Chapter 45: Chapter 45

When I opened my eyes, Elsa was looking at me reassured, she looked like she had cried a lot and it made me feel uncomfortable.

I'm still hostile to her pack and just thinking that she's part of it still puts me off, but I must admit, this woman behaves very well with me and her family members are very good, especially Pamela, who is a real pearl since I have known them.

They don't have to be like that with me, I'm just the mate of an acquaintance of Elsa and even if they are very good friends, she doesn't have to behave so nicely with me.

She treats me like a member of her family and that has the gift of putting me in the most total ambiguity.

I don't want to bond with her or anyone else with a Soul Moon connection. But between what I want and what happens, there is a huge chasm.

Surely that's what my wolf meant when he said circumstances.

I huffed before realizing I was exhausted. It looked like I had a sleepless night while doing backbreaking work.

"Are you okay Sophia? Ah, we'll stop there for now. You must rest."

I nodded before frowning at a certain scent that wafted through the air.

This smell, I would recognize it among so many others, is that of my alpha.

" He was there, wasn't he?"

Elsa gasped in surprise looking at me for a start before smiling.

"Are you talking about your alpha? Indeed, when you lost control, he was the one who managed to bring you back to your senses and keep you human."

I felt my heart skip a beat as I put my hand to my chest with a slight smile on my lips.

He is always there for me no matter what.

I looked around me and unfortunately, he wasn't there. It was obvious, he said that when the time is right, he will come to me. It's boring to have to wait but I can't help it.

I tried to get up and my body was in shreds as I let out a loud moan.

" You have to go and rest now."

I nodded, getting help from Elsa. Once in my room, I lay down on the bed noticing a bouquet on my bedside table. It was an arrangement of red and yellow flowers, and above the bouquet was a card. I took the card and noticed a message on it.

[ These roses represent courage and respect, values ​​that you have shown and that I feel in the face of your efforts. The red roses represent all the love I have for you and the passion you arouse in me, your kindness, and the appreciation of your presence by my side. While the yellow rose is a symbol of the close bond that exists between us. I love you Sophia.]

I placed the card to my lips savoring his words. How on this earth a person whose face I do not know can cause me so much happiness? I feel very in love and it's not my frivolous side that speaks.

I ended up falling asleep until dinner when Pamela came back to pick me up.

The evening went very well and at night, I had another visit from my alpha during which I wanted to thank him for the morning. Without him, for sure, I might be lost as a lycanthrope forever.

He just nodded as I fell asleep in his arms.

The next day, I continued my training with Elsa turning me into a wolf for at least five minutes. I realized that, unlike the night of my coming of age when I had spent a lot of time in this form, I couldn't do it anymore.

" It's normal, being your first time, you had a surplus of adrenaline in the body and this effervescence of sensations helped you to keep this form for a very long time. That won't be possible now, which is why you're training to control your transformations. For the moment it empties you of your forces but gradually, you will get used to it."

I sighed, I can't wait because now I feel like I'm dying, I'm so exhausted.

That's how I spent the day and soon it was Monday.

Yes, my first day working as an assistant to Greg Travis, the richest man in the world and also, my very first love.

I sighed in exhaustion, why should I be so nervous, it's true, just the job could make anyone nervous but that's not really what bothers me.

The fact that Greg is my boss specifically is what freaks me out so much.

I don't want to look stupid in front of him, I could bear it before everyone but not Greg. But more, I don't want to look at him with those loving transit eyes.

I have a man in my life, one I'm sure I love but Greg, he'll always have a special place in my heart and that's what scares me.

What if I give free rein to my feelings and jump on him? Why can't I just forget him? Why did he have to reassure me last time that our relationship was not a joke for him? That he loved me.

Now I can't think properly but I should refrain from desiring him out of respect for my alpha.

I can't go on like this. It's decided, I must forget him, we certainly loved each other passionately, but it's in the past, he and I have taken opposite directions today.

Determined to just do my job, I went alongside Elsa to the headquarters of Travis Entertainment and taking a huge breath, I climbed into the elevator receiving curious looks as I crossed people.

My heart was pounding when Elsa asked Greg's assistant to announce us and when he came back saying Greg was ready to see us, my insides began to twist painfully.

Why was I even like this? It was ridiculous.

I bit my lip as Elsa received a phone call which she decided to take while her boss was waiting for her.

No, she should have returned that call, but worse than when I wanted to wait for her, the assistant asked me to come in without Elsa.

I swallowed before entering but Greg was in front of the door and I came across his scent invading my mind. I looked up to find his scarlet gaze staring at me intensely and sexily, my heart skipped a beat immediately.

Sweet heavens I'm screwed.