Chapter 28: Chapter 28
“You know your friends—they all think you’re crazy.”
Brad lifted his head from his hands to peer over at Natalia, a lopsided grin on his face.
“Yeah, I know.”
She shook her head. “And you don’t care?”
Brad rested his head back on his hands as he lay stretched out flat on his back beside Natalia, while they both stared up at the sky. They were enjoying a quiet afternoon out at Bayside Lake to celebrate their high school graduation just days ago.
“Why should I? Their opinion doesn’t matter to me.”
“Yeah, well you know everyone thinks we’re sleeping together.”
A wicked gleam lit up his eyes and he rolled over to cover her with his body.
“Well, we both know that isn’t true and why it isn’t true so that’s all that matters.”
She twisted her lips into a surly pout and he knew his nonchalant
attitude was frustrating to her, but he simply laughed at the look on her
face. Of late, he found himself laughing quite often, and he had Natalia to thank for that. When she was with him, she let down her guard, and he’d discovered beyond music, she had a passion for literature, loved to play little pranks, and enjoyed teasing him.
He didn’t know what was going on between them, but he knew that whenever he was around her he felt something that he’d never felt around any other person before. He couldn’t identify it, or describe it, but he knew he liked the feeling and that was all that mattered.
“Besides, I know you’re just trying to distract me by changing the subject, but it won’t work. You know you still owe me a kiss—”
“What! That’s not fair. You cheated.”
“How did I cheat? You were wrong so you owe me a kiss.”
She frowned up at him. “You knew when we made that bet that you were already the class Salutatorian—”
He grinned. “I told you my GPA was up there, but you didn’t think a dumb, blonde jock could possibly be on the honor roll. Am I right?”
She gasped. “That’s not true and you know it. Besides, don’t act as if you didn’t have your own preconceived notions. I saw your face when they called my name as a member of the National Honor Society. Just because I didn’t show up for any of those boring meetings didn’t mean that I wasn’t in it.”
He ducked his head, as an embarrassed flush stole across his face.
She was right. He’d been shocked when they called her name. But discovering that she was not only talented, but a gifted student as well, just further convinced him that he’d been right all along—there were many layers to Natalia and he had a feeling he’d only just scratched the surface. And now he was more determined than ever to reveal each and every last one of them until he got to her core.
“You can protest all you want, but you still owe me a kiss—”
“You know your GPA was only slightly higher than mine—” “Doesn’t matter. I still won,” he murmured as he dipped his head
to brush his mouth against hers. He’d only intended for the kiss to be a gentle peck, but it quickly turned into something more when she clasped
her arms behind his neck and parted her lips. He eagerly swept his tongue between her lips to taste her sweet nectar. He could feel himself hardening as he rocked against her, pressing his erection into her belly.
He tore his lips from her lush mouth to bury his face into the hollow of her neck, while he skimmed his hands down the length of her body.
She wore a light summer dress and he teased his hand along the edges, until he finally pushed it up to her waist, revealing her light colored panties.
He stroked his tongue against her neck as his fingers pushed the scrap of fabric aside to probe the moist center of her pussy.
With one smooth stroke, he slid his middle finger inside her. She gasped softly and he groaned into her neck as her wet heat surrounded him. He stroked in and out of her, her cunt growing sticky with her juices as she twisted back and forth beneath him.
He raised his head for just a second to watch her. She was panting
and writhing against the ground, with her eyes clenched shut, and her mouth slightly parted as she let out low moans of pleasure. He stared
transfixed by the sight of her in full arousal thinking she was the most beautiful sight he’d ever seen.
He added a second finger and pumped inside of her, driving her closer and closer to climax.
He curved his fingers upwards, to stroke against her inner walls and brush her G-spot causing her to arch seductively off the ground.
“Brad, please,” she begged softly.
“Please what, Natalia?” He whispered against her neck, delighting in the slight shiver that raced through her body when his warm breath feathered across the heated skin of her neck.
“Please make love to me.”
He clenched his eyes tight as lust exploded in his belly. His cock pressed harder against the zipper of his jeans at her husky words. Damn, he wanted her, but he held back.
“I will, when you give me what I want.”
“Brad, please.”
Despite the haze of desire that fuddled his brain, he could feel his anger toward her rising.
