Chapter 40: Chapter 40

"Lenora!" A weak voice called my name and the moment I recognised it, my body froze, it was Asher and why the fuck would Jenny bring me here?

I turned to look at Jenny who only had a broad smile on her face but it was in no way near a deceitful smile that I was suddenly confused about what was happening.

"Why the hell am I here?" I growled at Jenny with my eyes that were filled with anger and the memories from the day I knew about Asher's plan flashed through my mind.

I could feel the pain In my eyes as I was trying so hard to not let the salty tears flow on my cheeks. Jenny still had her smile on her face to the point of it irking me so bad.

"Why the fucking hell am I here Jenny!" I growled louder this time as my wolf was getting ready to unleash her rage on anyone at the moment. On knowing I wasn't in for any child's game, the smile on her face fell.

It was obvious that she hadn't expected me to react that way as she rather said nothing but stared at me with a blank face. She probably thought I was the same girl who had let herself be misused by her crazy fantasy of her toxic ex boyfriend.

"Why the hell am I even still here?" I scoffed with rage and made my way to leave their presence before his voice put me to halt.

"Please Lenora just wait and listen to me!" He yelled at the top of his lungs so I could be able to hear his voice.

For some unknown reasons, I found myself halting and wanting to actually hear what he would say. I didn't stop because I missed him or because I had any feelings for him but I had stopped to listen to him in case he felt any remorse for what he had done to me for the past few weeks and even years.

"Thank you" He sighed the moment I stopped even though my back was still turned against him. I liked the fact that he didn't waste any time but went straight to the point.

"Look, I know I've wronged you in so many ways from the day I rejected you for your sister and the other times when I would use you for my own selfish reasons and I honestly feel bad"

"I've had this guilt eating me up ever since you disappeared and I secretly prayed for your safety so I would be opportune to say this to your face. I'm deeply sorry for all I've done, Lenora" He pleaded but I found myself not believing him as a scoff released from my mouth.

I turned to face him as I took some steps closer to the dungeon,  my eyes met with his eyes but I wasn't a bit intimidated, rather I could sense he was feeling uneasy.

"Don't tell me, you think I'll be able to get you out of your permanent home by saying all of these to me?"

"I swear I don't intend for anything else Lenora,  I just want you to forgive me and that's all I need. I'm pleading" His voice cracked at the end and I could see his eyes turning red as he tried to hold the tears back in by blinking rapidly. Did he actually mean all of this stuff?

"I'm so sorry, Lenora!" He pleaded again but this time, he let the tears flow down his cheeks that were covered in dirt as he fell to the floor sobbing, he looked really hopeless and the tattered clothes on him weren't doing any justice to his hopelessness.

My whole body sank and gave in to him the moment I found him vulnerable. He definitely doesn't mean any harm to me anymore but there's a part of me that is more than satisfied to see him behind the strong metal bars.

"Just stand up" I said as I tried to avoid eye contact with him even though I could feel his gaze on me.

He slowly stood up and wiped the tears from his dirty cheeks before forcing a smile out. One could easily see the pain behind those smiles.

"Am I forgiven?" He inquired while I inhaled a deep breath before taking another look at him.

"Forgiving Is a big deal to me, others find it easier to forgive than to forget but to me, it's different.  I could try to forget everything you've done to me but forgiving you is on a whole new level" I responded as the expression on his face fell.

"I guess that's better than none right?" Jenny squeaked in excitement beside me while I tried to ignore the awkward situation before I suddenly felt a cold hand on mine.

"Thank you" Asher responded with his hands on mine that it made me flinch almost immediately.  I hadn't realized my hands were on the steel bar.

He immediately noticed I wasn't comfortable with his hands on mine as he suddenly removed them.

"Okay" I responded and finally turned my back to walk away from the dungeon.  This would definitely be the last time I would set my feet on the side of the pack house.

While walking, I could still feel his cold hands on mine that made an unwanted memory flash through my mind as I recollected the day he roughly dipped his fingers into my vagina.

The thought of it alone made me irk as I tried to get rid of the thought. I really hated the old me and I'm thankful to Jika for making me who I am right now. I'm a lot more confident in myself and stronger.

I let the thought of Asher drain away from my head since I had made a promise to him to forget about everything he has ever done to me.

"Hey wait up!" Jenny called after me but I paid no attention to her as I walked even faster than I was walking. I wasn't interested in any conversation she might want to start.

