Chapter 19: Chapter 19

Rosie's POV

"Samantha I told you, let them be. Talk to them after this."

"I need to get everything settled before I leave, Josh."

My eyes squinted at the sound of two people quarrelling, and their voices sounded familiar.

"Can't you listen to me for once? Jake is old enough to decide for himself. Please, let's just go..."

Josh oppa....

Are they fighting because of us?

My heart sank at the sound of Josh oppa's voice. He sounded hurt.

Was he upset?

Before everything escalated even more, I decided to let them know I'm already awake. I turned my body a little, set of feeble sounds escaped my lips before I slowly opened my eyes, squinting a little as I try to adjust my eyes from the stray of light.

"Unnie..." I whispered as my eyes landed on her.

Josh oppa gave me an apologetic smile, his hands on Samantha unnie's arm, perhaps trying to pull Samantha unnie away from us.

"Can we talk?" Samantha unnie mumbled and I turned my head over Jake, who started moving beside me.

Shoot.

Samantha unnie moved towards Jake and hit him on the shoulders.

"Hey, sleep outside for a moment, Jake." she told him and Jake grunted before pulling me closer by the waist, a loud shriek came out of my mouth.

"Samantha, let him sleep first." Josh oppa seemed so down with Samantha unnie and I wonder if they had a huge fight before this.

"No. Jake!" Samantha unnie screamed as he hit Jake on the shoulder multiple times.

"What???" Jake grunted, sitting from the bed, his lips pouting.

He still looks so adorable after waking up.

Cuddling with Jake inside our room, on the bed, our arms wrapped around each other while sleeping, probably isn't the wisest thing to do if we were trying to hide our relationship away from Samantha unnie.

After I told him I like him, Jake made a loud whistle resulting to Yohan oppa falling on his bed.

We didn't even know he was sleeping inside his compartment bed if he didn't fall.

Thank God we aren't doing any weird stuff or it must have been embarrassing.

The only problem was, we earned multiple curses and I had to hide my face on Jake's chest so Yohan oppa won't see me cracking up.

In the end, Yohan oppa ended up camping on the living room, occupying the entire couch, resulting to the rest of the boys to shutting up.

"Just please, leave the room and lock the door." Samantha unnie sat down beside me after Jake stood up lazily.

Josh oppa stared at Samantha unnie for a moment, a long sigh escaping his lips before he walked outside without saying a word.

Before Jake reached the door, he turned around and stared at us intently.

"Noona, I'm old enough to be in a relationship. I hope you realize that before anything else."

Our eyes met and a sweet smile escaped his eyes as he stared at me.

"If Samantha noona asks you to break up with me, don't. Trust me, all hell will break lose if you do. Especially since we literally just started dating an hour ago." he mumbled and my cheeks turned beet red at his words.

This idiot. Why did he have to tell those words in front of Samantha unnie?

"Aist. Just close the door will you. And wash your face, it's full of drool. It's disgusting." Samantha unnie scowled and Jake rolled his eyes before locking the door.

Now, it's only the two of us left.

But nody dared to speak.

Two minutes....

Five...

The room was silent which never once happened between us even the first time we met.

"So...." she started. "You're dating huh."

My eyes landed on the floor.

Here goes nothing.

"Unnie, I like him. Like, a lot." I mumbled. But I guess I was telling it more to myself than her.

After I admitted that I like him, a lot more realization hit me.

"I know." she stated and my eyes snapped to her direction, my eyes were confused.

Did she know the entire time?

Soft chuckles escaped her lips.

"I probably realized it sooner than you do actually, since you're clueless most of the times. But I was a little disappointed since you never said a word about liking him, " she added.

"Huh?" I asked even more confused.

"Rosie, your eyes, you stare at my brother like he's the only guy your eyes can see."

My cheeks blushed at her words.

"Was it that obvious?" I asked her, my hands covering my mouth.

I must have looked stupid. The other boys must be laughing over me.

I didn't know Samantha unnie knew everything all along.

It is so embarrassing.

"Rosie, you're almost close to drooling every time my brother grinds in front of you during the last concert. It's disgusting actually. I never once thought I'd see one of my best friend ogling over my brother. You used to hate him before," she crossed her arms, cringing over the thought and I covered my entire face in embarrassment.

"Well, a lot has changed after I met him." I whispered.

