Chapter 46: Chapter 46

PHOEBE'S POV

"Hey Phoebe wake up"I heard jax's voice as I woke up, meeting him kneeling on the floor, facing me

"I wasn't sleeping"I said sleepyly as I sat upright on the bed

"Okay"he said as he got up and headed to the couch,he was all dressed up already, his hair wasn't neatly packed tho

"Hey,your hair isn't neatly packed"I said as I walked towards him

"Okay so?"he asked,I didn't say anything as I moved between his legs standing,he moved closer as I packed his hair,I was expecting him to wrap his hands around my waist but he didn't do so.

"Here you go"I said as I was done

"Thanks"he told me not smiling

"Um, I'll be taking the twins out soon,are you coming?"I asked sitting on the bed

"No"he answered,no?

"Why"I asked

"Nothing"he said getting busy with his phone

"Please come"I pleaded

"I said no okay"he insisted

"Alright"I said moodly,I wonder why he's behaving this way tho

"I already ordered your outfit and undies"he told me,I half smiled,he ordered my undies

"When you're done dressing,lyon is ready to take you"he said not smiling

"Okay thanks"he said and got up, walking out

"Jax's not always like this"I said pouting as I got up to the bathroom taking my bath and as soon as I was done,I walked back in to the room with a towel,when Mark's call came in

"Hey Mark"i greeted as I lotioned my body

"I'm good,the kids are ready"he told me

"Okay, I'll be right there with jax's driver soon"I told him

"Alright then, we'll wait for you"he said and hung up to wear what Jax bought me,when I opened to see a long white buttoned short sleeve gown.

"Hmm,not bad"i said as I wore it,it was too simple tho.

He walked in while I was packing my hair,he didn't even bother approaching me to kiss me,touch me or even comment on what I was wearing.

"Lyon's ready"he told me

"I'm ready too"I said as I was done rubbing my nude lipstick

"I'm leaving"I said taking my cross bag

"Alright'he said not looking at me,not even a goodbye kiss.i sighed and walked out.

It's a good thing no paparazzi was around.

"Morning Mrs Hughes"Lyon greeted as I walked in

"Yeah"I smiled

"We're heading to Mark's place"I said showing him the address

"Alright ma'am"he smiled,I was starting to miss Jax,I hope he misses me too

X. X. X. X

"Aunt Phoebe"the twins jumped on me as I walked in the house

"Hey guysss"I giggled as I hugged them

"You're pretty"I heard mark commented from behind,I stood upright smiling at him,it should have come from Jax tho

"Thanks"I appreciated

"Aunt Phoebe,tell Mark not to come Along"Clair frowned

"Yes! he'd ruin it"Blair supported,I laughed.

"Alright, Mark's not gonna come along okay, it's just the twins and I"I assured them

"Yaaay"they said excitedly, mark smiled

"You'd make a great mum"mark told me,I smiled

"Well,you can say that again"I said

"How's your mum?"I asked as the twins signaled me to hurry up

"She's all good,she's gone to work"he smiled at me

"Okay"Clair cuts in

"Aunt Phoebe,let's go"he said pulling my hands

"Mark,I gotta go"I chuckled as I carried Clair and walked Blair outside as we walked in the car, sitting at the back seat.Mark Waved to us a bye bye,I waved back

"Guys,meet lyon okay"I introduced

"Lyon,meet Clair and Blair, Mark's cousin"I added

"Hello Lyon"they chorused as he drove off

"Hey guys"Lyon greeted back,after then,the boys were quiet.i was expecting jax's call,he didn't call.

It was Kay

"Hey Kay"I greeted

"Baby,jade just put to birth safely"he told me

"Woah,woah, congrats Kay, I'm happy for you,gender?"I asked

"A baby girl"he said

"Wow,that's great,well um,I think I'll come see her tomorrow okay"I told him

"Why?cause dad and mum is here,Lucy is here,Samuel,Zayn, Emma, emmanuel, almost everyone is here,the press too"he told me,the press,yishhh

"I'm taking the twins out okay,I promise, tomorrow"I assured him

"Alright, thanks darling"

"Bye"he added and hung up

"Aunt phoebe,jade out to bed?"Blair asked

"Yes Blair,a baby girl"I smiled to him

"I hope she's cute"Clair smiled, I laughed

"Of course she is"I told him

"Aunt Phoebe,then I'd get married to her in the future"he smiled

"Your wish Clair"I laughed

"We'll go see her tomorrow'i told them

"Yaaay, we're here'blair screamed as we all got down

"Hey guys,be careful,if you need anything let me know or let Lyon know,okay"I told them

"Yes aunt Phoebe"they both chorused as Clair ran away to have fun

"Would you join us?"Blair asked

"Yes of course,now go join Clair"I said as he did so.

