Chapter 30: Chapter 30
It was 10 o'clock at night. Rhino had been sitting on the bed with Calista's diary in his hand. He did not know whether to read it or not. Rhino knew very well that it was not right to read someone's personal diary like this.
He thought to himself, "Calista will be angry if she knows about it. But to know about Calista, I must read it."
Rhino decided to read it without further thinking.
He continued thinking, "What happens later will be seen later."
Rhino saw the diary when he opened it. It was beautifully written "Autobiography of Calista".
Rhino touched the writing gently. Then he turned the page to the original writing page. The first word Rhino saw when he opened the first page was "Ominous".
Rhino frowned his brow after seeing the word. He frowned and started reading.
First page–
"Ominous. Yes, I am an ominous person. Everyone might think what kind of name is it? Well, I have a name. That my grandmother named me that. Calista Ivelle. But it's just a name because no one calls me with it. Everyone calls me ominous, witch, etc etc. I have heard this nonsense so many times since my childhood that I have not even heard my own name so many times. When everyone called me ominous when I was young, I didn't understand. I thought it might be my name. Like everyone's parents lovingly call their children as babies, honey, maybe everyone also lovingly calls me by that name. But gradually when I started to grow a little, I realized that it is not an affectionate call. Because everyone's parents used to call their children gold magic and they used to show their children a lot of love. But nothing like that would happen to me. On the contrary, I was always scolded and beaten when I grew up. It is not a name but the ultimate truth of my life. And the curse of my life. Which I may have to live with for the rest of my life."
Next page—
"Everyone says my mother died because of me. I killed my mother. I killed my grandmother. Even my father thinks so. Now I feel myself listening to everyone. I am really a fool. Everyone died because of me. My mother and grandmother left me. And even my dad disowned me. He can't see me either. Stepmom's torture does not hurt so much as much pain I feel at my father's neglect. Sometimes I really want to know how I would feel If my father loved me. If he would have patted my head a little, then maybe all my troubles would have gone away."
Another page—-
"My best friend's name's Ezlyn. Sometimes she asks me why I stay at this home. And why I tolerate their torture. She advised me to leave that house and to be independent and be myself. But how could I convince her? The easier it is to say, the more difficult the reality is. Being independent does not make you independent. Especially for a girl. In our society boys can do whatever they want. But girls can't. It's not that girls can't work. They can work just as hard as boys. But when a girl steps out of the house then all around the group of hyenas start trying to devour her and destroy her. So even if a girl wants to be independent, she needs someone's support. Whoever she is. I know Ezlyn will allow me to stay in her house. But that too will be like a refuge. And besides, how long will Ezlyn's parents keep another girl in their house! Sooner or later they too will get irritated by me. So anyway it is better to stay at home. And the biggest thing, even if they don't think of me as their own I think of them as my own. At the end of the day, that's my family."
Another page—-
"Do you know mom, I miss you sometimes. I want to go to you. You are such a rotten mom. Why did you leave me alone? I don't like it here mom. I have no one in this cruel world. No one loves me. No one can see me. You know, mom, I am very afraid of the dark. At night when the storm thunders, I still cower in fear. Yet no one comes to ease my fear. Even if I have not eaten, no one asks me to eat. I don't want to stay here. take me to you mom."
Rhino closed the diary after reading this. He couldn't read anymore. There was a pain that started in his chest. His eyes were red.
"Such an innocent girl has to endure so much pain." Rhino murmured.
Rhino was getting choked up thinking about it. His eyes were burning very much. Maybe they want to shed tears. But he is a man. And men do not cry. Rhino couldn't sit still. He got up and went to the balcony. Now he needed some fresh air. Otherwise he will suffocate.
Rhino rested his head on the balcony's pillar and closed his eyes, holding the border with both hands. He was trying to calm himself a little in the gusty wind outside. After a while, Rhino calmed himself down a little and went to the washroom and splashed water in his eyes. Then he came out refreshed.
His head was aching so much. So he went to the kitchen and made a black coffee. Then he took the coffee and came back to the bedroom and sat on the bed. While drinking the coffee, he started reading the diary again.
Next Page—-
" When I was a child, my grandmother used to tell me fairy tales. Where a sad girl like me lived. Then a beautiful prince would come and make her a queen and take her to his kingdom. I also listened attentively. Grandmother used to say that there is a prince for me too who will take me to his kingdom. I would be happy to hear that too. I used to dream with my head on my grandmother's lap. A beautiful prince riding a white horse is taking me to his kingdom. Make me his queen. But as I grew up, I also lost this illusion. I realized that all these things only happen in fiction. In reality there are no princes. You have to see your own good and bad. Ezlyn also says someone will come into my life who will remove all my troubles. I laugh at her words. The girl is really a little filmy. Because I know that this is not going to happen. I don't want to give myself false hope by just seeing these dreams."
Another page–
"But people say one thing, our mind, this mind is a big silly thing. No matter how you explain it, it moves like it's own. And so, even after all this, there is still a faint hope somewhere in my mind that maybe someone will come one day in my life who will color my life in new colors. May he not have big palaces like kings but there will be infinite space for me in his heart. May he not have big cars but only on a full moon night can he and I sit on the boat and put my head on his shoulder to see the moon. At the end of the day, once again the mind is cleared that nothing is going to happen. There is no use in just dreaming."
Next page—
Calista wrote everything from here when she met with Rhino. Rhino smiled seeing this.
"That rotten man has come again. Why does that horrible person come again and again? I feel disgusted when I see him. He came again today. In the end, I can't save my last possessions?"
Then what Johnny did with Calista is written here. Rhino's head was on fire after reading this. His whole body was bursting with anger. His forehead vein was also swollen and his jaw tightened. The eyes had become red fire. He gripped the coffee cup in his hand due to excessive anger for which the cup broke. Some of the pieces of the cup entered his hand and blood came out through the hand.