Chapter 17: Chapter 17

**Nancy's POV**

It's already midnight and I am not getting a single sleep. How would I even get that?

I call Mia but she doesn't receives my phone. She is more than just angry with me. How can I make her fine with me?

My heart feels restless.

It feels really heavy.

I know it doesn't work but whenever I get disturbed another person with whom I could talk to was Kevin, I call him. I used to nag him tell him all of my insecurities and problems.

Even after knowing that he won't be able to pick up the call, I dial his number through speed dial. He is number five in my speed dial.

The rings goes on. My heart feels as if be would pick up the call, that he is okay but he doesn't. He wouldn't.

I cut off the phone and then dial the speed dial number one.

"Sorry! The number you are calling is unavailable," it says.

Tears come out of my eyes.

"Ma... Ma... I just... Miss you... So much," I say even after hearing the voice from another side.

Yes! I miss her so much today.

It was her who had always warned me not to be close to Zion According to her, Zion was the most dangerous guy she had ever seen.

And mothers are never wrong. It all happened as she predicted at first.

Though she was quite supportive when she knew about it in the past.

She was hurting alone but just for us she never told us anything. Her breast cancer took her life away and she never told us about it.

I hold the necklace my mother gifted me on my seventeenth birthday. I never forget to wear it. It feels as if she is always close to me and right beside me when I hold it tight.

I am robbing on my own when the telephone of the room rings all of a sudden.

"Love, I can't sleep. I need you right by my side," I heard him say.

"Zion?" I say.

"Please, come soon. I don't want to sleep alone," he says and his voice is really low and without any confidence.

It's already midnight and he can't sleep till now.

I walk to his room. I don't have insecurities towards him. He can't do anything right?

I turn on the lights of his room. He is on his bed not sleeping. Maybe turning or tossing.

"Hey! Didn't sleep?" I ask him.

"Come here," he calls me as he pats on the bed.

I sit right next to him on the bed.

"You know sleep really important. You need to get a good sleep on your recovery stage Zion," I say to him.

He looks at me amazingly for some moment and then rests his head on my thighs.

"Sleep here right beside me. I can't get a single sleep. Nightmares come to haunt me whenever I try to close my eyes," he says.

"Nightmares?" I say with my shocked expression. My hands are still confused whether I should hold him or not. They are still thinking a lot when they grab them and rest it in his chest.

"Yeah! Nightmares. It feels as if I am lost somewhere and everybody wants to haunt me. They want to break me and shatter into pieces," he says.

"Why do you think so? There are so many people who loves you?" I say to calm him down.

"Who do you think is there except you Selena?" he asks.

Nancy! Nancy loved you so much and she still does.

This is what I wanted to tell him. But I cannot. For him someone with name Nancy doesn't even exist.

"How did you get into business? I mean when?" I ask him.

Shit!!!

How can I even forget I am not Nancy right now? I am Selena and Selena surely knows how he started?

He looks at me for a while. I mustn't have asked him that question maybe.

"After my dad and mom passed away, I had really awful two years. It was hectic and I had to do everything on my own. It was a plane crash and then everything of mine got baffled," be says.

"Plane crash?" I ask.

"I don't remember much and trying to remember is giving me a headache right now," he says and holds his head.

"Okay! Don't do. You don't have to remember the worst memories in your life. They are meant to be wiped off," I say as I press his head and try to calm him down.

"What do want me to do? Should I sing a lullaby to you? Or maybe a bedtime stories?" I ask.

"I am not a child, love. I don't think you should read a children bedtime stories for me. Yes, if its an adult story or some other songs then, I am obviously going to listen to it," he says and gets back to his bed position on his pillows.

"Selena lie beside me. I will hear everything that you say to me," he says. I hesitate to lie beside him. I don't want my hair pulled out by the real Selena by the way.

But he pulls me and I lie beside him with our faces facing each other.

"You cried," he says as he reaches out his hands to my eyes and I try to avoid his question.

"No, why would I?" I say.

"Come here, let me hug you," he says and I like an innocent child who needs a comfort snuggle in his body.

He caresses on my back gently.

"You shouldn't cry my love. I can't see tears on your eyes. Not anymore. Trust me, I will never let you cry from now onwards. Do you get that?" he says and I feel so jealous of Selena right now.

I was crying for him all my life and I wish he could tell those words to me. He could tell that he won't let me cry all his life.

I wish!

I wish it was me, Nancy and he loves me the way he does to Selena.

**Guys don't hate my male lead so much. So much is yet to come. Don't judge him now. And honestly, I am in complete love with my male lead. ^_*

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