Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Rosie's POV

To say that Voelevard and the whole Healing Heart staff being in sync is an understatement. I was blown away by the coordination.

Just before we reach the stadium, three of the staffs were waiting for us. Apparently, Jake had sent a message that I will be coming along with him and of course, Jake arriving on their rehearsals with someone who is basically a stranger to the whole fandom meant trouble.

So a few of the staffs went ahead and accompanied us with me being disguised as one of the crews.

Initially, Jake insisted that I walk with him but I guess he realized that it wouldn't be the best decision at this point

So, I he ended up coming in with one of his managers, and me following after.

Amazement enveloped my eyes after I saw a huge line of their fans waiting to see them perform.

It's still around five hours before the start of their concert but they have been camping under the heat of the sun for God knows how long.

Dedication, that's one thing I admire about fans. I have a few friends in college who does the same and I must say, their loyalty and passion on supporting their idols are no joke.

I can't even fathom how much pressure that gives to the idols that they love. To always think about how they could give back to their fans, I wonder how hard the toll it may be.

Anyway, I witnessed firsthand how these boys genuinely loves their so called - our fans.

Whenever they were inside the bus resting, I would often hear them mentioning their fans.

With an id designated for a staff, a mask and cap, I was guided to a seat near the stage where the boys would see me.

Once seated, my eyes caught a glimpse of the boys having fun in the stage.

From where I was sitting, I was able to witness a polar opposite of Jeon Jake when he's with me versus when he's with his hyungs and other people.

He was smiling a lot, having fun.

I wonder who's the real him. The man in front of me now who is jokingly hitting his oldest hyung on the neck? or the guy who had bitten my earlobe, suck my neck endlessly and kissed me tongue to tongue?

Or is he basically the same person that only I know?

Heck, I'd like it if the second one is exclusive for my eyes only.

My stomach churns in an instant and weird images of him with another girl flashes before me.

Just thinking of another girl being wrapped around his arms makes my insides feel weird.

My hand balled into a fist, a long sigh automatically escaping my lips.

No. He's mine.

My eyes widen at the thought.

Shit.

Since when did I ever felt possessive of him?

I started shaking my head perversely.

This won't do.

It hasn't even been a month and I feel like I'm totally a different person, someone I wasn't even aware that I was.

My cheeks blushed red after remembering what happened between us earlier, my hands ending up fanning my face to lessen the heat that is covering my body.

And then I remember how I was supposed to unbuckle his belt.

Fuck, was I even ready to do him like that?

And then it hit me.

Holy shit. I almost had sex with Samantha unnie's brother!

Panic arise through me and millions of question started clouding in my head.

Just then, Jake's sweet voice filled the whole arena and I almost choke on my saliva.

Oh my God.

I was sure I was not the slightest hesitant earlier when I almost ride into him.

Was that only a sexual tension?

I grunted internally. Whoever finds out what we were doing would think that I am some kind of a wild woman.

Yeah Rosie, he must have thought how easy you were. A few kisses and your hands are already all over his body.

But I can't help it.

To be honest, I only had one ex in my life and I never really dated before him. And as far as I remember, I have never been like this before.

I was battling with my inner self when I heard a groan coming just right beside me.

My mouth hangs wide open when I realized who it is.

One of Voelevard's manager.

She smiled at me as she sits beside where I was located.

I knew her. We've greeted each other a few times but we never really had a conversation. So sitting beside each other right now while watching VOELEVARD perform was so awkward.

"Rosie, right?" she started and I turned my eyes towards her direction and smiled.

"I'm Hyeri, one of their managers. But you can call me unnie." she told me before offering her hand which I gladly accepted.

For some reason, she doesn't feel so intimidating unlike some of the managers they have.

"Is this the first time you're watching them during their rehearsals?" her voice was so soft, I suddenly remembered my mom. Though she maybe only on her late twenties or early thirties, she still exerts this respectable aura.

"Yes, unnie. I didn't have a chance to do so during their last concert." I turned back my attention to the stage when I heard Jake's laugh, a smile automatically formed on my lips at the sound of it.

Vash was running around the stage as Jake was laughing his ass off, sitting on the ground while Jason was almost rolling on the floor.

Yohan oppa was shaking his head but a smile is visible on his lips. The other ones were laughing so hard and I can clearly hear Josh oppa's windshield laugh even to where I am sitting.

"They are the nicest kids I ever met." she mumbled and my eyes snapped back to her direction.

Her eyes were gleaming as if she was really happy watching the boys having fun.

"They worked so hard to be where they are now. So seeing them having fun like this makes our hearts flutter." she stated and I noticed the other staff smiling while watching them.

My heart felt warm at the sight before me and I can clearly see how great the boys relationship is with their staffs.

And once again, I felt so guilty for judging Jake before.

My hands started fiddling with the hem of my shirt.

"Rosie, would you mind if I ask you something?"

"Huh? Yes, unnie?" I bite my lower lip in nervousness.

She eyed at me carefully.

"Is there something going on between you and Jake?"

My breath hitches at her words, my cheeks burning red and my heart started hammering on my chest.

"I,hmm," I stuttered, unable to answer her question.

How can I answer her when I don't even know the answer myself?

My lips went numb and my mind went frenzy.

Jake and I, what do we have?

We clearly aren’t in any relationship and even I don't think we can be in one at this point.

For one, I'm not sure I am ready, second, I don't know exactly how he feels about me, and third, I don't think Samantha unnie will like it.

Shit! Shit! Shit!

I went away because I wasn't okay. But now I feel like I'm becoming more lost about everything.

My eyes landed on Jake. He was staring at my direction, his brows furrowed.

I think he was about to head to where I was if Yohan oppa didn't stop him.

"I guess I already know the answer." she chuckled and I look at her more confused.

"What do you mean?"

She looked at me with an amused expression before shaking her head while giggling.

"Did you know that Jake made a fuss earlier before he went to the stage? He made sure that you will be seated to where he can see you. And even told the security to watch over you." I gawk at her words.

What?

She chuckled at my reaction.

"Are you dense or something?" she raised her eyebrows at me.

"I'm sorry unnie but I really don't understand." I mumbled before I heard Jake's voice getting closer.

"Really?" she giggled. "Then this would be fun. But let me tell you something. Jake over there, never once talked to any girl unless it's work related or if if she's either a family or a fan."

"Ahhmmm... And?" that made me more even confused.

"Oh God, this should be exciting." she mumbled, her hands clasped around together as she stood up and took Jake away before the other can even head down to my direction.

I'm guessing that it's to avoid the fans seeing us.

Before he got lost from my line of sight, Jake turned towards to my direction and I was so sure he looked nervous.

But why?

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