Chapter 62: Chapter 62

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I averted my eyes and then headed to the fire exit. I then started walking away planning to leave this place immediately, but I had not yet gone far when suddenly a familiar voice called to me.

“Hey, Xy!” I stopped walking, but didn't turn around to see him.

Suddenly someone grabbed my arm and turned me to face him. But he was shock when he looked right into my eyes. He immediately averted his gaze from it.

My eyes are showing clearly no emotions. Sadness? Happiness? Pain? Anger? Name it! There's just...nothing. It will just looked like you're staring into a blank paper.

He looked at me worriedly. How I wish that concern was real. How I wish Dwyne really loved me. But, it's just an illusion. He's just pretending. All his action aren't real, 'cause all of it was just an act. To make me fall for him.

“What are you doing here, Xy? A-And why are you like this?” he asked. I stared at him.

“What do you mean by your question why am I like this?”

“You're like that! Y-You're—nevermind” he sighed. “But what are you doing here, Xy?”

“Nothing. I just went to atleast forget the problems I'm facing right now a little bit. But, instead of forgetting my problem a little bit, another problem came up. Another heavy loads to carry. What a shame” I said. I think he finally understood what I meant 'cause I saw him gulped.

'Starting to feel uneasy, eh?'

“Let me tell you a story. A plotless story though. A woman was so fed up because of the problems she's facing right now so she went to a bar to forget it even just for a while. She decided to call her lover because she need someone she love to stand by her side and comfort, and the perfect person is her lover. While she's calling, she heard a familiar ringtone. It's the same ringtone as her lover's. She start looking to where it is coming from and she figured out that it's behind her. She was about to call him when she noticed that he's talking to a woman she doesn't know so she stopped herself. She's curious so she can't help but to eavesdropped. And then she heard everything, how her lover just stayed by her side because of a so-called mission he has to accomplish to be able to be back to his ex, which is the woman he was talking with. How her lover played with her feelings. She's devastated but she can't do anything so she just sing. So sad, isn't it? By the way that pitiful woman was me. So, why? Why, Dwyne? Why did you do this to me? Why did I do wrong to you? Why do you have to do that?”

The expression on his face was blank. But I was surprised when he suddenly smiled.

“Yes, what you heard is true. You are just a mission to me. A mission that's given to me by Deity that when I accomplished, she will be mine again. We will be together again. I am desperate, Xyna. I love Deity so much that I don't care whom I have to hurt. I will do anything for her because I love her” he said straightforwardly.

'I knew it!'

It was as if my heart suddenly cracked at what he said. Why does he have to slapped it right infront of my face that I'm not the one he loves?

“Why did you do this to me, Dwyne? What did I do wrong? Why do you have to hurt me like this?”

“You did nothing wrong, Xyna. Like I said, you're just a mission. Maybe Deity chose you to challenge me. You know they say that the so called 'The Undefeatable' woman of the showbiz industry Xyna Alegre is tough and scary. But no. They're wrong. Because Xyna Devon Alegre's just as stupid as everybody else” he said with a mocking face.

I want to cry but I can't. My knees wants to collapse but I tried myself to stand up straight. I want to shout at him but I tried to remain calm. And I did.

My heart is broken right now but I can't let him see how weak I am. He already saw how stupid I am to believe him, because I let my guard down. So this time, I won't show him the satisfaction.

I will act cool as if it's really nothing to me. I can do it. I'm an actress I can act every time I want to.

“But have you ever love me even just for a little bit?” I asked. I was surprised when he suddenly laughed sarcastically.

“I've never loved you, and will never be. Don't make me laugh, Xyna. How would I love you? You, a cold-hearted demon? Don't dream so high, a person like you who doesn't care about what people feels don't deserve to be loved and be love. You don't deserve me and I don't deserve someone like yo—” before he finished what he was going to say I suddenly punched him in the face, causing him to fall to the floor.

'I'm not a boxer for nothing!'

I laughed sarcastically. “I'm sorry to tell you but you lose. You lost the game we're playing. Do you think that a tough person like me would just fall on your trap without even noticing you have wicked plans against me? Do you think that I will just love you just like that? Me of all people? Looks like you underestimated me, Dwyne Harrison. And that's your biggest mistake. You shouldn't let your guard down and that made you lose. Two can play the game. I can play the game you want to play without even knowing what the rules and instructions are. And in this game, I won. You lost” I smirked at him. I took the key of their car from my pocket and dropped it right in front of him.

“Better luck next time, Dwyne Harrison. Well, even if you want to try me again, I already how to play your game well. So I just wanted to say that you can't beat me and will never be. It's fun to play with you. But this is goodbye” I walked away from him. I can't stand to see him anymore because ... I'm even more hurt by the expressions on his face that seem to let me know that he doesn't care about me.

I just say all of that to atleast save my pride. But I really am broken. My heart is broken. Everything is broken.

Why does this have to happen? Why does this have to happen all at once? Why do I have to feel this pain

Lord, you've just been giving me a series of happiness for a while, but why did you take them back right away? Does this pain the payment for my instant happiness?

I don't blame you. Because I'm sure right now, at this time. You are the only one I can lean on. Except for Agatha who isn’t here.

So please lord, at least for a little make me feel better. Because I felt like...giving up right now.

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