Chapter 32: Chapter 32

Rosie's POV

"What were you thinking?" I turned around when I heard my cousin's voice.

We were all gathered in our house today for our grandpa's birthday.

He had been sick lately resulting on me being unable to go to Korea.

Yes, I haven't gone back and Jake and I haven't talked since four months ago.

My heart clenched at the thought of him.

What supposed to be a month ended up longer than I had expected. My mom needs help and actually, I was away for too long I had fix all the mess I have left behind and a month doesn't seem to suffice.

I could have called him, but I was scared. I was scared that the moment I hear his voice, I would pack my bags and head straight to the airport.

And to make things even worse, I lost my phone the day I visited Mark. I must have been too pre-occupied that I didn't notice where I put it.

There should have been other ways on how I can contact him again, but every time I tried to do so, my inside starts to churn and the dull throbbing on my stomach I was sure was not from hunger or any pain, but from nervousness, so I always ends up losing the courage to do so.

Moreover, every night, the stupid me can't help but recall the image of him the last time we saw each other.

What's the point of contacting him when I won't be able to be with him at this time?

I don't want to live each day forward thinking how Jake will be put on a tight spot and break down again just because of me.

The boys are probably doing everything to keep Jake pre-occupied. Or that's what I was hoping.

"Nothing..." I answered and she just raised an eyebrow at me.

My cousin isn't stupid. She knew something changed within me after I went back but she isn't asking me anything. I am not really sure if she knew where I was the whole time because I think my mom is the only one who knew.

I turned back, my hands taking ahold of the the bar in front of the balcony as I stare at the sky before me. It was already late but the sky seemed getting even darker.

"You miss him..." she whispered and I turned to her, startled.

"What?" I said off-guard.

A smile smile escaped her lips before she stares at the sky before us, like what I was doing earlier.

"Whoever that person was, you are missing him, " she mumbled and I tried to laugh off ther words.

"How do know it's a guy?"

"Then is it a girl?" she asked and I pouted. She really has a way of confirming things.

"Did he say he loves you?"

My heart skipped at her question.

"He did,” I answered remembering Jake's face.

"And how did you responded?" she asked and I know I can stay quiet and not answer her question but I find myself answering.

"I said I love him too." I whispered.

"Then what's the problem?"

Why does everything seem so simple for her?

I started fiddling with the hem of my shirt. The truth is, I'm not even sure why everything seemed complicated. A part of me was asking myself if Jake still feels the same towards me. We fell in love in a rush, and after going back to Korea and being away from me, who knows how his feelings towards me turned in to.

A lot of beautiful girls surrounds him at the type of work that he's in.

It's possible for him to forget me.

It's possible to fall out of love.

I bite my lip at the thought of it.

Suddenly, I felt a hand messing with my hair, turning around, I saw her smiling at me.

"I guess you need to see this so you'll know what to do..." she mumbled before giving me her phone.

"What's this?" I asked confused and my brows furrowed after recognizing a photo of Jeon Jake. My eyes widen as I stare at her.

"You knew?" I asked and she chuckled.

"Every time their music played, you stop and space out. So I asked Aunt where you stayed and she told me. It takes two and two to know that you liked that guy because you close your eyes every time you see him on the screen of the computer every time my sister watches them." she chuckled and ny cheeks burned red.

Was I that obvious?

"And don't tell my sister you know them or she'll pester you to death," she added and I just nodded at her words.

My eyes landed back on her phone as I contemplate if I will listen to the song.

He made a cover of that famous song everybody was gushing about now.

My eyes landed back on my cousin and she nodded, urging me to continue.

So I played the song and my eyes immediately closed at the sound of the music.

The way to love me, I can’t get it out of my mind.

Please don’t ever think of letting go

We don’t really know how things will end up in the future

But who cares about that if I can be with you?

I don’t care about other people

I don’t care what the world will tell us

If I have you, it’s already the world for me

If I have you, I won’t be afraid.

They say loving someone is not easy.

I’d say even breathing was hard.

"Jake..." I whispered. My other hand landed on my mouth as after a short whimper suddenly escaped me.

I was lost before you came

I was empty, I was drain

But with you, I felt complete.

Well, maybe not but you get the gist of it.

So please honey, come back

I will be waiting; I will never turn back.

I will be waiting, so take your time.

And when you’re back, only then I can smile.

"Rosie...." I heard my cousin called for me and my eyes opened. I didn't know tears are now flowing down my cheeks.

Can this be happening?

Is this really the end?

Four months. From me running away, to finding him, then leaving again with a promise of coming back, only to broke my promise.

His song... He was holding on... He's waiting.

He's waiting for me.

"I need to come back." I whispered and she smiled.

"Took you too long to realize, huh?" I turn around and saw my mom smiling. "Go and be happy Rosie. We're okay here. And next time, bring him home so we can all meet him."

I bite my lower lip as I try to stop all the emotions getting wild on my chest.

"I will mom, I will." I told her before running towards her for a hug.

I'm coming babe. Wait for me.

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