I immediately entered my bedroom and locked the door behind as I shut my eyes really tight trying to get everything away from my head before I suddenly noticed a presence in my room. A familiar unwanted presence.

"Where were you?" His gruff voice asked but I noticed he was trying to be calmer.

"I don't owe you any explanation " I replied as I looked him in his eyes and I suddenly felt my wolf whimpering in me. I really don't understand what is wrong with her, some minutes ago she was so confident about confronting Asher but right now she's trying to restrict me from starting an argument with Alaric.

She always acts that way around him and whenever I try to connect to her to actually know why she acts that way she just totally shuts me off. Well If she's not going to give me a reason,  I might as well not listen to her.

"Actually,  you broke a lot of rules that could result in death but here you are standing on your own two feet, so yeah, you do owe me an explanation" He responded almost immediately.

"In that case just kill me" I said without any feeling of remorse as I walked closer to where he was standing and looked him straight into his eyes but there was something else in his eyes.

He wasn't annoyed or angry at my approach but he was rather surprised at my new way of talking to him.

The amusement on his face slowly fell as his brows furrowed. I immediately realized something went off at that moment as he suddenly held my hands and brought it closer to his nose before his expression totally turned to anger.

"You came back some few days ago and you're already meeting him, why the fuck do you keep going back?!" He yelled in a lower case but I could feel the vibration of his voice in the room.

"And that's none of your business" I responded but was shocked at his next move as he suddenly pinned my arms with his huge hands.

It was hard for me to move and they were starting to hurt me.

"Let go of me!" I yelled.

"Not until you give me a good reason as to why you choose to be oblivious to the obvious, Lenora!" He yelled my name out loud as his veins were suddenly very visible on his face that I feared they might pop out and splash blood all over me.

"There's nothing else to be aware of than the fact that you're an obnoxious murderer that just wants to ruin my happiness!" I spat but it wasn't making anything better as his grip on my hands tightened.

"Why don't you just kill me and let me be happy in my afterlife since you're after all of my Joy here. Just kill me!" I raised my voice even louder as I suddenly broke down.

"I can't fucking kill you Lenora and I'm doing all of these for your goddamn fucking sake!"

"How is ruining my life for my sake or sanity? Answer me Alaric!"

"Will you just stop saying I'm ruining your life because if you're planning on hurting my feelings you're doing a great job so just stop already!" He yelled and I could feel some true emotions in his eyes for the first time since I've known him but he wasn't making anything better as I still didn't understand what he meant by his feelings.

How the fuck can I influence his feelings and where in the world does a beast have feelings?

"But isn't that the truth, aren't you ruining my life?" My voice came out calmer this time as my anger was replaced with tears that flowed freely down my eyes.

"I would never hurt you because..." He swallowed and loosened his grip on my arms as I anxiously stared at him, trying to understand what he's trying to say.

"Because I love you and I'm mated to you. You're my mate, Lenora!"

He sighed as my face turned blank while I stared at him in awe.

I completely removed his hands from my arm as I took some steps backwards while scoffing and astoundedly looking at him.

"Is this a new trick or a game?" I scoffed in amusement .

"Am I a fucking game to you?" I yelled at the top of my lungs but he said nothing in return.

Something felt off in me as I could feel my wolf slowly and happily crawling out of the corner she had hidden herself in. Was this what she couldn't say to me all these while and was this the reason she drifted away from me during the past few days?

I felt betrayed by my wolf as tears pooled In my eyes, there was no fucking way the moon goddess could have stood me up this bad by giving me another mate as cruel as Alaric. It can't be!

There have been cases of wolves having two mates and I prayed to be lucky enough to find one in the future but I had never expected it to be even worse than my first. Was it even possible for a lycan to mate with a werewolf?

I slowly walked out of the room as I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I had no idea where I was running to as there was no way I could leave the territory but I just wanted to leave the house at the moment and clear my head away from what just happened.

Everywhere in the pack house seemed to be too small for me to breathe in as I found myself suffocating and walking towards the main gate even though I very well knew I would be sent away.

"Go back in!" The guard on duty yelled at me while I stared back with no emotion like a walking dead.

"Let her be" I heard Alaric voice commanding the guards and in no time the gates were opened for me as I walked out of the pack house. I could feel his gaze piercing through my skin but I didn't wish to see his face. He just can't be!