Chapter 12: Chapter 12

...Love can either be the most treasured feeling of immense fondness you desire or can be the most ravaging feeling that leaves you in a desolate place...

Evelyn POV:-

After breakfast, the sordid feeling of asking Adrian's assistance for the preparations of Reception obstructs my mind with undesirable thoughts from wanting to stay away at all cost.

“Dammit.” I muttered, walking away.

I want redemption from these unwanted feelings. I was stressed and turned to my room. On my way, I saw Lawrence, Uncle Shawn and Uncle Ray in the living room.

“Just say you can’t do it and end this.” Mumbling to myself, I built my determination.

I decided to go inside and join the conversation but when I was about to enter I heard a voice behind me.

"There you are! I was looking for you," I turned to Adrian. I exhaled and said nothing.

"Come," Adrian motioned me to follow him.

I walked behind him and my mind fluctuated with problematic thoughts. I'll drive myself insane if I think that much about these things.

‘When he is unaffected then why do I care? It definitely means nothing to him.’ I thought.

I am stuck in this vexatious situation and this won't be able to detach from me unless I confiscate my feelings and obliterate what I feel about Adrian and devote myself to Lawrence.

“What were you doing there? Were you looking for Brother?” He asked nonchalantly.

“Nothing.” I replied quietly, looking away.

I was left flabbergast when Adrian took me to his room. I would rather jump off a cliff than enter his room now. Adrenaline rushed through me.

I don't want to torment myself this badly. It's the room I never entered before.

"Let me get my laptop," Adrian said as I snapped from my thoughts.

“Huh? Oh, okay.” I looked at him and gave him a nod. I stood outside the room as he walked out with his laptop. I am grateful that I don't have any negative feelings left for him.

I stare at the floor with faze at how in one day all those years feelings, that fondness and endearment I treasured dearly, fade away.

It all swayed away like wind and I let it happen- the most astonishing thing ever. I looked at the wedding ring and smiled all thanks to this bond with intense power.

Or maybe I was looking for the chance and when I gained it, I desperately grasped it so it could help me get away from him?

“Evelyn.”

Am I using Lawrence to get away from Adrian? No. No. I am not that low. But, what if I am and I don’t know it yet?

“Evelyn?”

Am I that depraved? So immoral to use Lawrence so I could erase my feelings?

“Evelyn!” Gasping, I turned and saw Adrian with a frown plastered over his face.

“Huh? What?” I asked softly, taking a step back, holding the hem of my thoughts with abysmal thoughts.

"Where are you lost? ComeAdrian called me, interrupting me from my thoughts.

“Sorry.” I muttered sorry as we went to the living room.

“Are you sure you are okay?” He asked on the way. Oh, why would you care?

“Hmm. Just thinking.” I hummed, not paying heed to him as we walked away silently.

All of us sat in the living room. I sat beside Lawrence who was taken aback when I sat but why would he when it was not the first time?

"So? Have you decided anything yet?" Lawrence asked, turning to flash a pure smile at me..

I shook my head 'No'.

“Oh..” He nodded in understanding. A sudden thought came to my mind, which is gonna help me to stay away from Adrian.

"I think we should hold the reception ceremony at home, that way I can handle all the decorations by myself," I suggested.

"That's a great idea! I know you are skilled enough to do that," Lawrence grinned, encouraging me.

He is so sweet, always encouraging. I smiled at him.

"And the date? We have to go back as well, you know." Aunt Camila asked.

"Aunt, when Danielle exams are ending?" I asked. Danielle is the daughter of Aunt Camila and Uncle Ray. She is a good friend of mine.

"On the 18th," "Then how about we hold it on the 25th? That way Danielle can also attend the reception and we will have enough time for preparation?” I suggested expectantly.

“Yeah, you are right.” Everyone nodded in agreement, returning me a wide smile.

"We'll discuss the decorations later. Since we don't have to worry about the reservations now" Adrian said nonchalantly.

"It'll be funny to see the reaction of Danielle when she's gonna find out that You are my wife," Lawrence smirked, accidentally moving his hand behind the headrest but thankfully it didn’t touch me.

But his action made me feel like I was in his embrace which made my body freeze. Moreover everyone was present here, especially Adrian- NO!

Curling my toes, I shyly glance at Lawrence, laughing and talking with everyone with his hand behind, sitting in an assertive posture but a gentle aura.

‘So handsome.’ I thought, blushing faintly. The longer my eyes wandered on his face, the more the urge to touch him evoked in him.

I wanted to hold his face, caress his cheeks, something undeniable yet unwanted rushed into my body and I didn’t grasp what was happening to me but it was something beautiful.

“What do you think? It would be fun, right?” He smiled, turning his head to me. He noticed I was silent and decided to keep me in the conversation.

Where were these emotions when I literally fell asleep on his chest once? Where were these emotions when he hugged me for the first time? When we laughed together?

“Huh?” I blinked as my heart began to thump loudly, glancing at him with wide eyes.

“Danielle’s reaction. Just make sure she doesn’t cry.” He smiled, telling this, especially Adrian who holds a perfect degree in pissing her off.

“Yeah, yeah.”

I smiled feeble, nodding and speaking to take part in the conversation and not doze off in thought.

"She'll be furious." I giggled.

We all laughed, spending a nice time together filled with chattering and a pleasant time as usual.