Chapter 46: Chapter 46

It's been two days since I last saw him in his penthouse, after that I didn't hear about him rather, he doesn't bother to show up in the office.

All the meetings and presentations have been postponed, somehow Harith managed to handle our important clients who are looking forward to closing their project on time.

My heart itches me to call him whereas my brain pushes that thought at the back of my mind saying me to mind my own business, but I can't simply sit and watch pretending as it's none of my concern.

Truthfully, I'm caring for him and I need to know whether he is okay. The cut in his chin was so deep and I'm afraid that what if it gets the infection.

Has he seen the doctor? No way in the hell he has done such kind of things in his entire life, not after he made up his useless mind to punish himself.

He thinks whatever he is doing is correct because he wants to suffer. Suffer for what? 'Remember you accused him of our baby's dead' my subconscious mind reminds me, and I sighed in defeat.

How badly I wish to retreat my words. I buried my face between my palm thinking about how I'm going to handle the situation.

Suddenly his wounded face came into my vision and I jerked from my seat. Oh, God!! I rubbed the spot where my heart is pounding heavily. I hurt his feelings more than I wanted.

For four years, I managed to keep my feelings on its bay, but it came out of the champers where I buried, ever since I first met him in this office unexpectedly.

Somehow, I started to hate him more than before when he treated me like trash. But I realized that jealousy has been controlled his entire body making him do such damage in our life.

He thought I have a child with another man that is why he showed his arrogant side to us but when he has known about she is ours, his jealousy and anger were mixed in the air and flew away out of his sight.

Now he is blaming himself for the death of our child but it's not true, partially it's my mistake too when I decided to ignore my doctor's suggestion and traveled to California from London when she strictly told me to take rest, mostly to avoid long time travel.

If I consider her words seriously, I wouldn't have lost my child and have my both kids in my arms and I wouldn't have dragged himself into this hell, the hell where he is dying every day.

Sighing defeatedly, I flipped the files one by one until my shift time ended. "Bye Juliet." I hugged her and walked out of the building then drove my car to my apartment.

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I prepared Claire's favorite snacks apple Slices with almond butter along with the orange juice and set them on the table. Claire rang me and informed me that she and Draco are coming here before they go back to California to visit dad and mom.

"Mommy who is visiting us," Sweety asked tucking the hem of my shirt.

"Uncle Draco and aunt Claire are coming here to see their favorite niece Sweety." I pinched her cheeks playfully.

"I thought it was dad." Her face dropped.

"A-ahh dad will take you out on coming Saturday," I said and gave her a glass of milk to drink.

"But I want to see him right now." She looked at me pleadingly.

"Okay, mom will bring you tomorrow to see your dad. Now be a good girl and drink the milk." Her face lit up with happiness and she drank the whole glass of milk in a minute.

"Mommy, Shall I play with Shadow?" she asked innocently, biting her lips.

"Young lady who teaches you to act like that," I asked kneeling beside her size. Shadow is our neighborhood dog, but I'm not happy to allow her to play with her after what she did to that poor Shadow.

"Mom, I'm a big girl I know how to behave. No one teaches me anything." She raised her hand in the air like the big girl she was. Oh, God! Where I missed raising her properly.

"Okay, but be careful," I said firmly.

"Sure mommy!!" she yelled and ran out of the apartment. Once she went out of my sight, I busied myself with preparing dinner.

A minute later, I heard a doorbell rang and went to open the door for them.

"Riya!!! How much I missed you." Claire engulfed me in a warm hug.

"Girl, we were met two days before. Did you forget that?" I asked once we pulled apart.

"Don't be a drama queen. I missed you and don't need to remind me when the last time we met." She walked inside revealing a handsome Draco who was standing outside until her dramatic queen gave him away to enter.

"Hey, Riya! How do you do." He kissed both my cheeks and entered inside.

"I'm doing good." I gave him a simple reply with that we three settled on the couch and started to talk about some random stuff that we have done in the previous week.

But my mind was not involved in the entire conversation as it suddenly drifted onto him and brought the memory of that horrible night causing me to shutter my body down.

"Riya, you okay?" Claire asked taking my hand with her.

"Yeah!" I nodded my head and plastered a weak smile but Claire being my best friend read my mind and asked me to tell her what's exactly bothering me.

"I don't know Claire, I- I feel somewhat empty inside," I admitted truthfully.

"Why?" She asked cautiously pleading with me to tell her detail.

"I think I went too far-" before finishing my sentence Draco cut me off saying, "If you feel pity for him then you are the uttermost fool in the world Riya." His eyes darkened and he clenched his jaw.

"Draco, could you please shut your mouth." Claire threw him a murderous glare that shut his mouth immediately.

"Riya, I can understand how you are feeling right now." She caressed my hand which she was holding.

"Decision is all yours." She stopped for a moment then eye locked with mine. I could read how thoughtful she is when she said those words.

"I will give my support whatever your decision is." She smiled at me. "You two are perfect for each other, just give him a chance if that what's your heart says. I want you to be happy always." Her eyes moisturized but she succeeds to keep them on edge.

"Claire, are you in your right mind? Just think of you in her shoe then you won't tell her what to do." Draco said angrily. He has a bad opinion about Kayish from the beginning and I don't think he will change his mind anytime soon.

"Then think of you in his shoes too, Draco. Are you okay, knowing your girl and daughter are living far away from you?" She spat meeting his same tone.

