Chapter 52: Chapter 52

Tucker: So?

I was frowning at the screen, how can he express his love and then ask me for such a thing and it is not even like he gave me a choice, he just stubbornly wants my nudes.

Me: If you respect me, you will respect my decision. I am not sending my nudes Tucker.

It was the first time that I have said no to him like that, not even feeling bad or guilty.

Tucker: Oh! So is that how much you love me?

Me: So love is all about nudes?

Tucker: It is a test, if you trust me, you will send your nudes.

Tucker: Or else, we are done tonight.

I gasped at the text, I mean girlfriends do send their boyfriends pictures. I gulped and stood in front of the mirror, watching myself. Maybe it was all my fault, I was in a relationship and I hadn't given him any pleasure.

Me: Fine.

Tucker: Thanks, I am waiting.

I started taking off my clothes one by one, looking at my image in the mirror while doing so. Now I was standing next to the mirror, completely naked and staring at myself. My body began to shiver, tears rolling down my cheeks as I picked up my phone to take pictures.

I closed my eyes before clicking the picture and Steven's face popped up before my eyes. He was not happy when I was dancing with a random guy in the club, he was mad that Dina invited me to the club, he cared so much, he didn't want me to change, because maybe he thought I was perfect. I opened my eyes and hurriedly wore my clothes again.

Me: I can't do this.

I sat in my bed, not crying anymore. I was more determined than ever.

Tucker: It is okay, drink some water and try again.

I gritted my teeth at his attitude, he was being a pusher.

Me: Tucker I am not doing this.

Tucker: Giselle! Then we are done.

I bit my lip and grabbed my heart above my chest, feeling the pain of heartbreak. If he really wants to break up with me over something that I am not comfortable with, then be it. This isn't love if it is that easy for him to leave me over things like these.

Me: Your choice.

Once I send this, my heart began racing in my chest. I was crying again, It was like I found him and then lost him. I cried for ten more minutes before my phone beeped one more time, I was scared to open the text now.

Tucker: Okay!

I sobbed reading the text, he was after me? My phone beeped again.

Tucker: And I still love you silly!

A smile appeared on my lips and relief hit me. He really accepted my choice?

Me: But I thought you will break up with me.

Tucker: I was just teasing you, even if you had sent me your pictures, I would have deleted them.

Me: So it was a test? If you really wanna test me, don't ask for my nudes, ask for my life.

Tucker: No, it wasn't a test, I was just being an idiot. I am so happy you are changing me, Giselle.

I felt relieved and smiled. Thankfully, nothing bad happened.

The next two days were completely fine. We didn't argue at all, but there was this emptiness every time I crossed the Orphans, there was something missing. Strangely, Dina had stopped hanging out with them, which I wondered was something Sheriff wanted.

I saw Dina standing by the wall, pretending to read her notes, since when had she studied in school? I approached her, hoping to ask about her health.

"Hey!" I got close, "How are you?" asked, giving her a mild smile. She lifted her face and stared at me for a moment,

"Fine," she rudely answered and looked down again.

"Are you still mad at me?" I questioned, after being with Tucker, I lost every single person in my life, even those too who have been with me since I was a child.

"Nope, not because of what you said to me, but yes, because of what you did to Steven." She muttered and scoffed, I was already feeling guilty for everything I have done to Steven and now when she was mumbling my mistakes out loud, I felt like drowning in the ocean of guilt.

"Look, it's not like that incident didn't happen, but yeah I ---," She didn't even let me complete, her loud crackled made me shut up.

"But you called him guilty, without even letting him explain himself. And trust me, Giselle, I am not standing alone because I have made amends with my father's orders, but because I am going to clean his name." she babbled everything quickly and shook her head in disappointment.

"I didn't want to cause him trouble, trust me." as I stated that part she laughed like I had told her a joke.

"Trust you? Giselle, I don't make the same mistake twice," she muttered and raised her brow in what seemed like pure rage to me.

She walked away and didn't even look back at me.

I sighed and then turned around, I saw Sid approaching me. Not him, mumbling in my mouth, I began walking briskly to get away from him.

"Woah! What's the rush?" Sid blocked my way and smirked, I turned the other way and found his other friends standing in my way, stopping me from escaping.

"Sid I don't want any trouble," I mumbled, looking at them one by one.

