Chapter 87: Chapter 87

Dred's POV

The call ended, and I didn’t know how I could sleep, especially since I was worried about her. I also can't understand myself since we came back here. I'm more worried about myself than what Alessia and I will be in our future situation. I grab a whiskey and drink it while looking in every corner of the room where I am.

And it was as if I was crying for no reason, while remembering everything we did in this room. I was about to smile and suddenly lost it when I remembered what happened.

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I entered a dark place, and many people were having fun; many were sleeping, and many were just drinking. I looked for where my purpose was, so I went there and when I found him, I approached him with my right hand placed in my pocket., and I wished it was a worthwhile reason for me to leave Alessia's house, even though she was feeling something. Yes, it should be worth it since I will meet her ex-husband.

"What do you want?" That's the first sentence I said to him.

And then the one with him got up to leave for us to have a private talk, and I was just looking at Blade.

"How are you?" he asked me.

And I smirked, "If that's what you wanted to ask me, you should've just told me on the phone." I told him

And he laughed out loud like a mad man.

"Tough! Very tough!" he said to me.

And then he started crying, and I was just looking at him and thought that he must have been really drunk, so he was crying.

"I told you..."

"To take care of her, but why did she become your wife?"

He said this to me while crying, and I just scoffed. Is this guy for real? Did he really love his ex-wife? Is he thinking or is he just stupid?

"There's nothing we've talked about that you're going to build a relationship or a marriage without my knowledge. That's not the whole plan, Dred." He said to me

And then I sat in front of him, and I just looked at him because he was so selfish that he didn't think about what he was saying.

"I don't know if you can hear yourself, but I thought you were smarter than this. "

"You're so selfish, Blade, keeping someone even if you're having a child." I told him

"What do you know? You're out of what Alessia and I went through, and what we have was real. "

"Real? If it's true, why didn't you find out if your child was the one your wife brought to you that day? Why didn't you fight for what you and Alessia have? "

"In all truth, you're a fake."

And he was just staring at me when he suddenly touched the collar of my shirt, and I didn't flinch. I didn't say anything that wasn't true, because I knew everything.

"How do you know Kycine was pregnant back then?" He said, and I smirked. I removed his grip on me and leaned myself on the sofa I was sitting on.

I don’t know if it’s right for me to tell him what I know, but I’m thinking too. I want to be selfish. I also want to be selfish. Let's just say I told him what I knew. How will it benefit me? Or what will happen to Alessia and I?

"Let's talk when you're sober." I told him this before leaving him in his seat, but not before.

"If you'll remember this, find me Blade. If you want to know everything, "

Then I went out of the bar. I don't know, but my chest suddenly got heavier, hoping that he would not remember and, while driving, I just accelerated so I could go home immediately.

I saw that he ate somehow, and everything he used was no longer in the sink and was already in the right containers. I entered our room to see my wife sleeping, so tired and crying.

Then I stroked her hair and looked at her intensely, how beautiful, cheerful and caring she is.

Then I sighed deeply and sat beside her.

Is it okay if I treat you like my own too? Like a toy I had as a child and wouldn't want to share it with everyone?

"Would I be selfish as well?"

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It's still heavy inside me when I think it's like I just borrowed what we have and the day will come when she'll be taken from me, but I can make that choice whether to tell Blade the truth or choose to live a happy life with Alessia and just mind our own business. I took a deep breath and put the glass I was using on the sink to rest and planned to go to bed, but my conscience still wouldn't let me sleep for some unknown reason, and I hate it so much.

I was about to walk towards our bed when I heard the door ring unlocked, and I turned around, and Alessia opened the door for me, and she ran towards me.

I felt her arms around my neck and legs on my waist, so I held it and caught my breath for no apparent reason, and then Alessia got down.

"What's wrong, Hun?" She asked me, and his smiling expression changed to a sad one.

And I didn't know that I was crying. By chance, I cried out loud in the arms of the person I love because of mixed emotions: fear of being abandoned; fear that if I tell her ex-husband the truth, he will crawl back to Alessia; and worst of all, fear of being selfish, even if she isn't for me to begin with.

We stayed like that and she didn't say anything to me and was just hugging me. Alessia was caressing my back. When I was pretty okay and also felt ashamed, I separated from her body that hugged me.

"I'm sorry, it's just that I'm not used to not having you, around." I said softly to her, and she smiled faintly.

"I'm here now, so you don't have to be afraid because I won't leave you," he said to me.

And I wasn't confident enough. I didn't know why. I was still thinking of that question I had before we got married.

Was she really real to me? Or just using me to forget everything that she solemnly remembers.

On the other hand, Dred received a message.

"I remember everything. Would you mind meeting me as early as possible? -Blade. "