Chapter 33: Chapter 33

Jessie's POV

"Wow," I muttered in amazement as I watch the boys perform live for their concert.

To be honest, this is the first time that I am watching them perform and I'm so glad I agreed when Yohan asked me too.

Two weeks ago, I found out my family. More like, my family found me, all because of Yohan.

It turns out, my Mom lost me when I was a kid. They tried to find me for years until my older sister got sick. Unfortunately, she died.

Yohan and my sister became friends until unnie Jenna died.

I cried a lot after I realized that I wasn't even able to see my sister before she died. But Yohan assured me that she lived a happy life. Though it shattered my heart for a million pieces when he said that my unnie always bought everything by twos in case they find me

If Yohan did not bring me to the Columbarium that day, I might not have found my family.

A smile escaped my lips after remembering how Yohan accompanied my father after my Mom desperately asked Yohan about me. That's when they realized that I am the same little kid that was lost when I was little.

All my life, I thought nobody loves me, that I was all alone.

I allowed myself to think that nobody wanted me, until Yohan came into my life.

Every day, all he did was to show and made me feel how special I am and how much he loves me.

He'd cook me food and sing me songs to the point that the rest of the boys were already whining.

I was seated on a perfect spot near the stage, where I can see their every move.

So this is how it feels to see them perform live and up close, huh.

Before, after they finish their recording, that means my job is also finished. Except when we had to record for other versions for concerts and live shows. But everything ends there.

I covered my ears when both girls beside me screamed at the top of their lungs after Yohan's eyes landed on my direction.

"Did you see that? Yohan oppa looked at me" the girl beside me shake her friend really hard.

"Stupid, he isn't looking at you. I think he was looking at her." she said pointing at my direction.

I pretended not to hear their conversation and adjusted the mask that I was wearing.

I am really never comfortable with people.

"Jason oppa!!!! I love you!"

"Jake, marry me!!!!"

"Oh my God, just look at Vash. My Vash, I love you!!!"

I chuckled after I heard a male fan shouting over Josh oppa's name.

"Jung Haiden! You can dance me to bed!" I cringed at what the other girl had said.

"Kim Rome, you're so sexy!"

I shook my head in amazement. I never knew concerts can get this crazy.

After their song, Dope, the members gathered in the middle, just around in front of me and my cheeks blushed after I realized that Yohan kept on glancing to my direction. Good thing, it was dark and I am still wearing my mask.

"Unnie, I swear Yohan oppa is keeps on looking at you." the girl beside me muttered and I just shrugged my shoulder, not letting her notice how nervous I am becoming.

"Wait, aren't you that girl with Yohan oppa?" she said and I pulled my mask higher as a few more girls started to look at my direction.

"Oh my God, that's her. Unnie, thanks for making our Yohan oppa smile a lot!"

I was taken aback when one girl grabbed both of my hands and happily jumped up and down in front of me.

"Is that really her?"

"Oh, I wish we can see her face."

"I bet she's not that beautiful that's why she's covering her face."

"But I like her. She doesn't seem like a fake ass bitch."

I bit my lower lip after I realize a few people murmuring around me.

My heart quickens it's beating.

No. I can't have my panic attack in here.

My eyes started to get teary and the girl in front of me must have noticed as she stopped jumping around.

"Unnie, are you okay?" she said as my hands landed on my chest and I look on the ground afraid to see the eyes of all the people.

I can feel the beads of sweat forming on my forehead. I was starting to breathe heavily.

The next thing I knew, the place got silent and I was hearing someone calling my name.

"Jessie!"

The voice sounds familiar.

"Jessie, look at me, please"

The girl tapped me by the shoulder and pointed in front of the stage and Yohan was crouching down, looking at me worriedly.

"Are you okay?" he asked worriedly and I realized, a few men already went near my direction.

"Do you want to go back stage?" he asked I shake my head.

No.

I am enjoying seeing him smile while performing.

He seemed to be the happiest when he is in front of his fans, singing and rapping.

"Unnie, it's okay. I think you need to go. A few fans were glaring at your direction. You might get hurt in here." she said and I smiled at her.

She'd been nothing but a dear.

The girl behind her nodded as well.

"These are fans but some gets too possessive and jealous sometimes. You can't control everybody." the other girl chimed in.

"Thanks, what are your names?" I asked.

"I'm Ji Hee and she's Eun Ji." the other girls said.

"Thanks a lot. I'll make sure to tell the boys about you." I told them and then squealed.

I looked in front and nodded at Yohan who returned with the boys and I move with the two men who accompanied me back stage.

"Jessie, are okay?" one of their stylist asked worriedly.

"I'm okay." I said as I remove my mask. There are few people here anyways and most of them works for our company.

My brows furrowed as I saw the stage director and music director talking at the side.

"We can't just use a recording when the boys always rehearse with a band!"

"Excuse me?" I butt in. "Is there anything wrong?"

I knew both directors as sometimes, they ask my opinion for ensembles and pieces to be used for concerts.

"The drummer hurt his wrist and his arm is totally swollen so he had to head back stage as the boys were talking with their fans." the music director said, panic obvious on his face.

"Isn't this almost the end of the concert? Don't you have other back up musicians to play?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.

"Unfortunately, none as of the moment. We don't really know what to do." he messed up his hair and I bit my lip.

"I can play the drums. I mean, I watched their rehearsals earlier." I added.

It's true though, I watched the while rehearsal and since I basically arranged most of the pieces, I can basically act as the music director if I want.

And of course, I can play any instrument. I use raw pieces when creating music.

"Are you sure?" the music director sounded hopeful and I just can't say no.

Plus, I don't want their performance to get messed up.

"I am so glad you're here Jessie. Come here, you can talk with the band first and I'll ask Rome to make their segment a little longer so you can prepare."

I headed towards the band's direction and they bowed at me.

Once we did a run down on what to do, I sat on the drums and adjusted the pieces for my comfort.

Good thing that I am not too exposed to people and the boys didn't notice me as well.

Soon enough, Kim Vash headed in front to start the song.

They're going to do the intro for their second single.

I watch in awe while I play as the boys continuously sings with passion, regardless of how tired they may seem. The smile on their faces are inevitable.

They really love what they’re doing.

I don't even know what happened but soon enough, I found myself enjoying and didn't realized that my mask had fell off my face and once the song ended, Yohan was grinning at me.

That face, I am so glad I can call that person mine.

I love you, Min Yohan.

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