Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Despairin the lowest level

My parents were a terrible person .

Abuse have become part of the daily life .

The environment was terrible .

My personality was also twisted .

[It’s that brat with the abominable eyes . ]

When my father vomits, he kicks the young me .

My mother also uses violence .

Along with heartless words .

I just had to give birth .

I can’t even kill an unwanted brat here in Japan, or so she says .

At that moment, a violent veil covered my thoughts .

Those bastards, I’ll kill them someday .

Now that I think about it, was that the so called survival instinct?

I’ll be killed if I keep going as it is .

My instinct tells me so .

That’s what I thought .

My parents are suddenly missing .

They left me behind .

They just suddenly disappeared .

My uncle’s family took custody of me .

Before my parents disappeared, they told me to call my uncle .

“I entrust the brat to you . ” The latest_epɪ_sodes are on_the novel{f}ire.net

My uncle’s family took custody of me with conviction .

I was raised in an environment that I thought was not “ordinary” .

My uncle’s family were kind people .

I decided that I’d be a child without problems .

I don’t want to bother these people about me .

Mimori Touka have come to know kindness .

Thanks to my uncle’s family .

I have to be a child without problems .

I’ve become harmless .

However, it may have returned before the transfer...

The real – “Mimori Touka” .

[So this is the Disposal Ruins, huh...]

The status... can I confirm it?

A robotic voice echoed in my head .

It’s necessary to have enough visibility, huh...

I feel around the nearby ground .

The touch of leather .

I grab it and held it in my hand .

I can feel the jewelry near my thumb .

If I put magic energy in this jewel, it would illuminate, right . . ?

I’m reminded of that time when I use my personal skill on that goddess .

Reminder, it’s that shitty goddess’ commentary .

Magic energy, injecting .

The jewel began to shine a faint light .

The leather bag also emits light along with it .

Really, a feeling of “being able to use magic” .

It may be weak, my field of vision still became better .

A ceiling with intense unevenness .

The ground is also strangely bumpy .

[Rather than a ruin, it’s more like a cave . ]

I stand up and approach .

Are these from a human?

[Ack~!] (T/N: gross onomatopeia)

Furtheremore, it’s just a half of a skull .

Where’s the other half?

Was it broken into two?

It was broken into two .

“Something” is in this ruins .

My heart is beating like crazy .

This is the disposal ruins with zero survival rate .

Is it because my consciousness that have been half awake has become clear?

The area around my temple began to pulsate .

If you think normally, Mimori Touka will die .

The goddess may not be here, but returning to the ground would still be difficult .

Unusual sweat began to spout out .

I have a bad feeling about this .

The putrid scent of death is drifting everywhere .

The scent of death from this disposal ruins .

Those guys, will I become like them?

Something, important .

The feeling I had when I’m living with my real parents .

I’m about to be killed .

My heart is rumbling .

It’s pulsing became intense .

It’s dangerous here .

My instinct tells me so .

The reason for the warning is immediately apparent .

Suddenly– The brightness has increased .

The surface of the skull becomes orange .

The skull reflects some light?

Something that emits orange light .

[Fu shi yu oo... . uooorrrrrrroaaaaa~! shi yu~ oo~ oo~!]

Shuwashuwashuwa... (T/N: apparently, that’s how bubbles sounds .

Something falls on the ground .

Something sounds like its melting .

Did it just melt the ground?

The irregularities in the ground I saw earlier were quite intricate .

Is it because of that shuwashuwa I heard earlier?

Something is... behind me?

I want to make sure .

But, I didn’t turn around .

The reason is because I’m sure .

The moment I move, I’ll be killed .

My reasoning acted as a brake .

The one who destroyed the breaks— is my instinct .

The moment I started running, I fell over...

However, this turned to be my good fortune .

Grazing through overhead– something with a heavy mass .

Readjusting my posture, I run .

Only to be blown out by wind pressure .

Just now, did it just–?

Did it just try to hit me?

Did it just try to catch me?

I need to do something,

No time to turn around .

Absolutely, no time at all .

The feeling of adrenaline runs through me .

Every cell in my body is scared .

My teeth is now chattering .

It’s still ringing, bit by bit .

The real intent to kill .

It was different from what the goddess have released .

The goddess intends to overpower .

Now, the intent of that “something” on my back–

While running, I suddenly realized .

Hurriedly, I hide the leather bag in my uniform .

This light have become a mark .

I’m going to slip in the dark .

Please let me go already .

[Hah... Hah... . Hah . . Hah... . ]

I want to reduce the sound of my breathing .

Breathing is difficult .

My sense of footing have become unreliable .

Thought of being shredded to pieces .

No— such thoughts must be thrown away .

My instinct tells me so .

I don’t want to die .

Right now, what’s controlling me is just my instinct .

Everything was left to my instinct .

Again, it overflowed .

Even though, I’m not sad .

Even though, I’m not happy .

It’s just, I’m scared .

There’s a scary thing, but...

The reason for my tears is another emotion .

Emotions I have recently tasted

I’ve stumble upon something that stand out .

It was fortunate that I had been able to run through this darkness until now...

[Gah... Guh!? Hah~ Hah~]

I’m scared but tears won’t come out .