Chapter 30: Chapter 30

Maybe he wasn't here.

Maybe he's ignoring you.

Maybe he was waiting too long.

Maybe he...

Before my train of thought went dashing on a next spree, the door opened. Showing the one person I could not get out of my mind. By the look on his face, I could tell he wasn't expecting me. I wasn't expecting me either, but I couldn't control myself. It has been almost two weeks and I was missing him like crazy. I didn't have much of a choice. I daydream about him even have nightdream about him which, sometimes he was fully clothed, other he was completely naked and a few with him just like how he was now in front of me.

With only a towel wrapped around his waist, water dripping from his head onto his exposed chest.

God, I missed this chest!

"Are you just going stand there or are you gonna kiss me?" I used his exact words to me when he came to my door a few weeks back. I had no idea how he would react but him standing there just looking at me wasn't one of the reactions I fore played in my head. Maybe he didn't want to see me after all.

I quickly blinked away the coming tears and bent my head. I'm such a fool, why did even think he would want to see me?

I turned slowly to leave but he grabbed on my waist and pulled me in his chest, "Where are you going? I haven't kissed you yet." Then he smashed his amazing lips on mine and I closed my eyes and kissed him in return.

I could hear my heartbeat deepening. Nothing else mattered. Only kissing him like there was no tomorrow.

I slowly pulled his lips on mine causing me to open my eyes.

I looked in his dark, green-flecked eyes waiting for him to do something, to say something.

"...Kari' he whispered. His eyes darkened suddenly. Maybe this wasn't the end. I lifted my hands and reached for his neck and pulled his head back down to my lips.

Nothing else mattered. Kissing him like there is no tomorrow.

I missed him. I missed this.

He moved his left hand down my waist and held on tightly while his right hand curved the nape of neck holding my head in place. Never removing his lips from mine.

The kiss went from heated, passionate to slow and soft. My body was melting. I clung to him my arms around his neck, never wanting to part.

He removed his lips from mine, "Kari. I think we should take this inside. Wouldn't want to give the neighbors a show would we now?"

Unable to speak I shook my head.

He removed my hands from his neck and pulled me in his apartment.

I didn't have time to look around at the somewhat familiar environment because as soon as we entered Seth's mouth was on mine again.

I moan and continued kissing him.

He swept me up in his arms and took us in his bedroom.

Time stopped and nothing else mattered. Only his sweet kisses and his tender strokes. When we couldn't take any more of the sweet torture, we both surrendered and gave ourselves away to the pleasure.

"I knew you'd come"

I looked up in his green eyes and smiled. "Believe me when I say I tried not to."

He reached from my hands and entwined it with his, "But you couldn't resist this body, so you just had to come."

I laughed, "Something like that."

He turned on his side and looked at me. "You can admit it you know."

"Admit what?"

"You know what I'm talking about." And I did know what he was talking about.

"Okay. I admit it. I missed you. I missed your flirty comments and your weird jokes. I missed you Seth." Admitting that I missed him wasn't so hard after all. I just hope he wouldn't push it in my face.

"Look at me." I turn around at his command and looked in his eyes, waiting for him to continue. "I missed you too."

My heart swelled and his words and I couldn't help smiling. I reached out and touch his jawline and pulled his head to mine for a kiss.

He looked in my eyes and smiled after lips separated. "You need to tell me all the boring things that you've been up to for two weeks."

I laughed, "Do you really think my life is that boring without you?"

He shook his head, "No honey. I know your life is that boring with me."

"And there comes the cocky Seth and I know so well." I joked.

"We all can't be too humble. Now tell me how your two weeks without me was?"

"Terrible." I answered honestly.

"Go on, elaborate." I wonder why he was so interested in knowing how I was when we weren't together.

"Well, I realize just how boring my life actually is. Got drunk a few times on my couch and at a friend's. Didn't go out with Iris or Brandon."

"Wow, I had a similar week excluding the part where you said your life was boring. My life is freaking awesome." I pull me up to him then lifted himself up, so he was looking directly at me.

"I really missed you." He said before he bent down and pecked my lips.

"I missed you too." He kissed me a second time, this time instead of a peck it was slow and passionately sweet. He used his hands to mold my body against his. He moved his right hand against my body as the other kept me still.

