hate you!" she screamed out hitting him. He pinned her wrists to the wall with his large hands.

"I already told you I won't! I will not let you go if it's the last thing I do. You hate me?" he asked looking into her red eyes.

He shook his head, "you only hate that you love me and that's okay for me. So get mad,  hit me, push me away, but I will not leave you, thats impossible. I know you hate me because I slept with Anna. I was drunk and angry at myself and I was so sad, because you left me and I didn't have the courage to ask you back. Drinking was the only way I could forget you or so I thought but every second you were still in my mind swimming though my thoughts. I need you in my life. I know that now and I am not letting you go not even for the world. "

With that his lips smashed into hers, his arms steadying her, as she tried desperately to pull away but with ever second they were close she weakened to him.

His hands let go of her wrists and focused on the taste of her lips which he had missed so badly.

Pullying her waist closer to his needy body,  her hands had suddenly found his neck and shoulders and in that moment they didn't care about anything else in the world.

Britney took a deep breath in as she opened her eyes and stared into his, "Please tell me you love me,"she said in an almost whisper as her voice skipped.

Chris smiled "I love you, " he said kissing her, "I love you, " he repeated, releasing another kiss, "I love you," he whispered string into her eyes.

That was all she need to hear before giving herself up to him. He gently lifted her up kissing her body like crazy, filled with emotions even he couldn't explain. he lay her gently on the bed her arms wrapped around him as they made out.

*******

Two hours later they lay side by side. Chris arms wrapped around her, running his fingers in her long locks.

She was  close to him but he moved so that there bodies touched. She smiled as he played with her hair. Then he suddenly pulled her closer. She laughed as she turned over facing him. He lifted his hand and a necklace hang from it.

She looked at it hanging before her.

"you still have that?" she asked, a gentle smile grazing her lips,

"I could never throw it away, it belonged to you and only you, " he replied

She sat up as he fixed it back into her neck.

Don't take it off again, don't ever give it back to me," he said kissing the back of her head as her fingers trailed the necklace.

She smiled happily. he grabbed her back to him trailing kisses down her neck, "I don't want to ever let you go again or ever feel how I felt when I realised I had lost you," he said stroking her silky hair.

She smiled, " and I don't want to lose you either not ever," she replied resting her forehead on his.

*****

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Mckayla had gone all the way around town with her new baby, going round fast. She even stopped by Teds house to give him a view of how a real car looked like, teasing him but before he could touch the car she zoomed away and left him laughing in his home street.

She knew she had to take this baby back but not before having fun it was a Lamborghini you only ride it like it's your last.

After having the time of her life she went back home. She parked the car where it had been before taking a second to look at it. "it's a shame I have to take you back," she said kissing it, "don't worry, momma will ride you whenever she can, don't miss me too much," she whispered to it.

"What are you doing?" Britney asked as she and Chris came out of the house.

"uhm, nothing, " Mckayla quickly replied,  standing up straight.

"loos like you were kissing my car," Chris replied pulling Britney closer to him,  he felt she was walking to far. He held her hand tightly as she blushed.

"Oh please, so you caught me. What? Am I not allowed to fall in love too?" she asked rubbing the car lovingly.

Chris and Britney chuckled

"Well you two look happy," Mckayla teased.

"We are," Chris replied, kissing Britneys hand, "aren't we baby?" he asked

Britney nodded,"very," she replied kissing him again.

"okay, I'm happy for you too, but I'm going to head on inside because I feel like I might throw up," she said walking past them. They smiled at each other as they watched her.

"Mckayla! " Britney teased

Mckayla froze.

"the car keys," Chris said laughing.

Mckayla groaned giving him the keys, "I thought love makes people blind," she said stomping away into the house.

They laughed again as they watched her leave

"Your cousins something else," Chris said as they crossed the street to the Lamborghini.

"she's..uh- unique I guess," Britney said smiling.

Chris paused as he took both of Britney's hands in his, he breathed out, "you make me so happy, " he said losing her forehead.

She smiled back in return, "so do you " she replied.

"I want to promise you today, that we will make this work and I will become better for you, I won't act foolishly anymore or be unsupportive or untrustworthy. I swear that I will put you first always no more mistakes," he said looking at her. she smiled and kissed him. he kissed her again.

"You better get home, lover boy" she said

he nodded, still kissing her oved and over again, drawing her back rillshe broke away, with a chuckle "You're not going to leave if you keep kissing me," she said backing away a little smiling.

Chris laughed nodding. He moved closer to her drawing her in, "one more so I can believe this is really happening," he said

he kissed her long and hard for the last time that day.

Then he backed away.

"I-Im inside because you won't leave if I stay outside, " she cooed.

"I won't," Chris agreed, endlessly.

she smiled backing away, "call me!" she said.

he nodded watching her every move, her smile, the way she but her lip.

"goodbye," she said waving.

"goodbyefor now," he said still watching her.  She chuckled at this she turned around sharply and almost hit the door.

Chris smiled still leaning against the car.

she turned back blowing him a kiss and he caught it watching as she opened the door and went in.

"spill it," Mckayla attacked as soon as she walked in.

"Woah, hold on, let me close the door," she said surprised closing the door.

"Tell me happened.In details.." Mckayla ordered,  leading her to the sitting room. Britney laughed all the way.

***

Chris paused for a momment then entered his car and drive off happy, jolly and light headed.

He was singing all the way home, a smile wedged onto his face. When he arrived at home he enterd the house and passed by the kitchen.

Then he retraced his steps.

Robin,  Bree and Justin were sitting at the kitchen counter all looking at his direction.

"what?" he asked

"Tell us" they said  to him at the same time.

"are you two back together?" Robin asked.

"Your face is a little swollen, never a good sighn," Justin pointed out.

"We've been waiting," Bree added.

Chris walked in with a solemn face.

Robin shook his head and stood up a bit wobbly though.

"it's okay son, there a lot of other women in the world," he said patting his back.

"I didn't even like her any way, " Bree huffed out,  trying to cheer him up.

"what are you guys talking about?" Chris asked, a smile creeping onto his features.

"it's all good! Britney and I are back together!" he announced.

"Amen!" Bree shouted out.

"There a lot of other women in the world but that ones yours," Robin said patting his back with a wide grin.

Justin hugged him, "I'm happy for you bro, "

"I'm happy too."