Chapter 39: Chapter 39

"I don't want our first time together in a shack ", he said regretfully.

" I don't mind", I said with a smile.

"I would rather we wait like civilized people", he said with a smile.

" You don't think me as civilized?", I asked him.

"I think you will just go after what you want. If someone says no that makes you relentless in your pursuit", he said quietly.

That was so not true. But in some ways it was. The best way they could get something out of me was to say no to me. Maybe it was what attracted me to him initially. He had said no to me. But he had said yes to me also. So technically I should have moved on. But life was unthinkable without Raja.

" So will I get three magical words before you make love to me?", I asked him boldly.

"Maybe", he said with a smile.

" You are such a dick head. I can't believe I'm in love with you", I told him.

"You say you are in love with me. But you are getting married to Rocky?", he asked me with a raised brow. Not to Rocky but his father. I almost said that out loud but I didn't. I don't want him to think of me as a gold digger.

" I was engaged before I saw you", I said.

"Will you break your engagement for me?", he asked me.

" I will if you make love to me", I told him.

"Works for me", he said leaning for a kiss which I obliged.

" How about tonight?", he asked me.

"Yes ", I breathed.

" I have to go now", he said.

"Ok. Go", I said not wanting to sound clingy.

" Wait for sometime after I leave", he said.

"Yes boss", I told him.

He left then left me wanting. I may have said some bold things. But I was nervous as hell. I can go with Raja tonight since I'm an expert at fooling night watchmen at our house. But I wasn't that confident about my bedroom skills since I was a virgin.

I wanted to remedy that since it was a dream come true moment for me. I wanted it to be as perfect as possible.

I may need some help from my friend after all. I didn't want to sit in the class after all. I had a bad day but it turned out to be a good one thanks to Rocky. I sat in the shack waiting for the classes to be over it was only an hour or so. I passed the time by playing games on my phone.

I slowly went out and called Rita who agreed to meet me in the halls. I waited for her and I saw Rocky coming towards me. I waved my hand at him. I needed bail for going out with her. He came towards me and smiled down at me.

" Hey Rocky do you mind if I go with Rita"?, I asked him in a sweet voice which he couldn't resist.

"Yes sure. Should I drop you guys?", he asked me worried about us.

" Yes drop us in the cafe nearby", I told him. Rita had joined us by now.

We got out at the cafe and I said a quick goodbye to him. We walked to the cafe and got seated. The server came to take our orders. We both asked for iced tea and a sandwich. Once the server was out of earshot I decided to broach the subject.

"I'm going to have sex with someone", I told her without any hesitation.

" Ok. Is it Rocky?", she asked.

"What? No. It's Raja", I told her.

"Asha are you sure about him?", she asked.

" I was sure about him ever since I was a kid and he worked at my stable", I told her.

"Oh! I didn't know about that? So you have known him for that long?", she asked me.

" I have been in love with him all my life. It has always been him", I told her.

"I'm happy if you are happy", she said.

" Are you still dating Rocky's friend?", I asked her. I wondered that's why she was trying to set me up with Rocky.

"No we broke up", she said sadly.

" I'm sorry. I didn't know about that", I told her. I was a selfish bitch here my friend had broken up and I was asking her advice on my dating life.

"It's Ok. It was a mutual decision", she told me. I wondered if it was from her expression. I always knew they were mean bastards. I thought them to be nice but they were only putting a face for me.

" I never had sex before. So I have no idea", I told her.

"Really? ", she said to me in surprise.

" I mean know the technicalities", I told her. A flash of Raja with the old cook flashed through my mind. I blinked it away forcefully. The old hag had lost Raja. I had him.

"I don't know what to tell it is different for everyone. For some it is painful and the others not so much. For me, it was a bad experience. ", she said.

" I was raped by a classmate. It was painful. I didn't press charges because my family didn't want to ruin our reputation", she told me quietly.

I can't believe something like that happened to her. She was a bubbly girl and it didn't faze her. She was a strong woman. I doubt I would have survived such an ordeal.

"I know you might think of me as an idiot for letting them get away", she told me disheartened.

" I think you are very brave since you didn't allow it to bring you down", I told her.

"Thanks, Asha. I wish I was as brave as you. You always fight when something you don't like happen to you", she said.

" I don't think so. I'm not as brave as you think", I told her. I didn't want to explain everything so I left it at that .