Chapter 18: Chapter 18

Storm POV

I didn't expect to see Bea in front of my unit, I had no intention of opening the door to whoever was knocking because I knew it wasn't my sister or Nigel because they knew the passcode of this unit.

But that person didn't seem to have any plans to stop knocking so I got up and opened the door. I saw her about to leave so I spoke to let her know I was behind her.

"So what do you want to say now? Time is running out." I said.

"I just want to apologize for what I said earlier," she answered.

"Is that so? You came here just to say that useless thing?" I promise.

"I-I know you're mad at me for mentioning your parents and I know it's wrong that's why I came here,"

"If that's all you wanted to say, you can leave now," I said.

"Storm, I know you're going through something, I'm ready to listen if you need someone to talk to. Those alcoholics won't help you,"

"And who are you to tell me that thing? If I need someone to talk to, my sister and Nigel are there. I don't need anyone else," I said.

"I know that Sir, all I want to say is sometimes it's better if you open up to people you don't know because they won't judge you,"

I laughed because of what she said. "Are you seriously saying those things to me, Bea? I don't know whether to laugh or be insulted. Do you hear yourself? Aren't you also the one who said things about me and my parents right? Just in case you forgot. You're also one of those people who don't know anything but are quick to judge." I mocked her.

I saw her bow down because of what I said but I have no intention of taking that thing back.

"I know the mistake I made that's why I'm here to apologize to you. I hope you also know your mistakes and learn to accept them. Not everyone will adjust for you." she said calmly.

"I don't care! I don't need other people in my life, my sister is all I need. And one more thing I didn't ask them to adjust to me because this is my life." I said.

"Storm-"

"Get out!" I yelled at her and cut off whatever she was going to say. I don't want to hear anything she has to say.

"Why are you so mean? For once Storm learns to listen!"

"Do you think I want this?  Do you think I wanted to be like this? No Bea! No! If I had a choice I would not choose to feel this pain, to be hurt like this. If only I could ask God to take away the pain I feel I will! Because I don't want to live in the darkest past!"

"Y-you don't know what I went through Bea, you don't know how it feels to lose your parents! Y-you still have your mom but our parents both died at the same time. Y-you don't know how painful it is for me at a young age to buy a coffin and bury them."

"It's been how many years since they're gone but I'm still mourning and longing for their presence. I miss them every single day, every hour, and every minute. I may be a bad and harsh person but I'm still human and I have feelings and most of all I can still feel pain."

"W-when they were gone half of me was also gone. W-when they died I felt like I died too, I want to end my life so that I can be with them again but I can't! I still have my sister, I can't leave and neglect her because that's my promise to my parents,"

"Y-you don't know what I feel Bea because you're not in the position I was in. Y-you don't know the feeling that you get used to with them, n-that you're a complete family but in an instant, you'll just wake up that they are no longer in your life."

"I-I will accept the bad things you throw at me but I will not allow anyone to involve and disrespect my parents. They are the best people in my life and I admire them the most. My m-mom is my first love and my ideal woman and my d-dad is my hero, both of them are my greatest heartache and downfall."

"Many people say that Kiara inherited from Mom and I from Dad and I'm proud of it, that's why those who know them or their friends, miss them less every time they're with us because they feel like they see our parents through our presence and it hurts me more because every time I look in the mirror I see Dad's face on me and I see Mom's face on Kiara, you don't know how hard it is for me,"

"Y-you don't know what I've been through since then and until now, Bea. If I'm bad in your eyes, I don't care because you haven't experienced what I've experienced. I'm smiling but deep inside I'm dying. I will never be complete Bea. The scars from the past are still here and keep haunting me. If only I could shout to the world how much pain I feel, I will. If you think I'm strong in front of you, you're wrong, because there are days and times when I want to give up and follow my parents, I want to end my life so I don't feel pain anymore! Because the truth is that I'm broken!"

After I said those words to her, I fell on the floor while crying. I feel like I'm so out of it these days because of the pain I've been harboring for the past few years.