Chapter 98: Chapter 98

Kiara POV

It's been a month since I got discharged. I can't say that I'm completely fine but Zam said that I just avoided things that could remind me of the darkness I went through so that my life could somehow be normal. And another thing is that I have counseling once a month.

Ever since I got home, there hasn't been a day that hasn't ruined my mood because of Nigel, he is often at home and sometimes he even uses our son just to talk to me. Almost every day he brings flowers and gifts but is not accepting them. If it was possible not to let him in, I would have done it. I have pushed him away several times but he seems determined to get my forgiveness.

Sometimes I also feel sorry for him but I don't show it. Maybe my brother and Bea are right that I still have a love for Nigel, but I can't trust him again. With what I've experienced, it's hard to trust the same person again. I can't give up that quickly. Yes, I know it wasn't his fault that I got traumatized, he also didn't want me to get hurt. I also found out what he went through since he found out I left. He almost neglected himself and their company, and he tried to find me but my brother blocked everything he paid. He didn't give up looking for me, he spent years.

We are both victims, we both experience how cruel the world is.

I dismissed my thoughts because I had to be brave in front of him. And since it was noon, I decided to go downstairs because I'm the only one in the house right now because my brother left with Bea and Chase.

When I got down, I saw the face of the person I hated again. "What are you doing here? Chase isn't here." I said to him,

He immediately looked at me and smiled. "I know that Chase is not here,"

I raised my eyebrows because of his answer. "Brother is not here either because they left," I said.

"I know, Storm also told me when I called him earlier."

"You already know, so why are you still here? You can leave." I cursed and then walked to the kitchen but the grass followed me.

"Kiara, I'm here because of you,"

"You think I care? I've told you so many times that you won't get anything from me Nigel so just stop. You're better off giving Chase your full attention." I said.

"And I also told you several times that I have no intention of giving up on you. No matter how much you push back, that will not be a reason for me to leave you,"

I was so grateful because of what he said. He was right for almost a month. I didn't talk to him properly and I also often pushed him away but he seemed serious about what he said and that he would do everything just to make me forgive him. "If you say so, that's your life. But remember this, I won't come back to you no matter what you do. It's okay to be desperate once, I won't allow it to happen again. I'm not stupid. Soon you'll get tired," I said emphatically.

He grinned at me. "I know you still love me, Kiara, you just hate me that's why you're like that. And I will never get tired of you, I've been chasing me for almost a month but that won't be the reason for me to give up. I'll do everything just to return your love,"

"I guess you're too confident? I didn't know that you're a fortune teller too. I wish you had guessed how much pain you inflicted on me, right? Sorry to say this but I don't love you anymore Nigel. I'm done being a fool. I won't allow myself to be broken again,"

He sighed. "No matter what you say to me, Kiara, I will accept it. I know I can't take away the pain I gave you and I can't bring back the past but I can still fix everything including our family. I don't believe that you don't love me anymore, why did you respond to my kiss last time?"

I remembered what happened one day. "Oh really? Because I responded to your kiss last time, that's why you're thinking that I'm still into you? Don't make fun of me Nigel, I can kiss anyone whenever I want." I said smiling.

"You can't do that."

"Oh really? Who said that? Maybe you're forgetting the reason why we broke up? You saw my pictures of kissing and making out with someone right? And you even think that I had sex with another man." I mocked him.

"Why are you trying to send those things back? That's in the past Kiara!"

"Why, Nigel? It's just those things that caused all of this. The things that ruined everything!" I said.

"Stop it, Kiara, please, stop saying nonsense. How many times do I have to tell you that I regret that thing? Yes, I know that I was very stupid at that time but I know that we can't go back to that, because if it's possible, I'll do it. That's why I'm here to make up for it. I accept all your anger towards me, all your torture and banishment.,"

"It's easy to tell you that because you didn't experience what I went through, you weren't the one who was hurt and suffered!" I shouted.

"You think I'm not hurt? Do you think I'm okay with everything I did to you during those times? Ki, every time I see you cry because of me, for all the hurtful things I said to you brings me double pain. I haven't been in your situation but my life has also been miserable. We've been through different things these past years but we've both struggled, suffered, and been hurt,"

"Say whatever you want because I don't care, it's your choice why you're hurt because it's your decision but me? I never want to end up in that situation. So don't expect too much because maybe, in the end, you'll end up being miserable again. As I told you, what we have is over for a long time so I will do what I want." I said.

"You think I'll allow it? Do you think someone else can touch you? Dream on!"

"Are you mad already? I'm just telling the truth because now you know and I told you instead of hiding it, right? I can kiss anyone, I can fuck anyone." I said, let's see how long your patience lasts, Nigel.

"Really? So, you are saying I can also fuck you?"

I want to slap him for what he said but I can't. I resented him. "Why not? I know how you love my body Nigel, you're craving for it, right? Why not become my fuck buddy then? Isn't it interesting? We can satisfy our needs." I said, I saw the clenching of his fist which was holding me back for a while.

"Oh, why are you so quiet? Hmm. I guess it's not my body you're looking for anymore. I forgot how many years I've been gone, so I won't be surprised how many women you've had sex with." I continue to annoy him.

"Do you think I'm making sex a hobby? You're so judgmental, Princess Kiara,"

I pretended to cover my mouth with my hand. "Oh my bad, what do you want me to think? That you're like a saint who doesn't look for something to warm your body or make you cum? You don't need to deny it to me, Nigel. I know you guys have needs too. Don't worry, no matter how many women you sleep with, there's no case against me, we can still use each other anytime we want right? Don't worry, I'm still the old Kiara who can turn you on." I bit my lip to make him cringe even more.

"Shut the fuck up Kiara!" he shouted.

"Then make me shut up Nigel, why are you holding back? You're already turned on. I already give you a favor, you can touch me, you can savor me, you can use me. But if you don't want to, it's fine too. I can have another guy if I want and --." I didn't finish what I was going to say when he suddenly pressed me with a kiss, my eyes almost widened due to shock. I don't know what's going on with my body that I can't even push him. My body is betraying me!