Chapter 52: Chapter 52

Blair

When I arrived at the waiting room, Masha was accompanied by Yuri, and was updating him on his brother's medical bulletin. I waited at an acceptable distance, giving them both some privacy, still feeling embarrassed at the memory of ruining the man's marriage.

My sister-in-law approached after a few minutes with a tired expression on her face.

" Ready to go?"

" Go? Go where? " I frowned.

I had just arrived and didn't expect to leave that hospital so soon.

" I have the key to Dimitri's apartment, Yuri is staying in my place, I need to get some sleep and I imagine you do too!"

" No, but…"

" Blair, you need to rest, it won't do Dimitri any good if you stop sleeping."

I could see myself in that speech, I had made it dozens of times over the past few weeks to my mother, and I knew she was right.

I gave in, accepting her suggestion. We took a cab to Dimitri's apartment in comfortable silence. I couldn't help but admire the city without all the snow that covered it the last time I visited.

I would give anything to have him by my side at that moment.

That thought depressed me again, I couldn't admire the beauty of this place while he was in that hospital room!

" How are your parents? " Masha asked when we arrived at Dimitri's building.

" Well, my father is already home. They are going to recover," I smiled.

" Good," she smiled back and got into the elevator.

I noticed how downcast she looked at that moment, which reminded me of how I was in the first days after my parents' accident, and how everyone focused only on the two of them.

" And how are you? " I asked, getting a surprised look in return.

" I'm fine, I…"

" You once told me that you wanted me to be honest with you, I'd like that too," I insisted as I waited until we reached the floor.

Masha looked away, looking dismayed.

" I honestly don't know, we got the call yesterday afternoon, we had to rush to the accident site, it was agony, My mother fainted, they pulled her out of the place and barely allowed me to stay there " she began to speak at once " then I had to convince my father to take her home and take care of her, and also convince my brother that it would be a bad idea to take his pregnant wife into the middle of that chaos, and I just wish that they would get Dimulya out of that cabin and that he would be okay, and that you could get here soon, because I know how important it will be to him. I have no sleep, no shower, my cell phone hasn't stopped ringing, and I think I'm just now realizing how exhausted I am!"

I let out a weak laugh, I knew that feeling well.

" When I saw that news I thought I was going to faint," I admitted as the elevator doors opened on our floor, "it was the second such news I have received in less than a month and I don't think I can bear to receive a third."

We got out together and walked to our destination. Masha unlocked the door, guiding us into the apartment where I had a great time.

" It must have been terrible, I'm sorry," she sighed.

I just shook my head, holding onto every memory that this place brought back.

" I'm going to stay in the guest room, take a shower, and go to sleep. You should do that too, you can stay in Dimulya's room," she pointed.

I watched her disappear through one of the doors and dragged my suitcase into Dimitri's room. The room was as tidy as I remembered, I tried not to pay too much attention to detail, took a quick shower and changed, curled up on his bed. I doubted that I would be able to sleep, I rolled over in bed a few times, until my gaze locked on a small object on the nightstand.

The little bottle of pink sand was intact, I reached out and picked it up, remembering when I handed it to him.

"A little warmth in the middle of your winter"

That's what I said. Even after all this time he still kept it close. Driven by curiosity I opened the drawer, catching my breath. Inside I found several things I had given him throughout our months together, my fingers running over the velvet box of the insignia I had given him for his birthday, the tickets to the interactive play in Zurich. But what caught my attention were the two glittering glass stones at the bottom of the drawer.

I didn't even know that he had taken them, in fact, stolen them. It is forbidden to take the crystals from the glass beach!

Details of that afternoon invaded my mind, we were so happy, and now...

The first tears fell on the stones before I collapsed in a heartfelt cry. Why did I waste so much time with my insecurities when we had everything we needed to make it work? Why couldn't I see that sooner?

And now, I was in danger of losing everything, without even having the chance to tell him how much I love him!

A few moments later Masha opened the door carefully, entering the room with a worried expression on her face.

" He put it all away," I hiccupped at her questioning look.

She sighed, settling down on the bed beside me.

" He was devastated when you left. And as the days went by, it was like he just turned on autopilot, but he never got over it."

That sentence only made my tears well up. We spent months suffering away from each other for something stupid!

" I did everything wrong. I was so afraid of suffering that I blew it and ended up suffering and making him suffer," I sobbed, closing my hands with the stones and wrapping my body in a kind of hug, "and now it may be too late!"

" No, it's not too late. Dimitri will be fine, and it doesn't matter what you did before, what matters is what you do from now on."

I blinked, letting the tears come freely.

" Besides, you're engaged now, so it was good for something."

I stared at the white ceiling above me, wondering what everything would be like when Dimitri recovered.

" How is it possible to love someone so much and make so many mistakes?"

Masha lay down beside me, taking a deep breath before answering.

" I don't think you made that many mistakes, at least not alone. You broke up with my brother, but I saw everything that you were putting up with. He agreed that it was the best thing to do, so if there were any mistakes, it was both of us.

I closed my eyes at his statement. We have made many mistakes, but it's not too late to start over. At least, I hope it isn't.

" Let's go to sleep, I know you'll want to go back to the hospital later," she sighed, keeping me company the whole time.

I woke up a few hours later, with Masha still asleep in bed beside me. We did not go back to the hospital that day, Yuri was replaced by his father who told us that there was no change in his son's condition.

The news on TV was still the same, the black box from the plane had been recovered, but the contents had not been released, and somehow everyone was eager to blame Dimitri for that accident.

At one point Masha and I stopped watching TV, trying to occupy ourselves with something else