Chapter 69: Chapter 69

Von POV

"You alright?" I asked Van when I sat him on his bed, he nodded to me as an answer while still catching his breath.

Honestly, I don't really know what happened, the last thing I remember was looking at Yezrah's picture.

"What... what really happened?" I asked, he looked at me then took a deep breath and smiled at me.

"You're sleepwalking." He said, I know that he is lying because I know my twin, his ears turn red every time he lies.

"Stop lying Von, tell me what really happened." I said, he took a deep breath then motioned for me to sit next to him.

"Von, I know you are struggling with your situation because you lost your daughter." He said, I suddenly stopped and turned in another direction. Honestly, I still can't accept that Yezrah is gone. At the same time that Lit is missing now, I want to find Lit but I have lost my strength and it seems that I have been too lazy to act since my daughter passed away.

"I'm trying to get my old energy back, Van." I said.

"I know, but Von, you didn't do anything else all day but to be dumb and lock yourself in your room. You didn't even join us to eat together." He said, I didn't answer because what he said was right.

"I don't want you to eat by your sadness Von, I don't want you to lock yourself in the dark past Von." He added.

"I don't know what to do." I said.

"You can come with me on my walks, or start looking for Lit again." He says. "Don't you want to be with Lit? That's the reason why you don't want to marry Cleopatra and you don't want Aphrodite because you only want Lit." He says. I looked at him.

He is right. But how can I do those things if I don't have the strength?

"Honestly, I'd rather lock myself in my room than go out." I said.

"Von, with what you're doing you can't really move on from that." He says. "Do you want us to look for Lit? I'll go with you. It's the way to get rid of your sadness." He said, I shook my head.

He took a deep breath and looked away.

"Honestly, I'm afraid of what could happen to you Von." He says.

"Nothing will happen to me Van." I said, he turned to me again and stared into my eyes.

"I really don't know how to keep a secret from you." He says. "Leona told us something earlier about the Ying yang wolf." He says. "Leona says we are a Ying yang wolf, you are the Ying wolf and I am the Yang wolf." He said that's why he got my attention.

"I also didn't understand what Leona was saying at the beginning because it was the first time I heard her say that, or maybe I've heard her before but I just forgot what she meant." His story.

"Leona says that you can hurt when you transform into a Ying wolf. Cleopatra even supported her earlier and said that you might not even recognize us as your brothers when you transform into a Ying wolf." He added.

I stayed quiet and listened as much as I could, even I honestly couldn't understand what he was saying.

"Cleopatra said at the time of the eclipse we are destined to change form as Ying yang wolves at the time you could not stop yourself from drowning in sadness and anger." He said, he took a deep breath and stood up from where he was sitting.

He sat in front of me and looked at me seriously.

"Leona said earlier that I'm the only one who can stop you when we transform into the ying yang wolf." He added.

"From what you're saying Van, it's impossible for that to happen because the ying yang wolves have been gone for a long time." I said.

"Von, I don't want to believe what they said earlier but..." He stopped and looked seriously into my eyes.

"But what?" I will ask.

"I discovered firsthand how your anger consumed you earlier." He said that's why I was quiet.

"The truth is that you weren't really sleep walking earlier. You were aggressive and you didn't remember me earlier so you choked me." He said the reason is for me to force myself to remember what happened earlier.

"There Von I can say that Leona and Cleopatra are right." He says. "I can see the anger in your eyes, the way you strangled me earlier." He added.

I looked away.

"I'm sorry." I said.

"Von, don't apologize to me." He says. "What you should do is entertain yourself and not be consumed by the anger and sadness you feel, because this is not for me, Von, but also for you and our brothers." He said so I looked at him again. "Especially with Yezrah." He added.

My heart seemed to tear because of his mention of Yezrah's name.

"Imagine if Yezrah is here, what will she do when you are sad?" He asked. I suddenly smiled as I remembered how Yezrah would caress me whenever I was sad, how she would hug me and give me a little kiss on the cheek every time I am mad.

Yezrah's caressing me suddenly came back to my memory.

"Think of Yezrah's good memories of you, Von. Think of how he would caress you."

Little by little, the smile on my lips disappeared and tears slowly formed in my eyes as I remembered how Yezrah told me the words 'I love you uncle Daddy.'

'Von.." I looked at Van who was looking at me and worried.

"I'm sorry." I said while looking at him. "I'm sorry but almost every memory I have of Yezrah makes me emotional." I said holding back my tears.

"Von..."

"It's hard for me that I only had a short time with my daughter, that I was only given a short time to be with her." I said. then looked at Van.

"I know you will understand me when you have a child." I added standing up from my seat.

"I'm going back to my room, I'm sorry if I hurt you." I said then went out of Van's room.

I was about to enter my room when I saw the shadow of the woman on the stairs, she was standing there with her back to me.

"Von." I heard Van call me, causing the woman who had her back to suddenly turn to me.

"Lit..."