He jerked up from her so that he could stare down into her face and her eyes snapped open as if sensing the change in him. He held her gaze in silence as he tunneled his fingers inside her with brutal thrusts. She gasped and moaned out her pleasure, but she didn’t tear her gaze away from his face.
“Give me what I want, Natalia.” His words were choppy as he quickened his already frenzied pace.
She shook her head, tears gathering in her hazel eyes.
He slammed his fingers into her harder, his anger mixing with his burning need to bring her to orgasm.
“Why can’t you give me what I need, Natalia? Why can’t you show me that I mean something to you—”
Her breathed hitched in her throat and she struggled to speak. “B— brad, but you do—”
“Then give me what you’ve given no other man. Give me your—,”
“I—I—Braddddd!” She screamed his name as she bucked wildly beneath him, her hips jerking off the ground to meet the pounding length of his fingers. Sticky cum gushed from inside her to coat his long digits as her body convulsed wildly. He didn’t stop the rhythmic thrusting of his hand until the final vibrations rocked her body. Slowly he withdrew his fingers and while she lay completely spent beneath him with her eyes closed, he sucked her juices from them until he was sure her essence would always linger on his lips.
He stared down into her beautiful face, trying to memorize every single feature because sadly he knew this would probably be the last time he saw her in person. When he was sure he’d committed her image to memory he rolled over, and collapsed beside her.
“I could make love to you, Natalia, but tell me, what would make me different from other men? What would make me special?”
When she didn’t speak, he glanced over at her, to see that she simply stared up at the sky, her face blank. He released a long, weary sigh as he stood to his feet.
“It’s easy for you to give your body to men, but not your heart— never your heart. Yet, the one and only thing that I want from you, you refuse to give, and that’s not fair to me.”
She sat up instantly. “What are you saying?”
He shoved a hand through his hair. “I can’t keep doing this, Natalia—”
Her eyes widened as she opened her mouth to protest, but apparently glimpsing the serious glint in his eyes, she snapped it shut.
“The more time we spend together the closer we come to making love. Each time we go farther and farther and I’m afraid one day I won’t be able to keep the promise I made to you and myself. I am only human, Natalia, and I can tell you it has been nearly impossible to stop when I’ve wanted to keep going.”
“So, this is it, then. You’re ending things.”
His gaze roamed over her face, but there was nothing there, nothing but the stony mask she showed to the world to protect her from being hurt. The only indication that she was upset was the chilly tone of her voice.
“I don’t want to, and you know this doesn’t have to be over, but you have to give me something, Natalia.”
She twisted her face away from him, to stare out over the serene lake, and he thought it ironic that the lake should appear so calm when its visitors were going through such turmoil. “I have given you more than I’ve given any other man before. Why can’t that be enough?”
“Because if I accept what you’ve given me emotionally and then take our relationship to the next level, I know I will never discover the real Natalia. You refuse to commit because you’re not ready, but I’m not sure I’m strong enough to keep this from getting physical until you are….,” He let his voice trail off when she continued to stare out across
the water. She was so frustrating! She was taking this as a rejection, but
he wasn’t rejecting her. Why couldn’t she see that he was trying to do the right thing?
“Natalia, I care for you and I don’t want to hurt you, but I am trying to show you that I’m not just like every other guy—”
She whipped her head around to face him, her hazel eyes hard as stone. “Just because you don’t want just sex doesn’t make you different. You still want something. So in the end that makes you just like every
other guy, if not worse, because unlike the rest of them, you want something that I’m not prepared to give.”
He reared back in shock, not quite believing that she’d just said what she did.
Anger instantly exploded inside him and he reached for her to drag her to her feet, his eyes blazing with fury.
“Don’t you dare put me in the same category with the rest of those assholes. One day you will realize that what we share between us is special, because there are feelings here, and because we care about each
other. But you will have to deal with the fact that you threw it all away because you were too afraid of getting hurt.” He dragged her flush against his body, his expression cold as he modulated his voice just above a whisper. “But just know this, Natalia, you’re sadly mistaken if you think you can walk away from this completely unscathed and return to your old ways. Because the next time you’re with a man you’re going to feel different, empty even because it’s hard to go back to meaningless sex once you’ve allowed yourself to care for someone. And believe me, that’s exactly what it will be—meaningless.”