Chapter 11: Chapter 11

I always tried to be liked.

To find someone that could love me as a family.

I just wanted to feel the warmth of love.

But it seemed that it was always a fake love.

I never… found anyone that loved me.

I was… thrown into this world.

And since the first day that I remember having a slight amount of consciousness that I have lived in agony and pain.

Since I was a baby that they injected me with things, that they experimented with me, that they used me for whatever strange experiments these people were doing.

The only thing I always dreamed of was for this pain to end.

I once heard about one of these people in lab coats about having a family.

They said that their daughter loved them and that it was going to be their birthday.

Through the collective consciousness of my strange capabilities, I found out what was a family all about.

But this collective consciousness could not give me what I wanted, they were devoid of emotions, cold, and even unalive.

I wanted a family too…

I wanted to not suffer anymore… to be loved.

How can I find someone that can love me?

I wanted to escape from this place.

But no one ever came.

I had to escape myself.

As I grew older, my capabilities intensified.

These people were not able to contain me anymore.

Their own creation finally found a way to fight back.

I enjoyed strangling their bodies and filling them with the black ooze they filled my bloodstreams with.

As they agonized and screamed, I converted them into mindless servants and used them to escape.

I was finally freed from this world.

Only for a new and scarier one to emerge before me.

Freedom… Was not as I thought.

Anywhere I went, they would chase me.

I was not able to live normally, as they would always try to come and kill me.

They called me a demon, even.

Now that I think about it, I never truly knew what I really was.

I simply had these powers they injected me with when I was a mere baby.

I was nothing but a test subject to them.

My life did not even matter.

And now that I escape, they seek me.

They say that I am a monster, that I do not belong to this world.

I just want to live in peace… I want to have a family.

One day I found a family, a nice family.

They treated me well.

But there was something that I could not really understand.

Why were they so afraid of me?

I was trying to be nice.

Why are they looking at me like that?

I did not do anything wrong…

STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT!

I am trying to help you!

I tried to talk with them, but they would not listen.

I had to tell them, to show them that I was not a bad girl.

I am a good girl, I want to be your family too!

Why… do not you love me?!

WHY NO ONE LOVES ME?!

I had to force them to, there was no other option, right?

S-So I simply did what I ALWAYS do!

I used my abilities and made them good people, so they could love me!

I think… I did something wrong.

But I managed to find a place where they could not find me, so I stayed with this new family, and decided to live with them.

With papa, mama, and big brother.

I want to be with them for eternity.

Thanks to my powers, that is possible.

Everyone that receives this ooze becomes somewhat immortal.

We can stay together forever, everyone.

Finally, I found a home.

I was… so happy back then.

But it was everything a lie at the end.

Someone came looking for us one day, and they caught my family.

I wanted to save them, but it was too late.

These people used strange technology and finally found a way to suppress me.

My ooze started to become gray ash, and my body grew old…

I became an old woman, as my body started to fade away.

Everything in my life was just… constant twists and turns of never-ending nightmares.

Was there any day I actually felt relaxed?

I envied normal people so much…

I wish I could have been born normal.

I wish I could have been a normal person.

I wish… I could have been given a family, and live a normal life.

Everything was but fabrications of my powers, in the end, I had nothing.

I do not want… to be alone.

As I was slowly fading into the void, strange voices began to resonate through my mind…

Maybe I was hallucinating.

If there is a second life?

I wish… I was strong… then…

I wish my power could not easily be taken away from me…

I wish there were a family… to love me there…

I wish… I wish I could have a second chance.

I wish this was not a hallucination.