Chapter 93: Chapter 93

Daxton's POV

I could feel a pang of pain in my chest and I knew that it was because of her. She had a big impact on me, wholly, emotionally and physically.

Damn.

She just left without any notice and it somehow makes my chest feel uncomfortable, not just uncomfortable, it hurts me as if she doesn't care about me, she is ignoring my existence. She had bid a goodbye to my parents but not to me... It was a bit frustrating, the way she treats me. We had not talked after I accidentally kissed her. I gave her the space she needed because among other things, I do not want to confuse her. She has been in a traumatic experience, I don't want her thoughts to be filled with unnecessary things. I do not want to be a burden to her.

I really wanted to take things slow for us. But how should I take it slow without losing her? How should I give her space not enough for her to wander to go to another man? It felt like if I gave her enough space, she'd wander and find another man. On the other hand, if I don't give her enough space and freedom, she will hate me. I wanted her all mine, I only wanted her by my side but that might suffocate her and be a reason for her to hate me.

I am new to this. I just know how to get a woman, but I never knew how to keep a woman. I badly wanted to keep her.

"I apologize, My Lord..." Hour after she left our home, one of our men that I assigned to protect her went back to my office.

"His uncle had found me," he said.

I smashed the table, getting frustrated. He had one job to do and he couldn't do it right. All he needed to do was to serve as her guard until I found the traitor in our land and he failed it that instant.

"Did she arrive safe?" That's what I wanted to know more than anything else. I don't want to hear how he was seen by his uncle. All I really wanted to ensure was her safety, more than anything else.

He bowed down, afraid to see my eyes. "She headed first to the Astrid Hospital. I believed, she visited the man we found on the parking lot the ni-"

"Get out." I ordered, not wanting to hear anything from him. I was even more frustrated at that news than his first report.

The way she's acting, she really loved that boy. She cares for him... and it brings nothing to me but jealousy. I wonder if she cares for me the way she did for him. This is what I am afraid of... I gave her enough space as she grew up and that makes the two of them closed. I had watched her admiring that boy.

I wanted to give her that freedom. I wanted her to experience things before she met me. I wanted her to fully understand herself before she tried to understand me. No, she does not need to understand me...She just needs to be by my side, that's all I was hoping for from her.

Should I go visit her at their home? Does that not make me controlling? Or it would be the opposite? I missed her already...

"Are you sure that she would like that flower?" I heard Cyrus, he was talking to Butch.

We decided to meet at a bar in Polaris. This has been our place for us to talk about things that we should be talking about.

We are supposed to talk about the plan for the land of werewolves. Why does he talking about some fucking flower? Does he meet some kind of gardener?

"Every woman loves flower," I heard Butch answering Cyrus.

I slightly sat closer to them, trying to hear now what they are trying to talk about.

"Yeah." It was Cyrus.

Should I also get her a flower?

"What kind of flower?" I asked, trying to join their conversation. Is that already proven? Butch might be only sabotaging Cyrus, I shouldn't fall for his trap. But would she like that?

They both looked at me synchronously. I could imagine that they would be going to tease me so I crossed my brows as I shifted my gaze on the glass of liquor in my left hand.

"What are you staring at?" I irritatedly asked.

I heard Butch chuckled. "That depends on the woman. Some want roses, tulips, sunflowers, daisies..." And his list goes on.

That seemed to be complicated. How am I going to choose with those flowers that he has just spitted out? How am I supposed to know which one she would like?

I cleared my throat. "I am not asking."

They both looked at me with a hint of tease in their eyes. They are making fun of me.

"What I said is..." I paused. "Why the hell are you talking about some stupid flowers..."

"That's not what I heard," Cyrus said in a teasing voice.

The two of them laughed.

I cleared my throat once again, "any news about the traitor?" I asked, it was actually the reason why the three of us met.

Cyrus shook his head. "It was difficult to find out when those witches were burned into ashes."

I massaged my temple as I remembered the white light coming from Maive's hand. She killed those witches effortlessly and she didn't even know that.

"We have to look for that traitor or there will be another attack." I said. There has to be a traitor in one of the werewolves here. That's one of the possible reasons why those vampires were able to cross the borders without being noticed or better yet, a portal somewhere else was made from the outside to the inside territory. Their past attacks were all done in the borders and it was really unexpected that they were able to go inside the Astrid University.

"How's the screening of soldiers at the borders?" They should be the first one to be investigated.

Butch shook his head. "All done. The traitor is not among them."

I gritted my teeth, getting pissed about that fucking traitor. He must pay for what he did. I have to find him as soon as possible.

I don't want any werewolves to get hurt again... I don't want her to be hurt again. It doesn't matter if it costs me, I just needed her to be safe.

"We must set up a trap..." That's the only way.