"Everyone commits mistakes including you and me. Every human being makes a mistake if they don't, they are not perfect. Just give him a chance. Don't stress around. I know what you are needed." Her voice softened.

Draco didn't utter any words against her, he seems lost in his thought. "Riya." Finally, he spoke.

"I need your happiness if you think he will bring everything back to normal in your life then who I'm to object to your decision. I'm always with your side." he gave me a weak smile somehow, he is not happy with the idea of giving Kayish a chance.

I nodded my head as a response not knowing what to say. Am I ready to give him a chance? It's very hard to make a decision.

"So, when you are going to get married?" I asked changing the topic. Claire's face flushed into the red by the mention of marriage while Draco groaned playfully.

"If your friend says okay, I'm ready to give a ring to her finger right now." He teased eyeing her the whole time.

"Draco." She hit his shoulder playfully and hid her face on his back. Our sweet moments were interrupted by my lovely daughter.

"Mommy!! Help." Sweety ran to my arms and held my shirt tightly.

"Hey, baby. What happened?" I rubbed her back though I know she did something wrong.

"S-Shadow is barking at me." She panted hardly, anxiety is written all over her face.

"What you did," I asked narrowing my eyes at her. The last time they fed cake to that poor Shadow and she got sick for three days. From that day she didn't eat properly especially when the kids go near her.

"I- I just caught her tail, but she is so cruel, she barked at me." She whined in her baby voice.

"This is the last time you are playing with that Shadow." I placed her on the floor and stood up ready to serve dinner.

"But mommy-" she began to wail.

"Not again Sweety," I said and walked into the kitchen, I could hear the murmur from the living room as Draco and Claire are trying to convince her. Oh, God! They spoiled her a lot.

At last, we enjoyed our dinner and bid our goodbyes. "I'm going to miss you." Claire wiped her tears and hugged me once again.

"Are you not going to miss me?" Sweety asked pouting her lips.

"Of Couse I do." She kissed her cheeks.

"Ewww!! Don't do this." She shoved her face and wiped her cheeks. We all smiled looking at her and they left my apartment sharp at 11 pm.

As usual, I read Sweety her bedtime story and she fell asleep within a fine minute. I lay on the bed not in the mood to sleep. 'What is he doing now?' the question is still playing onto my mind like an FM radio giving me an endless headache.

Maybe tomorrow morning --- shit. Tomorrow we have a client holiday. So that means I can't see him tomorrow too. I slumped my shoulder in defeat and forced my eyes shut to get sleep.

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"Bye." We both waved our hands while the School bus slowly moved out of my sight. I went back to my apartment and did some random things to get time pass yet, I have plenty of time.

So, I grabbed one of the books from the self and started to read. I busied myself almost two hours reading the book and I didn't get enough of it. I want to know when the hero is going to propose to her girl.

Suddenly, the doorbell in my apartment rang aggressively as someone is doing this deliberately.

Yeah! It happens during the weekends as this is one of the lists of children's games who consider this as entertainment and hide behind the nearby places.

But the thing is different, cause, today is Thursday and all the kids have gone to school. Then who is doing this? For a second, I was hesitant to open the door but again the doorbell rang aggressively making my ear goes deaf.

I walked towards the front door and looked outside through the peephole. "Shhh!" I sighed in relief when I saw Kayish is standing outside.

My heart jolt with happiness knowing he is fine. Without wasting any second, I opened the door widely for him to enter but he takes me off guard by hugging me tightly like there is no tomorrow.

"I love you Riya." He whispered, his voice was barely audible. He wrapped his hands around my waist possessively as someone came here to snatch me away from him, and buried his face on the crook of my neck.

"Kayish, you are crushing me." I wiggled from his grip. What happened to him. Why he is behaving like this out of blue?

"I love you so much, Riya. Forgive me for my sin. I'm not worth it for you." He sobbed making me furrow my eyebrows. What does he mean?

"Find a right M-man and live a happy life." He released me from his firm grip. His eyes held so much pain, but the pain seems different.

I looked at him in disbelief like he has grown with two heads. What nonsense he is talking about. Here, I'm thinking about giving him a chance, but he seems already gave up. Am I not worth a fight?

I bit my lips to hide the sob that threatening to come out. Feeling ashamed of him, I averted my gaze from him and gulped down the lump which formed in my throat.

'Find another man?' How easily he said those words. If that's what I wanted, I would have found the right one a year ago. But that's not what I wanted. I can't give my heart to another person, it's better to live single for my entire life.

If he decides to give up that early then why the hell did he steal my heart after I healed from my misery? Once again he proved to me how cheap he is.

"Tell our daughter that I love h-her." His breath became uneven and his next movements made me freeze on my spot as he started to cough a huge amount of blood leaving me in shock.

"I love you." Once again he whispered before falling down the floor.

"K-Kayish." My body trembled when my eyes spotted the pool of blood on his back, it looked like someone stabbed him on his back or---

"Oh, God!! Kayish." I came out of my spell and placed his head on my lap.

"Look at me." I shook his shoulder.

"I miss you." He gave me a weak smile.

"No, No. Please don't leave me, Kayish. I love you-- I love you so much!!" I cried.

"I'm sorry my love." was the last word I heard before he closes his eyes.

"Nooooo!!!." I shook his body but no response. I pressed my hands together on his chest trying to bring his breath back but there is no heartbeat, his body went pale like a ghost.

"You can't leave me like this!!!" I cried out of agony and hit him harder on his chest but it all went vain, he has died.

"Kayishhhhh!!!" I screamed out of my lungs.

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