Chapter 24: Chapter 24

"Dear Dawn,

I'm doomed. First off, I'm extremely sorry I have been neglecting you so much this days, I have been a little too preoccupied. Brings me back to the part where I know I'm doomed. But I have to get you up to speed with everything going on with me.

My next door neighbor is none other than the new student, and my mom made plans with them, picnic plans, I had to go. Unfortunately for me. Because I had to hear the meanest things from him, Joseph Wilson. And I was a bit mean to him too, that ended the picnic too early.

And uhm, I just had professional diagnosis, the disease... wasn't a disease at all. My friends think I have a crush on him. I wouldn't know if this were true, since I have never had that before. But it hurt... It hurt really bad any time he goes out with her, anytime I see them together, it hurt.. too much.

I don't know what to do with this crush of a thing, it's all new to me Dawn, it's confusing and so painful. I don't even know how to stop it, there isn't a manual for this kind of stuff. What do I do?"

A soft sigh escaped my lips, I remember why I started keeping a diary, writing in it helped me expel some of my too much emotions.

"I don't want to have any crush on any one.. how did this happen?" I ask out loud.

My friends came to the bed, and sat with me, both hugging me at the same time.

"I can't answer that for you, I had hoped that when you get your first crush, you would like someone cute and nerdy, some one you met at the library, then it would be better for me to play match maker, so how on Earth did you get to have a crush on Joseph? I doubt he even goes to the library." Sophie said, her voice rising with each word.

"He looks like he spends his free time in a gym." I say giggling.

My friends scoot away from me instantly, looking very shocked.

"Who are you and what have you done with Carolyn?" Andrina asked.

I blinked. I am Carolyn.

"I am Carolyn? Was I supposed to change my name after having a crush?" I asked in genuine confusion.

Sophie face palmed.

Suddenly I remembered all the weird things they do because they have a crush on someone. Was I going to go crazy too? Good heavens, I hope not.

"Am I going to start getting obsessed like Sophie always does?" I asked looking from one to another.

"I don't get obsessed."

"I don't think you will, you are smarter than that. Smarter than the smartest. I'm sure you will get over him in a twinkle of an eye." Andrina answered smiling kindly.

I believed her, and brightened up instantly.

"I don't think she will, it's her first time." Sophie said, ever the pessimist.

"I think she will, she is a smart girl, one math equation and she would be back to the library and forget him, she might even meet a cute, nerdy guy like her there."

"Oh yeah? Let's bet. I say she's going to be even worse than us, it's her first time."

"I bet she'll snap out of faster than anything."

They shook hands on it. I looked at both of them awkwardly.

"You guys know I'm right here, in front of you right?" I asked..

"Duh." Sophie's voice sounded bored.

"This is very awkward." I tell them.

"I'm confident you'll snap out of it, but right now, I have to be home. I promised mom I'll help make dinner." Andrina said kissing the top of my head before leaving.

"She is my ride, I have to go too." Sophie said following Andrina. She threw in a little wave before she left.

I followed them to the door, locking the door after them. I could hear noise from mom and dad's room, I wasn't sure who was in it, I wasn't going to check either. Gabby was sleeping, or else she would be down stairs eating. I pour a glass of warm milk, and go back up to my room.

I sit by the window. I was sure he was not going to come back soon, he looked content back at the mall. Shifting my glasses on top my nose, I sigh. I didn't want to be distracted, I knew what having a crush on someone does to people, take Sophie for example. She skips school to be with him. I didn't want to skip. I didn't want to be rejected by Yale.

I groaned. My eye caught a glimpse of something move in his room, my head snapped up immediately. I wanted to see if it was him. Disappointment racked in my chest. It was a woman, not Lucy though. I squinted in confusion. I hadn't seen her before.

She looked old, she was bent, before I could get a better look, she was gone. She left the room.

I guessed she was their mom. I haven't seen her before, why didn't she come on the picnic? I shrugged indifferently.

I remembered the elderlies, I haven't seen them in a while. I couldn't stay here imagining Joseph and Debbie having fun right now. And feeling extremely jealous and sorry for my self. I quickly wore a soft pink pinafore. Over the pink crop top I was wearing earlier. Before leaving the house.

When I got there, the elderlies were having a bake sale. It was to raise money for a new set of chess boards. I knew that was their excuse, because they loved bake sales. But I didn't point out the fact that they didn't need new chess boards. Instead, I joined them, trying to distract myself. I dived into the bake sale. Thankfully it was packed with people. So I was really distracted.

Soon I spotted a familiar face. Debbie. My heart began to race, my eyes unconsciously looking for Joseph. She was with her mom, she looked like she was crying.

"Do this for me sweetheart" her mother said smiling.

"I already came here didn't I?"

"Yes you did, now tell me, what made you cry?"

"He suddenly left me, in the parking lot, he just left... That wasn't the plan at all, I wanted more, he left me there mom." She said crying.

Him.. parking lot... Joseph!!! My mind concluded. I nearly jumped in happiness. They were not together!!! He wasn't in his room, I didn't care, he wasn't with her!!!

"You don't understand!!" Debbie suddenly yelled before stomping away.

When it was her mother's turn, I smiled and gave her extra. She didn't know she helped me. Not her anyway. But she deserved it.

I danced on the clouds, because why not? They weren't together!