Chapter 29: Chapter 29

Chapter Twenty — Nine

Ava POV

My eyes opened to the sunrise. That entered my bedroom through the window and lit the whole place up.

a sigh escaped through my mouth. Weekend. Finally.

It was about time.

The sun was way up in the sky, but I did not rise to meet the day. Instead, I flipped on my side and closed my eyes again.

The bed was warm. It tempted me to remain inside it and bury myself in its warmth. It felt too good to let go so soon. Thus, I gave into that temptation.

only for a few seconds. I told myself.

Now that I was settled down, images from midnight flashed behind my eyes.

Last night was a hell lot of weird. Watching my boss have sex with one of his employee, in his own damn house. Not a frequent sight to see.

Now that I was not being as melodramatic as last night, that scene hit me differently.

My boss was having an affair with his secretary. That was so … unprofessional. Or unlike Jasper. In the few days that I had known him, I had never considered him to be like this. Like anything but all Platonic manners. Like how you think of a teacher as one. He always seemed to appear so calm and sincere. And a moral type of person. Who helps a random stranger and helps them out of their worst time. He seemed so … good and nice.

Then why would he?

Uhh …

Why was I judging him?

He Was a good person. Just because he was having an affair with his employee who worked right under him, did not make him a bad person.

I mean sure, office affairs were something that was frowned upon by society and for a strong reason because it seemed to mix professional and personal life together, it did not mean that those people were bad or anything.

It was just unheard of, but it happened. It happens in many offices. Some couples even actually end up getting married and be happy with each other.

but still …

I knew that I should not judge him or Charlotte, for that matter, but I couldn't help it, and felt strange about it. Especially, when I watched them having Sex in pool.

I picked up a pillow and pulled it over my head. Shading my eyes from the bright light.

I could not believe what I did last night. I actually watched them having Sex. Any decent person would leave as soon as they noticed what was happening, but I stood there like a creep. Not only did I stand there, but I also tried to masturbate.

Gosh, I was disgusted.

Shit! What the hell was wrong with me? What was I doing?

Now that I remembered how I behaved, I could not help but feel ashamed of myself. My embarrassment hitting the roof.

Why did I do that? Thank god that none of them saw me there, creeping up on them. Otherwise, what would happen? I didn't even want to imagine. It was one thing doing something that's embarrassing and another to get caught while doing it.

although, if I were to get caught by any of them, it would have been completely hysterical. Knowing that I saw them having sex while I masturbated to that. I wonder who would have been more embarrassed, me or them.

Another sigh left my mouth. I could feel that my bladder was full, and I needed to pee, but I preferred not to stand up at all. Especially At that moment.

my reaction to them was nothing in front of the way, I ran out of that place and almost cried while sitting on the floor with my back against the door. The way I sat on the floor, not moving and only thinking about the past, made me almost die inside with a cringe now.

Why was I being so dramatic? Was it the pregnancy hormones or just my sensitive self?

Although, I had to admit. The memories from the past did feel like a punch in the gut. Yesterday was even bad because it brought back the memory of That man.

I hated myself for falling for that man's charm. I hated that I let my desire take control over my body. Not only that, but I hated that I let myself flow with the current situation without ever considering the consequences of it all.

Why didn't I consider the consequences of my stupid decisions? Why?

I knew why.

Maybe because I craved touch. The ultimate doom of humanity. I knew that the way I behaved yesterday had also something to do with the lack of physical attention I was getting, or not getting at all. The last time I had sex, was with that stranger. Since then, I have not had any physical contact.

I knew that it was a ridiculous thought, of wanting to have sex in these moments when I should only be focusing on being happy for the upcoming baby. And not be selfish in wanting to find myself a man. This whole life was screwed up.

Last night, I could not even remember how I managed to pull myself up.

All of a sudden, I sat upright. At This moment, I had to pull myself up, or I might actually end up pissing myself here. I threw the covers and ran for the bathroom. I reached the toilet in time and relieved myself. When I finished doing my business, I walked over to the sink and met my eyes in the mirror. My face looked a little swollen. Maybe from the few tears that I shed yesterday. My hair was all ruffled, like I could not sleep all night.