He releases my lips and looked deep in my eyes. "I love you, Karishma."

I was shocked at his confession and I didn't know what to do so I pulled back his lips on mine and continued kissing him.

I looked at Seth sleeping body and smiled. He loved me. He really loved me.

This was the first time I've ever had someone confess their love for me and it was the first time I've ever felt the same way for a person. I just didn't have the guts to say it. Something was holding me back and I had no clue what it was.

Am I afraid to accept love?

Am I afraid to get hurt?

Yes, love means hurting.

Deep down I know Seth wouldn't hurt me. He hasn't hurt me or did anything remotely close to hurting me. It was always the other way around. Why couldn't I tell him that I loved him?

Maybe because you don't.

But I do. I felt deep in my bones. In my heart. It was love for him then had me coming at his door step tonight. Wasn't it?

What other reason could there be?

I slowly pushed myself off the bed, careful not to wake him. I grabbed my dress from the ground and quickly put it on.

I looked down at his peaceful face and smile.

I hadn't eaten before I came here and now, I was starving. I tiptoed my way in the kitchen, trying to make as little noise as I can.

As I opened the fridge, I spot garlic bread. I smiled and took it out, all I need now is to heat it up. I opened the bag and took out three slices then put it back in the fridge. I looked around the kitchen and then I spot the microwave in the corner. I took out a plate from the plate tray and place the garlic slices on it and then placed it the microwave.

I couldn't help sleeping.

I am happy. Seth made me happy. Being with him made me happy.

I jumped when the microwave stopped. I laughed a little then remove the plate from it. It took a bite of the bread then moan. So good.

I took up the dish and walked out of the kitchen into the living room. I walked straight to the clear glass that was showing the beautiful night lights of New York City. I smiled when I saw my own apartment building. Too bad I didn't live on that side. Or we could use telescopes to see each other.

Oh! Stop it, Kari. When did you become so cheesy?

When you found out that Seth was in love with you.

I smiled to myself. It felt good. This feeling of being loved and to love in return.

When I finished eating the garlic bread, I stayed by the screen for a few minutes just enjoying the beautiful and peaceful view.

I moved away from the screen and start looking around the apartment. I spot a black jacket and beside it was his bag and some files all around.

I turned away from it and started heading back to the kitchen. I stopped halfway and walked up to the files. I started to fix them up. It was a little tacky. I took up a file and start reading.

'Peter McNeil' was the name of the client. As curious as a cat I continued reading. The man's story was so interesting that I found myself skipping the page and reading more. This was a case that I would have loved to work on.

"So this is the real reason you came over here." I jumped and dropped the paper when I heard Seth's voice behind me.

I turn around quickly, "It's not what it looks like...I was trying to." I quickly tried to explain myself. Imagine how I must have looked to him. I was going through his things.

"It's exactly what it looks like." He ran his hand through his hair and hissed his teeth. "I trusted you Karishma. I told you I love and yet here you are only caring about one thing, your job."

I shook my head, "No. It's not like that."

"Get out,"

I shook my head, "Seth I wasn't looking through your files." I groan and continued, "I was but not like what you think. I was just trying to..."

"I don't wanna hear it, please leave." He was looked at me with contempt. All the passion and the love that was on his face a few minutes ago was gone completely. This was a new person in front of me.

"Seth, please. It's not what it looks like. Give me a chance to explain." I walked up to where he was standing. I reached out to touch him to he fan me away.

"That's all I ever was to you right? Sex? and now you want to win the case so bad that you'd search through my files."

"No, that's not true."

"Yea. So you're telling me that I'm more than just a man you want to have sex with? What's it, Dial Seth for sex for you?"

"No, Seth, of course not. You're more than that to me." So much more than just a sex buddy.

"Leave!" he shouted causing me to flinch.

I felt a few tears falling from my eyes. I shook my head. "Let me explain, please."

"I said leave!" he shouted again. His force rough and serious. Not like the sweet Seth I was used to. "Leave before I put you out myself."

I sniffed and walked pass him. I took up my car keys from the key stack and opened the door. I looked back to him, but he wasn't looking at me. His head was turned to the screen.

"Leave." He whispered.

His whisper twisted something in me. It was my heart breaking.

I exit his apartment and closed the door behind me.