Chapter 190: Chapter 190

To face such a big and strong person, despite his fear.

When I look at him, I am beyond terrified, and my heart throbs.

No matter what people say, I feel a will that will not yield.

“Earth… you are so brave, aren’t you? And with such a strong heart.”

On the other hand, what about my heart?

From the time I could remember, I’ve been different from others.

I was said to be a goddess who drew the blood of god, and was blessed with a privileged environment.

While my country and people lived in poverty under oppression, I was never inconvenienced, never starved, just acquiring the knowledge I was given, and sometimes went out in front of people to give smiles and words.

I had never thought of it as a misfortune.

Because I was taught that this is what I was meant to be.

However, when I was young, I had some troubles, not to say I was unhappy.

Why do I look different from others?

Why don’t I have a father or a mother?

Why was I born into this world?

Jamdi’el, who had been with me since I was little, every time I asked…

――Thou are different from those apes. The chosen being who draws the blood of God!

She would say, without hesitation.

That’s why I am not only for myself, but also for all the people in this world.

Being a person who draws the blood of God, I was not allowed to have any selfishness whatsoever.

Maybe I didn’t have a will of my own.

――I see… thou is… a pitiful doll.

But that’s why I couldn’t get those words out of my head.

Because I couldn’t deny them.

But that’s why I can’t get those words out of my head.

――Don’t you call Kron a doll.

Earth, you said that.

―― What do you want me to do? No, what do you want to happen? What is it you want? Kron.

You asked me what I wanted.

Why is that? When I heard your words, that was my only answer.

And at the same time, it reminded me of the past.

“Hey, Bro. Why are you going outside?”

When I was younger, the person who played with me also had his own will.

“Both you and the master came from outside this island, yeh. I also want to see what’s outside this island. There may be a place for me.”

“This is your country, right?’

Bro touched his horn with a slightly lonely expression.

In this country, Bro and I were the only ones with horns growing out of our heads.

And Bro seemed to be somewhat concerned about his horn.

“Besides, I want to get stronger. The master… don’t chase after desires you don’t understand, she just wants me to look at you. Do you know how a man feels about that? Lil sis.” ř𝐚𐌽O͍ʙΕ𝙎

“Bro is my brother, but I’m a goddess, so I don’t have a family.”

“Kakkakka, then you do what you want, yeh.”

With that said, he stroked my hair, crumpling it up.

Jamdi’el was always getting angry at that, saying it was “disrespectful,” but I didn’t hate it.

“As I am now, I don’t have the power to have master see me as a man. That’s why I’m going to get stronger.”

“I don’t want to spend my life regretting my weakness. If I’m strong, I could prevent things that could happen, I wouldn’t lose, and with that, I wouldn’t have any regrets, yeh.”

And so Bro ran out of the country.

Finally, he turned to me and said…

“Kron, you too… you’re a good kid, but… let’s get stronger, yeh.”

At that time, I couldn’t think too deeply about that remark.

However, I felt sad that the friend who played with me left the country.

But you know what, Bro? Now I remember, and your words came to my heart. ᴛʜɪs ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ɪs ᴜᴘᴅᴀᴛᴇ ʙʏ NoveIꜰire.net

Because I regretted that they took Jamdi’el away from me.

And, Earth brought out the feelings that I had kept in my heart.

What did I want all along?

What did I want to say…

―― My true feelings… were full of what I really wanted to call her… there were so many… in the end, I couldn’t say anything!

My own true feelings, even if I am a doll.

In response to my feelings, you said to me…

And , you are still fighting to fulfill those words.

“Third time’s the chaaaaaarm, 【Great Magic Spiral】!!!”

“Nuwahahahahahahaha…… nothing else?”

If true, that was my role. That’s what I have to fight for.

I don’t know why you’re willing to go that far.

But I’ve already got my answer.

“Bro, you’re right. I need to be… stronger. And I need to do it now!”

That’s how I felt right now.

“Earth. I don’t want you to fly me there. I want to fly with you too!”

I can’t wait for someone to help me.

I also want to fight.

So, I’m sorry, Jamdi’el.

Today, for the first time, I will go against your instructions and use the power of “this eye”.

So, please get very angry afterwards, okay?