Chapter 98: Chapter 98

I didn't ask because I didn't care; I didn't ask because he'd say the same thing: he's tired from work, there's a problem, or worse, he just doesn't want to talk.I also don't understand why Dred doesn't want to tell me what the worst is. I'm not someone else, so he can keep a secret, but I must respect his boundaries even if they were causing me to have overthinking moments every night, especially when I woke up and he wasn't on my side.

"I think Dred has someone else other than you," Karla said.

We were at the Moonbucks and I decided to talk to them because it was really suffocating. Dred doesn't come home when I'm around, and it's been too much for me to handle, and when I was touching him or being affectionate, he was always turning me down. It hurts even more because in a few days he'll be gone here and will be returning to the States.

"Slow down, girl. Don't jump to conclusions just yet. And we're not sure if Dred's really like that, you know. Alessia's just going through something. " Clarize said as she sipped her grande iced coffee.

"Are you blind, Clarize?"

"Not affectionate, keeps problems, and is never found."

"What is he, a silly teenager who can just leave whenever he pleases?" Karla asked.

"Now, now. Perhaps he just has a problem that he isn't ready to share with me right now. " They both looked at me in disbelief as I said this.

I know they're right, that maybe that's what's going on, and I was just, like, blinding myself and not believing any signs that came to mind because I didn't want to lead myself astray. I know Dred isn't that kind of person.

"You know, I think I'd rather have you in Blade's hands than Dred's." Karla said, and I was shocked.

"Don't you know what I went through when I was with Blade, Karla?"

"I know, but even if you have a problem, you look more like yourself." She said, but I could not understand.

"This time you're married to Dred. You sort of gave your all to the point that there's nothing left for you. "

"Yes, I get it; Blade made you feel bad, but at least you loved yourself more than you loved Blade." Karla, and I was looking at her confused.

"What Karla is trying to say is, you loved Dred so much and even drained yourself, but when you're with Blade, you can get some time spent with us, with yourself." said Clarize.

"Am I like that? Now? "

I asked myself, and then there was a time when I would stay at home or take my work from work just to spend time with Dred; at times, I decided to make him my home, my world, my everything. But I don't know that honoring him this much would make me lose myself, but how can I be such a fool? I'm not blaming him because most of the time it took to make that happen was mine, my idea, and I'm the one to blame for it.

I took my mirror out of my purse and was looking at it. I saw how tired I was, lifeless and even drained. Then a tear started to roll down my cheek. I didn't want to cry, but when I looked in the mirror, something had changed, and I was to blame.

"I told you not to tell her anything. She's been on edge since the day she got here!" Clarize shouted at Karla. Then, Clarize went to my chair as well to calm me.

And Karla was just looking at Alessia with all her concern. Karla can't just seem to control what she wants to say because she really cares for her friend that much.

"I-I-I'm sorry, Alessia." Karla stated quietly.

And then I decided to calm myself by staring at them. I'm not sure what's going on with Dred, but I'm going to wait for him until he's comfortable telling me everything.

"It's okay, you guys are right." I said while sobbing.

"I focused on Dred and forgot about my family, you guys...."

"and myself." I told them

"But please don’t blame Dred," I told them.

"And why shouldn't we? Don't be stupid, Alessia!"

"Tsk," Carize said to tell Karla to keep quiet, and Karla just glared at her.

"What did I do?"

"I was to blame for everything I've done." I told them

And we all stayed silent, as if someone had already taken our voices away.

"But come on! I was here to see you guys. Not to cry myself out! " I told them and I started giggling. Clarize had gone to her proper seat, and Karla was leaning against me.

"You're our friend, Alessia. We're always here for you!" Clarize

"Even if you've forgotten to contact us when you got back here, and the lady that you had a partnership with on a business was the one who invited us to that event!" Karla said

"Yeah! You've changed so much, Alessia! " Clarize said.

I just giggled and all, but I was feeling guilty as they were laughing at me. They had helped me so much since the day we met, and they hadn't changed. When we were in seventh grade, I was keeping my secret that I was wealthy because I was looking for a friend who would make me friends, not because I was wealthy or knew our family, and then they came. I acted like I didn't have money for lunch, and they provided me with one, but I also returned anonymously.

Some friends ended when the high school years ended, but I'm glad I'm still with them now. I took a deep breath and looked at them.

"I'm sorry, okay? I didn't realize that would happen and I was afraid you wouldn't like the idea----"

I was stopped when Karla suddenly placed her hand on my mouth, and I was confused looking at her.

"I saw Dred enter the mall," said Karla, and I turned to see that it was really him and he was dressed so well, my heart started to skip a beat.

"And this doesn't look like the office." Clarize added, but I stood up and they both looked at me.

"I need to go"

"You are not going anywhere." Karla said.

"We should follow him, and that should be the claim to your theory or ours that he really doesn't have a woman."

"Or he really has one." Karla said as she smirked.