Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Synn's POV

Three weeks. It took me three weeks to think and realize that I was stupid for pulling that trick between her and Gold.

What if Gold decides to get back with her?

What if he gets mad for what I did?

What if he tells me to back off and mind my own business?

If any of this actually happens, I won't be able to save my face after all those things I said to her. I'd appear as a loser and pathetic.

Above all this, what adds up to my frustration is that Gold didn't even bother answering. Looking back, I acted like some possessive bitch who's trying to get in between two people who had a relationship when I don't even have anything to do with it.

You are so stupid, Synn! Stupid!

I gritted my teeth and lightly hit the top of my head in frustration.

Just pretend nothing happen when you see him. I tried convincing myself.

"Wow! This girl has gone mad," My attention was caught by the sound of laughter of my members, Snow even raising her eyebrows.

We were currently inside our van on our way home. We just came back from our concert in Japan.

"Japan made her lose her cool," Elisse laughed and I glared at them earning a new set of laughter from the three.

"Seriously, Synn, are you on your period or something?" Arika asked, amused at my reaction.

My eyes scanned the three and they were all looking at me like I killed someone secretly or something. Too bad, it's probably my self-esteem that has been buried - alive, if I may add.

These three don't even know the shit I had to go through these past weeks. But it's still my fault. I knew they will scold me if I tell them. Then again, it was my decision. I carelessly decided for myself just because I feel bad for that fucker who had the decency to leave my message on seen.

"Ugh, I am stupid!" I inanimately cried while grabbing a fistful of my hair, the three laughing all at once.

"What, did you confess with someone or what? Coz that'll be totally awkward if you got rejected," Snow asked. By this time, our van was already down the basement parking, our manager maneuvering it to the designated lot for us.

I hissed at her words and Arika moved forward and pinched my cheeks.

"Let's go eat some ice cream, Richards. Stop with your tantrums," Elisse patted my shoulder as the door suddenly opened, our other manager urging us to go out.

For some reason, my heart skipped a beat when she called me by my last name. Gold often calls me that.

Ge’ez, Synn. Get yourself together.

"Synn, did you do something wrong? You took your Mom's favorite bag again, didn't you?" They continued asking while we're on the elevator. Our manager no longer with us.

"That was one time! And for the record, I told her I'm borrowing it and she forgot," I bantered and Snow just stuck her tongue out, messing with me.

"Stop asking me weird questions. It's not like you guys doesn't act like this from time to time. I mean, Arika acted like some cat even rolling on the floor three months ago when she got drunk," I whined, even stomping my feet a little and that made them tease me even more.

"Shut up, Synn. You told me I was adorable," she chuckled and I didn't answer because she's only speaking the truth.

The sound of the elevator opening signaled us to move forward and it wasn't even three steps when Snow stopped, Elisse and I ended up hitting both her and Arika's back.

"Awww!" I whined, rubbing my nose a little.

"Arika!" Elisse exclaimed.

My brows furrowed when the two didn't move forward.

These two are at it again.

"Hey, Synn..." Snow whispered.

"What? Hey, I need to pee!" I pouted just in time for her to move sideways. And it was as if I was stuck in my place. Coz there he was, leaning on the wall in all his glory.

Holy shit.

"Gold..." his name naturally coming out of my lips.

He was there, both hands inside his coat, his Timberlands still available for me to see.

Elisse pushed me forward.

"Go..." she whispered, pushing me forward along with SNow and Arika.

My hands reached for the walls as I try to stop them.

"No!" I panicked, "No! Wait! Wait!" I turned around ready to run but Snow and Arika grab both of my arms carrying me towards our door.

"Hey!" I was kicking in my feet and Elisse was openly laughing at my state.

The three are ganging up on me.

"Traitor!" I hissed at Elisse and she just winked.

In no time, I heard the sound of our door being opened and the three of them coming in leaving me in front of Gold.

"Senior, you should talk in the living room. Someone might see you two outside. We'll just be in our rooms," Snow bowed, along with the two.

I rolled my eyes at their actions and mouthed series of curses that they just all return with a giggle.

"Enjoy," Elisse mouthed before running off inside her room, the two following.

My ears felt weird and I knew my heart was thumping really hard inside my chest.

My knees were shaky. I doubt I can even turn around to greet him.

My hands reached for my face, covering them in embarrassment. After that stunt I pulled at their dorm, the message I sent to him and what I did just now, I don't think I still have any strength left to face him.

"So..." he started, his voice husky, I thought I forgot to breathe. "Are you not going to let me in?" he asked and my eyes closed.

Breathe Synn...

Opening my eyes, I slowly turned around and smiled at him awkwardly.

"Senior..." I timidly greeted, even bowing in front of him, the amused expression on his face available for me to see. "Ahh, come in," I offered, and I was quick to turn around so I can enter our dorm.

"We're back to being formal, I see," he started. I heard him follow and I march my way towards the couch.

I turned around and saw him checking our place out before he casually sat on the couch before I even offer. He was just wearing simple clothes but that made him look even more surreal.

He smiled at me and my stomach churned. He smiled. He just gave me the fucking bunny smile.

Good Lord.

"So, senior, what brought you here?" I asked, sitting on the empty couch opposite his.

Just after I asked the question, the corner of his lips twitched upward, making me even more nervous.

Trouble.

His smile spells trouble.

"Why? Can't I go visit my girlfriend?" he deadpanned answered and I was sure I heard something crashing in one of the rooms inside but I didn't have the time to be bothered.

By this time, my mouth was hanging wide open, my brain unable to fully process what he said.

As if he didn't just drop something big in front of me, he just has to add another.

"I miss you, cupcake. Don't I get a hug? " he added, his arms spread wide open as if waiting for me to come over and that's more than enough for me to lose my shit.

Fucking bunny smile just caused my death.