Chapter 14: Chapter 14

(Vivienne)

As much as I wanted so much from him. I wanted this to be built on true feelings. I wanted him to look me in the eye and tell me I was the only girl he wanted. That I wasn't just a reminder to him of his late wife and I wanted him to open his heart for him. In the past, I was naive and acted on impulse. The feelings I developed in the nine months I spent with him was genuine and straight from my heart. I loved Victor with everything I had, there was no taking with what I felt for him. There was no gambling no trading my love for him for anything. He meant everything to me and I wanted him to know that Vivienne loved him more than anything

"Vic...no stop"I tried, by all means, to keep him off, this was wrong. He was acting on impulse but I didn't want that. He seemed to be feeling something but he wasn't sure just like in the past. I managed to keep him off me although he didn't move away. His hands cupped my face lovingly. Nothing felt more satisfying than being touched by him unfortunately his approach was wrong

"Vic it's enough please...you don't have…"

"Be mine forever" the man murmured as he took my hand in his. He lifted it to his mouth and kissed it. A shiver went through me but I was too stunned by his words. His voice was low and soft, full of concern. When he looked at me. I couldn't look away. I wanted to hear that from him. To hear him say he wanted to make me a part of his life and his family but I was too afraid even though I wanted this

"You don't mean what you say...you are saying this because you think I'm like Alisa"I muttered, reaching for his face. I saw his eyes closed, not sure if he was enjoying my touch or if what I said triggered a nerve. I knew he was only doing this because at some point when he got drunk in the past he used to call me Alisa. Several times he snuggled to my chest calling me Alisa and asking for forgiveness. It hurt me how he thought I was her

"I'm Vivienne...not her" with every word that escaped my mouth, my heart was ripped out of my heart but realizing he stole my heart made me feel empty. His soft gaze did nothing to stop the pain I was feeling. Throughout my life, I always lived for myself. I had no one to call my own, sometimes I thought no one liked me. I used to cry, and pour my heart out thinking the heavens hated me so much that they deprived me of the love of a mother and a father. I yearned to have a mother even if she didn't want me I still would love her with all my heart

"I didn't say you have to replace anyone" he murmured. By now we were so close to each other that I could feel his heartbeat against mine. His soft warm hands held the sides of my face such that his sizzling touch gave me comfort

"You just want to sleep with me like before then leave me in the end...it's all you've done to me...to leave me just like everyone else"I didn't want to say this but the thought of him wanting only my body made me feel worthless. His advances were wrong, he was hurting me by seeking my body that I knew through his actions

"T...that's not true...you left, not me...I…" he said, shaking his head. I wanted to believe him but I found it hard. He left me in that hospital with no looking back. I wanted him to be there, to whisper to me that he wanted me to stay and be with him. But he didn't want me

"S...stop denying it...you are not allowed to touch me...unless you mean what you feel.."this is what I dreamed of, not just for him to be attracted to my body but I wanted him to give our relationship a name, my only wish "I want something straight from your heart...I want you to feel not just my body...but touch my soul with your caresses...with all of you"the words left my lips as my eyes closed. His hot breath was caressing my skin sending a sensation through my body and when I opened my eyes I found him staring at me. He didn't say anything and when I saw how hesitant he was. I finally knew he had nothing to offer. I slowly and gently pushed him away with so much force that he got off me and the chance I got. I climbed off the bed feeling hurt again. He had stumbled to the sides and when I glanced back. I found him rooted in one place staring at the floor. It wasn't so dark in the room despite the heavy curtains blocking the afternoon light. I guessed this room wasn't used that often but seeing him. I adjusted my clothes and managed to turn the knob and walked out of that room. My heart was heavy, if only he knew what he meant to me then he would understand that surviving without him was impossible. As much as I wanted to be with him. I just couldn't do it with him not clear with his feelings

He was everything I ever wanted in a man. If I were to conceptualize a list of ten desired qualities in a man, he would score eleven out of ten. He was my other half, this uncomprehendingly wonderful being that fulfilled my life, so much so that I sometimes doubted his existence and thought that I had contrived him in a dream.

