Chapter 6: Chapter 6

(Vivienne)

I sat there frozen in place, nothing made sense to me especially when the man was sitting beside me holding my hand tightly. I was nervous that I didn't want him to do anything that would make me feel weak to resist whatever he had in his mind

"It's getting late...I need to go and rest"I voiced out in a low tone, however, my voice came out hoarse and restrained. I didn't care about anything but I just wanted to get away from him. He was making things more difficult and I regretted this more than anything. If he wanted an explanation from me on how I left him years back then he was wrong. I wasn't ready to say anything. I was scared of his reaction and that made my heart heavy

"If you are not willing to take me to my destination then I'll walk the rest of the way," I said after some time when he wasn't answering me, took my purse, and prepared to get out of his car when he grabbed my arm and pulled me back with so much strength that I ended up falling on him. The man didn't stop there but forcefully flipped me so I could sit on his lap and he moved his arm around my back.

My heart was racing fast when I noticed the position I was in. He rested my hand on his chest while the other gripped his arm. My hair fell on him covering us both. I could feel his heart and I didn't know if he noticed how his heart was pounding loudly against his chest

A shiver ran through my body when his hand moved to my face and held the sides of my face and his touch had me feeling restless

"Ms. Payton, how are you?" the man murmured the words making me even more anxious. Why did he greet me? Did he know how much I longed for him to ask me how I was feeling when I gave birth? I wanted him to be there, for me to open my eyes and find him beside me asking me the same question he was asking now but that wasn't the case. I didn't find him there. He didn't care about me because I already did what he wanted.

It hurt me to hear him ask how I was doing when my heart was stilled a long time ago. The day he left me there was the day everything stopped. He didn't care about me and that was a fact

"Unlock the door I want to go"I mumbled doing everything I could not to break down and shed tears. He moved his hand even more to my face and tucked my hair behind my ears. My eyes closed automatically when his fingers brushed against my ear sending a warm sensation throughout my body

"The driver has the keys and he locked the car from outside...I don't think he's anywhere near" the man said and I was even angrier. He played this game to trap me. I wondered how he got like this. In the past, Victor never took the initiative to touch any part of me but now he was doing that and I didn't want him to

"You have no rights to do this... you should let me out, "I told him straight and fought to get off him but he pressed me down such that I couldn't move or do anything.

"Did you leaving has anything to do with someone else...who else has the rights Ms. Payton…" he muttered as he used his fingers to caress my neck. I went stiff hating every minute he had to bully me. Did he plan this? It seemed he had been waiting for this and now he was getting away with his actions

"I have nothing to explain to you...you didn't value what I gave or cherish anything...you are only good at using and tossing away because you consider yourself a powerful man to do as you want!"I lashed out and said bitterly, every word I said pierced my heart like a sharp knife that caused so much pain. I wanted so badly to tell his face the jerk he was in the past. He used me like some ragged doll and left me like I was nothing

"What else?" he muttered and I was even angrier. He didn't know the anger I carried inside all because of him. He left me hanging and I ended up being this way. I blamed him for everything

"Don't...you ever lay your hands on me!"I said with a warning glare and shoved him away from me. I got off him and knocked at the car window and soon I heard beeping and to my luck when I tried opening the door. It opened and I stormed out leaving whatever I had there. This was an idea. I knew coming back was a bad idea, I didn't want to be here or hear anything he had to say.

"Taxi," I said when surprisingly I saw a taxi approaching and to my luck, it stopped and there was no one inside

"Where to?" the driver asked me and I thanked my stars that it was on the road. I quickly got in and slammed the door shut

"Please drive," I said coaxing him to drive as fast as I could. I didn't want to stay there, especially when Victor was acting up. I glanced back and I saw that his car was still parked by the roadside and hadn't moved. I averted my eyes and looked forward. It was late I needed to get away and by myself, it was best that way. I was used to loneliness. It felt better and more comforting than being around people.

Immediately the taxi Vivienne boarded was out of sight, it took Victor minutes to get himself together. He sat there in his car without moving. Did he overreact or cross his limits? He didn't know how to react when she was back in his life. It took time for her to get back. Yes, she fulfilled her promise three years ago.

He was happy she was a good Surrogate but he thought they had something going on. He wasn't sure what he wanted then. He was waiting confused man with a lot of issues. He thought they could talk things out, especially about their relationship which didn't have a name in the past

"It's fine" he mumbled when he noticed his driver outside waiting to be let in. He listened and settled in the driver's seat

"You called for a taxi?"Victor asked as he glanced to the sides and saw she left her purse

"Yes sir…" his trusted driver said and Victor nodded and reached out for Vivienne's purse. He brought it to his lap and held it in his hands. He didn't want to open it but just held it for satisfaction. He slowly brought it to his nose and sniffed her perfume. It smelled like her.

A few minutes ago he had a chance to hold her in his arms again. It still felt the same. And even more, the urge drove him to overreact. He couldn't wait to hold her in his arms. To touch her and tell her things he didn't get to tell her in the past but he shook his head shoving the thoughts away and relaxed, the drive back home was in utter silence.

***

When I reached the hotel, it went straight to my apartment. Everything was blurry so much happened in one day that I was scared of what would happen in the three months I'd be here working for Victor.

"Hey...finally you came"when I opened the door and walked in. Alexis startled me when he appeared out of nowhere

"Please Alex...what are you doing here?"I asked feeling irritated. I didn't feel fine and just wanted to go and rest. She was supposed to be in her apartment not bothering to wait up for me

"I was worried that you took so long to come...are you okay you seem worried?" she asked and I nodded hiding my face from her

"I'm fine please go, "I remarked heading towards my room but she followed me there.

"Please just tell me what happened to you...this isn't you," she said pulling me back to her and I was frustrated even more

"Just leave me alone...I want to get some sleep"I didn't mean to yell but she was making things worse that was why I lost it. Alexis stared at me for a while knowing she was hurt when I rinsed my voice at her but I was irritated with myself l. She said goodnight and left my apartment. I managed to lock the door and walked to my room.

"This can't be happening...I don't want this" I murmured holding my head in my hands and sitting on the bed. I didn't feel okay when my heart and body were betraying me. He had no right to touch me after what he did. He should know any better than to think I'd still run back to him. Force him to feel something for me like I did in the past

"You are wrong Victor... I won't run behind you and beg for you...to love me" I said words which resided in my heart. I was done, I was naive in the past and desperate for his care, each time I yearned of his touch. For him to notice me and I was scared any slight mistake I made would make him hate me or not want me but this time it was different. I wasn't going to force him or get desperate for him.