Chapter 46: Chapter 46

The following day and night went in a blur. I saw Rocky several times but have been successfully evaded him for some time. It was he who should have been ashamed to talk to me. But he had no such such issues so far. Whenever he comes near me I avoid him like plague. He had understood my hesitation and has chosen to stay away. But I think he won't be held back for long. It was not Rocky I was concerned about it was Raja. The betrayal of Rocky only hurt me as much as a thorn on the other hand the same from Raja felt like a knife had been pierced inside my heart.

I didn't want to stay in home anymore. I couldn't be anymore confined to it than I already was. Whatever happened to me doesn't matter. I had to keep going or I will fall prey to devious men in my life. I think today is the day I'm going to take control of the train wreck in my life. I will no longer shy away from Rocky. I haven't done anything bad it was them who had done the thing that they should be ashamed of. Why should I stay under the tree while they are enjoying the sun shine.

I will never give them license to make my life a living hell than it already is. I will fucking fight to my rest of life. But I won't any of them to take me for granted. I'm not their toy. Maybe they have managed to fool me once but they won't do it again. I will confront Rocky and make it clear that I won't have him as my friend anymore. I had enough of betrayal. I won't let him cut me open like this again. I have Rita I will handle the scandals. It is not something new to me. I have faced enough from the past.

Raja on the other hand was silent. Ever since the unfortunate scene he hadn't tried to contact me. I was relieved. Raja had gone from my life just like that. He was like a dream which turned to a nightmare but nonetheless it was a moment of bidding adieu to the exes whether it was your boyfriend or friend. I'm done with men literally. I wanted to go to a drama free college now on. There is only one way warn them to stay fucking away from me.

It was only a matter of time soon everything will turn into insignificance. I will be married to Ravi. All my hopes and dreams will be quashed. Is that the life I should live? By giving importance to Rocky and Raja that was the road I was getting into. If I don't want to live that life better I take a U turn from them. I will no more run from my problems. Rocky might want to ask my forgiveness. Maybe I will give it to him in return for his staying away from me.

When I walked out to college I saw Rocky with his car ready to pick me up. I stood there silently not wanting to make a scene or get inside the car. He got an idea of the situation and got out of the car soon. I waited for him impatiently to say his piece.

"I'm extremely sorry Asha. I was an idiot. I didn't want to loose my cool image in front of others. That is why I agreed. But I had warned to stay away from him. I thought you heeded my advice", he told me.

"So some how you turn this to my fault. You are the one who made the bet dragging me into this mess in the first place. You never gave any indication of how you have put a bet on my life. How am I to know you will do something as wile as this? I thought what I and Raja had was something special. But I was wrong. I accept the complete responsibility for it. But I want you to stay away from me now on. Don't talk to me or even look at me if you have any care left for me. Last but not the least I don't want a fucking ride", I told him.

"You have turned to a spit fire", he said with a small smile.

"A girl has got to look out for herself these days", I replied and turned away from him. I didn't feel the heart breaking when I came to know about Rocky. On the other hand if it was Raja then I was sure that I would have died. I took a bus it gave me a clarity to be among strangers who had no idea who you are.

When I reached college I saw many who were laughing behind me. I even heard hoots of laughter along with a did you gave it away as well. I didn't reply or even fought with those nameless faces. What was the point of it? They will get more excited. They will attack me again with more sharp words. I ignored them it felt easier. I saw a few teachers give me sympathetic glances. So it has been made it's way to their ears too.

I wasn't shy or ashamed not this time. Maybe because I have trusted the wrong person. For the first time in my life it wasn't my fault. So how come I only paid for the damages. I have no fear of my reputation. I knew people only have a passing memory. It won't be long when people forget about this with the arrival of some fresh gossips.

All I have to do is to come daily to the classes with my head held high not caring for people until the day I won't matter to them anymore. That will be the day I will be free of these voracious gossips. I will get peace of mind. Then Raja, Rocky and Asha won't remain in their thoughts or words.