He inspired me and challenged me and I wished he loved me just as I was: quirks, flaws and all. He touched my soul so deeply that I was completely vulnerable to his grasp, which was always tender and caring. He taught me what it felt like to truly love someone down to your core, this I learned in just nine months of living with him. what it felt like to constantly live with a burning desire, so strong that it pains you, and he showed me the perpetually engulfing warmth of deep, flaming, impassioned, mad love, I loved every element of his soul

"Let...let me go big jerk...how dare you!"The sound of Alexis's angry voice coming from the doctor's office brought me back to reality, noticing that I had already reached doctor Maverick's office. I grew alert as I took to my eyes and heard more shouting and breaking of things

"You damned perverted doctor will pay for this...you are so shameless...you disgust me!"I heard when I pushed the door open and gasped when I found so many things on the floor. Alexis was standing by the door in a loose blue hospital gown and nothing inside. I looked up and saw doctor Maverick standing away from him with a blank shocked expression

"W...what's going on...Alex, what's all this?"I asked and grabbed her hand, stopping her from embarrassing me in front of the doctor. She was calling him vile names and pointing fingers at him

"No Vivienne...this unprofessional doctor doesn't deserve to be a doctor...he's a shameless man...a good for nothing!"Alexis shouted as she shrugged me away and nearly pounced on the poor doctor but I was quick to grab her hand and pulled her back. I've never seen Alexis so angry before.

"Doc what happened to her…"I asked looking at doctor Maverick while I struggled to keep control of Alexis. She was a raging bull and I feared she would murder the doctor in such a state

"Please calm her down...I was at fault and…"

"Keep quiet!"Alexis cut him off and growled so loud that I was startled by the sound of her roaring. The doctor felt it too because he seemed scared which was unlike him

"For now wait for me you jerk...I'll come back for you and I'll sue you for sexual harassment!"Alex snarled one more time before she shoved me away, grabbed her purse from the floor, and stormed out of the room leaving me standing there

"I'm...I'm so sorry doctor about her...she can be a pain in the neck sometimes...I'll see you later let me talk to her, "I said as quickly as possible and rushed out of the room going after Alexis who was completely naked. She didn't take her clothes and I wondered what happened to her to overreact

When the two women left, Maverick who was in shock, soon regained his wits. A minute ago he was checking on the lady making sure she was okay then later she woke up and started calling him names. By the look of things she wasn't in pain like before

"Trouble" he muttered, running his hands in his hair exhaling, and scanning his scattered office. He glanced at the bed and found the lady's clothes there. He was about to touch her clothes when the door opened Sterling him as he withdrew his hand only for Victor to walk in looking as if he just got rejected

"Any appointments... because I think I'm gonna need some company, "Victor said helplessly and Maverick arched his eyebrows at him, narrowing his eyes at the man. What happened to him? He didn't look so good

"Sure... should I start with checking your heart for any damages?"Maverick asked mockingly while getting his stethoscope but Victor was too distracted scanning the messy room

"Did you happen to fuck someone here?"Victor asked arching his brows at Maverick and Maverick frowned at him and tossed the stethoscope away

"Mind the language...and I don't do that in my office...I prefer a more suitable environment for my deeds"Maverick replied with a smile and Victor rolled his eyes in annoyance and walked to the desk and pulled out a chair and sat down

"Did you see who left?"Maverick asked after some time as he walked toward Victor but the man didn't look so good

"No…I saw Crawley's daughter here... Ms. Payton brought her for checkups "Victor said more seriously while he played with the pens on the table and Maverick's eyes narrowed in confusion

"The little girl? you mean…?"

"How many of his daughters do you know?"Victor arched his brows angrily and Maverick cursed multiple times as he ran his hand in his hair. Of course, he screwed up again

"Did you do anything unpleasant?"Victor asked frowning but Maverick just looked at him with a blank expression

"You mean the little girl isn't little anymore...but a full-grown beautiful woman?"Maverick asked as if not believing who he just disrespected or said so many nasty things to.

Damn he was ruined, why now of all times did it have to be the little girl

"Take a chill pill," Victor remarked getting up and Maverick scoffed while he took off his coat

"Wait for me...we both need that, "he said and followed Victor out of the office knowing they both needed some time off.