Chapter 26: Chapter 26

Blade’s POV

I went down and went straight to the kitchen to turn on the stove and heat water for me to use. I found a face towel and put it in the bowl with half cold and half hot water to make lukewarm water.

I entered the room trying not to make a noise, and when I entered, I laid down on the table placed on the side of the bed what I carried and looked at the girl who was lying at the bed. I squeezed the towel and wiped her face, neck, hands, and feet. As I looked at her, I couldn't help but think that she was indeed beautiful. And then removed her hair that was placed on her face.

And lean closer for a kiss. As my heart quickens this time, I move away from her and realize that the more I get involved with her, my feelings grow. I don’t have any good intentions in this contractual marriage. I promise myself that as soon as I get out of the mess I’ve created and clean my tarnished name, I will definitely cut this set-up as soon as possible to marry Kycine.

But as I look at her again as I take a step back and realize that I’m certain that she’s someone that will make this heart throb, ache, and jump with joy. I’m not sure if this is just a mere infatuation, but I’m really sure that she’s the one I want.

I was leaving when she suddenly grabbed my hand. I don't think she was half asleep. She was sleeping soundly, but I just sat next to her and didn't know what to do as drowsiness was starting to visit me. I didn't realize I’ve fallen asleep too.

Alessia’s POV

I woke up and noticed I was in someone's arms, but I didn't look who it is. I saw I was in the room, and my eyes widened when I saw who was next to me and stood up.

"What are you doing here?" I shouted at him because I was surprised.

"Can you volume down your voice it’s still morning? And you're screaming." Blade said

He said and covered his head with a pillow. I was annoyed. I still wanted to sleep, but where? He’s in bed. I don’t know what makes me angry, but he’s not making this easy for both of us. I took a pillow and went to the sofa. To lie down, I hugged the pillow and I was surprised that someone tapped me, but I ignored it.

"I'm sorry. You can have your bed now." He says

And I heard the door close and turned on my phone to look at the time and it was already 10 am. I counted on my finger how many hours I slept and I thought I was still missing an hour of sleep, but I knew it would be a bit difficult for me to sleep again, so I just thought of taking a shower.

When Blade walked in, I was already half naked, and my lust hit me. I want to feel it with him again, but I can't do this, especially if he's seeing someone. I turned my back on him as I covered my chest and heard the door close, so I knew he was out. I released the cover of my chest so that I can go in the closet room. I turned to see a man standing opposite the door.

He was walking towards me, but I did nothing but just stare at him with no strength to cover my exposed boobs. I could not and he held my nape, the hold that I’ve been missing. He approached me with a kiss and I returned it to him.

We sat on the bed and he made me lay myself on the bed, but I didn't know what to do. I just returned his kisses, even it’s against my will. Is this still part of the contract even though someone can provide it for him now that they are together? Tears started to roll down from my eyes. I was scared. If I were in Blade's relationship, I would have felt bad, especially since I found out that he had been doing this with someone else instead of me.

I felt Blade’s warmth was taken away from me, and I stand up and sat in bed, and I didn’t know what to say.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to — " He told me I looked at him while messing up his hair, looking all frustrated.

"It's okay." I said, but I never looked at him again.

I went inside the comfort room and locked the door. I opened the faucet for it to fill the tub. I didn’t even bother if it was lukewarm water or just cold. As I seated myself in the toilet bowl, I began crying. I felt guilty because for a second right there, I might have done it again with Blade and I was sorry to Kycine. I didn’t mean too.

I cried and rather than look at myself as pathetic for letting that happen, I felt disappointed in myself and started to soak myself in this cold bath, but there was no blade for me. While I was lying on the tab, I couldn't help but think when I would be happy permanently. And why do I always have the urge to put people before myself? I did nothing but cry and cry, guilty of doing that and broken because It didn’t continue. I’m torn, but I think I did a great job of doing the right thing.

I don’t know if I’m going to stay here, because it doesn’t feel like home. I also don’t want to go to my Villa because it will bring back memories. I need to sell that. I don’t want to go there ever again. I don't know but Dred came out of my mind. I don't know but I knew he would love it because he likes the sight as well.

Even though I was preoccupied yesterday, I knew how he looked at the beauty of the moon and how it reflected its light on the sea. I keep my eyes shut and deal with everything later as I soak myself along with the desire to finish it all.

This situation happened 3 days ago, but the ache feels like I’ve been with it for like, eternity.

It’s so draining.

I don’t like it here.