Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Seven

First thing I see as I set my foot in the lecture room are the eyes of my Girlfriends, yeah, all four of em. Deborah, Tessy, Gift, Ruth. They all had different facial expressions on.

Deborah had the "OHEMGEE you look fantastic, what happened to you, look."

Tessy wore the "Oh!well, I don't see what the fuss is all about but you clean up nice and you could have certainly done better, look"

Gift has the "Yayy, I'm happy for you, look"

And Queen Ruth certainly has the "Why were you speaking to my ex-boyfriend, look"

"Why were you speaking to my ex?" She finally voiced out after we were done with all the fake coos and "I missed you so much" drama.

"You mean why was your ex boyfriend speaking to me right?" I asked, and I could sense that my little streak of confidence shook Sis up a little bit.

"Whatever, what did he say" she asked, clearly trying to recover from the weird fact that the rat of the clique might have just stood up to her.

"We were just catching up, why?"

"N...nothing, it's just I didn't know you guys spoke or even knew each other"

"Trust me, sweetie, you don't know everything" I said and once again, Sis got Shooked.

I subtly rolled my eyes and slid my earpiece bud back on, Jannelle Monae was singing "I Got The Juice" and for some reasons, I felt like i didn't give a damn anymore, I mean what's the point? I'm dying in three months, what do I care, especially when I know no-one really cares, the worse she could possibly say to me right now is tell me that she's doesn't want to be friends with me anymore, and truth be said, that would be doing me a huge favor.

I felt someone tap my shoulder, it was her.

"Yeah?" I asked, sliding the earpiece off gently in that "Why are you disturbing me " manner.

"I need to tell you something, actually, I need to ask you something."

"Okay?"

"Are you really done with Stephan?"

Oh no! Now everyone knows. Why does Stephan have to be a baby though?, it's way too early for all this drama!

"Uhm, yeah." I shrugged. "Why?"

"The thing is, I might be dating him, we're not official or something, yeah we kissed a few times, but I just want to know if you're cool with it? I mean you know, I don't want to be sneaking and hiding around when I'm with him."

Wow, freaking Wow! It's been barely 3 weeks since I ended things with him and they're already...kissing?; You know when i asked what the worst she could possibly say to me? Yeah I wasn't expecting this. Yeah maybe I broke up with him and I'm trying to move on and all but anyone, and when i say anyone,i mean "Anyone", knows that it doesn't take three freaking weeks to heal from a failed relationship. Like that isn't enough, he had to pick things up with the evil...evil...evil thing!, we was supposed to be my friend? And she even has the audacity to tell me to my face!...without a sign of regret?. I mean, what does she actually take me for? The rat who wouldn't mind her ex boyfriend smashing her friend? I know Ruth well, and I know she just told me this to prove one point, "She's the baddest and she's the Boss and she can do whatever she wants without being questioned" well if I've got 3 months to live on this sickly and disgusting surface of the earth, I'd like to leave with words like "SHE WAS A BAD BAD CHICK WHO STOOD HER GROUND" not "SHE WAS A WUSSY WHO DELIBRATELY LET PEOPLE LIKE "RUTH" WALK ALL OVWR HER" so yeah, I know just what to do.

I nodded, "Yeah, yeah, I...I I'm cool, like I totally understand and I'm cool with it, in fact I also think you need to know that I kissed Paul a day before he broke up with you, and I think I'm the reason he actually broke up with you, in fact, when you saw him talking to me outside, yeah?, he was actually asking me out, and I think I'm going to say yes, are you cool with it?"

Damn the sarcasm and pettiness in my tone was Oscar worthy and extremely toxic, and I blinked dramatically as I watched her soak all I'd just said, in.

"Wow" she breathed out.

"Yeah that's the same thing I said too" I heard myself reply.

"To be honest, minus the circumstances and all, I think it's a fair fair situation here" I heard Gift croak in and I couldn't help but shrug and laugh, everyone within earshot joined too, well...except from Ruth.

She didn't seem to find a word to say until after our first two lectures when she walked up to me and said,

"Hi, I've thought about it, and I think you can date him...if you want, and yeah, I forgive you for cheating on me with my boyfriend when we were still dating, I mean it's not like you didn't know how much i cried over him during that period, I actually thought you were the only one who understood how much I loved him and i--"

"Hold it right there..." I said, getting up to my feet and picking my bag up. "...you're not going to make me feel guilty, we're equal, and we both know you only cried because he broke up with you instead of the other way round so please"

She laughed dramatically for a while before calming down and walking up to me.

"I wonder where this new confidence erupted from, but I sure hope it doesn't get you killed"

If that was just a mere threat or one of those things people say when they're pissed and all, I don't know and I don't care, whether my confidence kills me or not, I'm dying anyway.