I ran a hand through my hair. I needed to shampoo my hair. They felt dirty on my touch. With a last look in the mirror, I cleaned, picked up a towel and went to take a bath.

Later, when I was ready and dressed up, I walked downstairs.

There was a distant buzzing sound.

“Maria?” I called out. Seeing that no one was in sight.

“In here.” she replied from the kitchen. I smiled. Walking inside the kitchen, I noticed that she was preparing food.

“You woke up late.” Maria said, stirring something in the bowl.

“Yeah, the week has been tiring.” I replied, looking at the content she was stirring.

“What are you making?” I asked. The smell was so delicious that my mouth watered.

“Pancakes.” she said.

“Wow. Great. Can I get a coffee, though? I need to wake myself up.” I told her.

“sure. But before that.” Maria said, placing the bowl on the counter.

“Can you get Jasper? He asked me to get him before I made lunch.” Maria said.

oh no.

no way. I can't go and call him. My memories were still fresh from last night. I still could not forget all the images of him with Charlotte. How will I face him? What if he noticed something on my expressions and could tell how I creeped up on them? I needed time to collect my thoughts and gather my bearings.

anxiety creeped up in me, making me shudder.

here we go again, with my day being normally bad.

“Umm … Maria …” I spoke, my tone unsure.

“Please, Ava? I am very busy. I would go and tell him myself, but I can't.” she pleaded.

oh hell.

Now, how was I supposed to deny her? I would come out as a jerk if she actually requested this from me, and I still turned her down.

Why did I come here?

“Sure. Tell me, where is he?” I asked, trying to smile even though I did not want to. Why did I always get stuck in this sort of situation? Why?

“Oh. He is in the gym. Working out.” she answered me.

Gym? Jasper worked out? I did not know that. Although I should not be so shocked, Jasper had a body of freaking heath freak, of course he worked out. I had SEEN his insane figure without clothes.

nope. Not going there. Not thinking about it again.

My mind returned to the main topic.

“Gym.” I asked. Clearly confused.

“Yes, gym. Uh … wait. You did not know where the gym was?” she asked me. I shook my head. I didn't even know that this place had a gym, let alone find Jasper in it.

Maria scowled.

“You never took a tour of the whole house, did you?” I shook my head once again.

“Jeez. I will give a house tour later. You should know the place where you live.” she exclaimed, shaking her head, looking incredulous.

“Anyway. Go straight and take a left, there's a pool. Walk on the opposite side, you will see an opening. Go inside, there is the main gym.” She guided me.

oh god. Was it by the pool? I had to cross the pool to go and find him? This was not happening.

“Okay.” I nodded. She smiled and I returned it. However, as soon as I whirled around, my expression changed to a troubled one?

Now that I had made up my mind, l had to do it. I walked out of the kitchen and began walking towards the pool. Thoughts began to swirl in my mind.

pool? Out of all the places? Why did it need to be this place particularly?

no worries? I think I could deal with it. I tried to console myself.

Why did Maria have to ask me? Why weren't there any other people? After all, he was a billionaire.

a freaking Billionaire.

he should have more than ten or fifteen people aiding to his needs, then why only one? How, only Maria was the one to handle all the chores? Not to mention that his house did not look like he was a billionaire. It did look like it belonged to a rich person, for sure, but not a Billionaire.

I didn't even realize that among all these thoughts I reached the pool. It was just as I saw last night, but now it seemed different. It held memories of two people.

My legs froze and so did my eyes. Last night, scenes replayed in my mind.

Jasper and Charlotte together, with each other. Holding, grabbing, kissing …

I jerked as I pulled myself out of that haze. I should not be thinking about it. Furthermore, I forced myself to move and ignore it. I walked and walked from the side of the pool until I reached the place that I was looking for.

The opening door for the gym.