A lot of snuggling and kissing. If I may add.

"I didn't say a word before because I am in denial myself. I've known you for years, Rosie. You're a good person but we both know you still have issues you need to settle and I don't want my brother to get caught up with that." she added and my heart sank deeper on my chest.

She's right.

"You're telling me to face them right? That I shouldn't have runaway. Is that it?" I asked her but I think I already knew the answer to that question.

I said I runaway to heal myself. But I guess it was the other way around. I runaway because I'm afraid.

"When will you forgive yourself Rosie? It wasn't your fault." she whispered softly, I felt her hands into mine.

We're now facing each other and my lips quiver as I try to stop myself from crying.

"It is. And that's the reason why you are afraid I'll hurt your brother." I told her and I can't blame her.

Samantha unnie looked at me and I noticed thousands of emotions reflecting on her eyes.

"It's not like that Rosie. Of course I care for my brother but I am not against of you two getting into a relationship. But then again, I am scared of the thought that he might get hurt. You of all people should know how much I love him and how much I sacrificed for my brother." she stated and I felt ashamed at my words.

Of course I know. I've seen here live her university life like crazy. A lot of big companies tried to hire her but she refused, instead, she went straight to her brother's agency and worked there.

Aside from that, she has the right to get worried anyways.

Because I am a bad person, a selfish one.

That's why people leaves me, forever.

Samantha unnie knew everything, why I had to leave and why I had to hide myself.

I lost someone.

Someone who loves me eternally.

Because I was stupid.

Because I was selfish.

"It's all my fault." I whispered, my voice shaking. "If I told him to stay, if I gave him enough attention, if I didn't disregard his feelings for m-"

"Then you would have end up hurting yourself along the process..." she finished, giving a different ending on my words. "Or worse, we could have lost you." she added, her voice cracking and I could no longer take it, I started crying, my throat hurting along the process.

"Rosie, it's not your fault you said no."

"That's the problem!" I shouted. "I should have said Yes, then this shouldn't have happened! Then he should have been alive!"

Samantha unnie's eyes soften at my words.

"Rosie..."

By now, I was bawling my eyes out.

This is probably the first time I openly talked about this issue with someone.

"Then you wouldn't be on this bus, or even meet my brother." she looked at me desperately, "What happened was unfortunate but please stop punishing yourself for something that you have no control."

Before I can even respond, both our heads turned to the direction of the door when we heard someone knocking.

"Rosie, are you crying?" we heard Jake from outside. "Noona, stop bothering her. I'm old enough to decide for myself."

"Hey, Jake, stop talking to your noona like that." we heard Josh oppa stopping Jake.

"Hyung, she's making Rosie cry..."

Samantha unnie laughed at Jake's words.

She reached for my cheeks and wipe away the tears flowing down on it.

"You got my brother whipped huh?" She stated and I snorted a little at her teasing.

She smiled at me genuinely before standing, heading straight through the door, opening it immediately, Jake almost stumbled inside.

"Tsk, stop shouting Jake-hey. I swear you haven't been treating me nicely ever since I visited you." she pouted and Jake looked taken a back for a moment.

He moved closer and hugged Samantha unnie immediately, my heart felt warm at the scene before me.

I know how much Samantha unnie loves him and I can see that Jake does the same.

"Sorry noona, I promise to make it up to you next time." he mumbled, stroking the back of Samantha unnie's hair.

"Whatever." she stated before pulling away. "Go talk to your girlfriend." she said pushing Jake to my direction.

My cheeks felt hot at her words.

Girlfriend... I guess I am really Jeon Jake's girlfriend now.

Jake crouched in front of me as he wipes the tears on my cheeks.

He was pouting.

"What did Samantha noona told you that made you cry like this?"

Samantha unnie must have heard because she responded.

"I told her no sex on this bus or I'll kill you both." she stated before closing the door and I started coughing endlessly.

What the heck?

Jake's laughter echoed inside the room and I glared at him.

"What?" he asked, still smiling before sitting beside me.

He then started moving closer to me until his lips touches my ears, all the hairs at the back of my neck stood up.

"But we can still do it secretly, you know...make love." he whispered and I screamed at him at the top of my lungs, hitting him endlessly on the shoulders.

He just caught my hands and hugged me tightly.

I guess I made the right decision. Or is ot too early to tell?

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