"Oh! She creates troubles for others and she doesn't want one for herself, miss mean b****," Sid muttered, faking a laugh. I shot my face up and stared into his eyes blankly. He just called me a b***. "You are a trouble miss!" he bent over me and muttered at my face. I lowered my eyes in embarrassment, my heart was racing in my chest.

"Get out of my way," I uttered in my mouth, they were laughing and crackling at me. Where was Tucker whenever I needed him? I kept looking at them, making sure no one crosses their line or touches me.

"Make me, like you made Steven get out of your way," he muttered at my face, slowly stepping near me. I stepped back and bumped into one of his friends, they all booed and I lowered my head even more in embarrassment.

"Where is your friend?" Sid mentioned Tucker, not really calling him my boyfriend, I wondered why?

"Let me go," I whispered in my mouth, keep hugging myself and my books to my chest. His phone rang and he picked it up immediately.

"Steven!" Sid frowned, guilt covering his face as he lowered his eyes. Sid gestured everyone to leave me alone while his phone still stuck to his ear, did Steven tell him to spare me? His friends left while he was still listening to Steven on the phone, "okay, okay." Sid mumbled, hanging up and shoving his phone in his pocket. He turned around to leave, not really giving me a last glance. So the orphans chose Steven over their loyalty towards mister Waltz?

"Wait!" I voiced, he swirled and scoffed, watching me skeptically. "How is he?" I uttered in my mouth, totally ignoring the fact that if Tucker finds out I was concerned about Steven, he will be mad at me.

"Why do you care?" he casually stated, his face has these pained emotions only a true friend can have.

"I---," I wanted to say so many things, but he didn't wait, he somehow knew I was good for nothing, so he exited the place.

That day didn't go very well, everyone would ask me about what I saw in the hallway that day and I have to ignore them all. It was the most tiring day ever. On my way home, Ivory and Tucker were talking about some party while I couldn't help but think about Steven.

It was weird how I cared so much about my image that I messed everything in my surroundings, I cared for my image, but I didn't waste a second before ruining Steven's. Just because they don't repeat how important their image is, doesn't mean they care less about their reputation. I sighed and tears started forming in my eyes. Why did I do all that to Steven and Dina, even I had once accused Sid falsely. I am not a kid to not understand my actions are ruining other people's lives, then why can't I change, what's stopping me?

I skipped lunch and even dinner, what's upsetting is that Tucker was home all day, he knew I skipped my meals but he didn't care like I don't even exist. I never imagined my life like that, my relationship like that. There was no spark in our relationship, the giggles, and butterflies I used to get when thinking about dating Tucker never happened actually. Even I would get disgusted by his actions many times, there was no love but just lust in his actions.

"Is everything alright?" Lauren barged into my room, not worrying about knocking first.

"Yes? Oh yeah, everything is okay." I sat on my bed, but had no strength left to look in her eyes, what was I supposed to say to her, that I am not happy with her son?

"Tucker wants to bring you food." She smiled, I could tell she was just making this up to make her son look good. There was a time when I would really believe that, but something has changed in me.

"Oh! Thanks for reminding him." I babbled, faking a smile. The look on her face was enough to hint to me that she was shocked at my response, I mean I can't really thank her for lying about how much his son cares about me.

"Oh no! I didn't remind him; it was his idea." She was nervously rubbing her hands, gulping her lies. She left the room and after ten minutes, Tucker came in. I hadn't locked the room so he rushed inside without any notice.

"You shouldn't be skipping meals for those stupid orphans." he smiled, elbowing me slightly. I was not upset over the fact that they bullied me in school, because I have been doing worse to them too. But I was mad that I have pushed everyone away from me.

"It is not about them," I mumbled, keeping my face down.

"Whose call did he pick before asking his friends to leave?" he questioned, sitting beside me on the bed. I was about to answer him when I realized that no one was there, how did he know Sid did that?

"How do you know?" I asked in haste.

"I saw him--," He halted, looking away and smiling again, " I heard." he cleverly finished.

"You were there Tucker!" I stated, the frown visible. I wasn't only mad but disappointed too, he ignored me and stayed typing on his phone. "Please get out!" I muttered and pushed the tray with my hand away. He veered his face to me and smiled, thinking I was joking.

"Tucker leave!" I repeated, I was already mad about something, something which was somehow related to Steven, and this guy just told me that he saw those guys bullying me in the school, but he never came to stop them or at least comfort me until his mother told him to do so.