We were in the city most popular game reserved park,I just strolled around,at same time, avoiding attention from fans.i found a comfortable place to sit, thinking about my condition,I haven't been having attacks for some weeks now,I decided to call the doctor

"Hello doctor"I greeted

"Hello Miss phoebe,are you fine?"he asked

"Um,well for now,I think,cause I haven't been having attacks,for over a month now,even I tried using spray mistakenly or intentionally, I'd still be fine,so can I stop my pills"I asked him

"Well miss Phoebe, wouldn't say you should stop.though it must have stopped for some while now, probably cause of change in the system or change in environment or something but it might come back after child birth that's one,two,it might get transferred to your child and leaves you or you both have it,three,that's dangerous,it might occur during childbirth due to suffocation and difficulties in breathing and might lead to death and luckily for you,you might deliver safely without any stress,you might be free of asthma,so as your child,so I'd advise not to stop taking the pills,have told you the possible things that could happen"he explained

This really got me,as tears dropped,I don't want any harm on my child,I don't want my child to be asthamatic like I am.i don't wanna die during childbirth,I don't want my child too either.now I was afraid of getting pregnant,I was tempted to be on contraceptive pills, I'm scared.

"Oh,thanks doctor"I thanked him

'yeah bye"he said and hung up

"Aunt Phoebe"I heard the twins chorus my name as I quickly clean away my tears

"Don't cry okay"Clair said holding my hands

"No,what,I wasn't crying okay"I told them as I faked smiling

"You're crying cause uncle jax's not here?"Clair asked

"Clair,I wasn't crying and Jax couldn't make it cause he's so busy,alot is on him,that's why okay"I convinced them

"Okay"they chorused smiling at me

"Let's go play, okay,come on,get up"they said respectively as they pulled me up, dragging me to their game spot,as we all enjoyed the moments,danced,ate and took pictures.

X. X. X. X

I was really tired as I walked in the house.after lyon dropped the twins before dropping me.it was late already.

Mum and dad were not around,they were with Jade in the hospital.

i checked my phone before walking into the bathroom,no sign of Jax,no calls,no messages.he really was avoiding me.

As soon as I was done in the bathroom, wearing a comfortable tube top with shorts,I received a text from Jax.

*I'm outside waiting,let's go*

Eh? he's around? tonight?where was he taking me too again.i arranged few things and headed downstairs, meeting him in his car

"Hey"I greeted normally not smiling as I walked in,he didn't reply as he drove

"Hmm"I hmmed,I didn't mind

"Where are you taking me too"I asked, looking at him

"My house"he replied not glancing at me,his house?I don't wanna go,he wouldn't even talk to me or touch me or give me attention.so what's the need,I frowned

"But Jax"he cuts in

"You're sleeping over at my house, period"he said sternly,why was he doing this to me.

As soon as we reached his house,he didn't say a word to me,even during the drive,does he even know how much I miss him?how much I miss his touch on me?

"Here,sleep in this room"he said directing me to the room,what?,

"Where are you gonna sleep"I asked

"Opposite your room"he answered

"I want to sleep with you"I insisted

"No"he said

"Jax,whats the meaning of this?"I asked

"The meaning of what"he asked looking at me

"You're avoiding me.you called me to your office but then refuse to talk to me or give me attention,you couldn't even text me or call me either,you just changed,what is wrong with you?I don't understand"I began

"You know,I hate this,I hate that you behave this way,it makes me sick,so sick,I can't help it.you refuse to kiss me,for God's sake,I miss you Jax,I missed your touch on me,you don't even look at me,it's not fair you know"I began to sobb.he sighed as he walked towards me holding my hands

"Babe"he called placing one hands on my cheeks, wiping my tears,I looked up at him

"Remember,when I fingered you, honestly,I,I hated that you felt that pain,I know it's normal and new to you,but I hated that you felt that way.um,you aren't the first girl I'd do that too and when I do it to them,I just do what I needed to do and then trash them away,I don't care how they feel,what pain they feel,I know it sounds stupid but it's the truth"he began

"But when I touched you that way,I didn't want it to be that way,it was your first time and you felt strange,you felt pains,so that's why I did really cared for you and really didn't want to get tempted touching you again,and not hurt you again,at least for the time being,that's why I did what I did"I could feel his hand get cold on my cheeks

"I'm sorry I avoided you,I didn't mean to,I crazily missed you,for fucking sake,I missed touching you,I was tempted all the time,even when I gave you all those not seductive clothes to.wear,I sighed my eyes into you whenever you're not aware,I missed you phoebe and I want you now"he told me staring at me

"I want you too"I told him as he slowing digested his lips into mine as he fought for dominance shoving his tongue into mine.i wrapped my hands around his neck as he wrapped his hands around my neck as he continued kissing me.

"Jump"he told me as u did so, wrapping my legs around his waist as he grabbed my ass, squeezing it so badly,I moaned in his mouth.

He carried me to his room,as he kissed me hungrily,he laid me in the bed, being on top of me, kissing me,I placed my hands on the Hem of his shirt, pulling it over his head,he was now shirtless, before I knew it too,he tore the tube top from my body,he shocked me

"I could get you thousands of them"he said as he sucked my neck,traced his lips to my jaw,then to my lips again,back to my neck,he came down to my clivage kissing it as he pulled away my shorts and panties, I was totally naked to him.

I moaned as he sucked on one of my tits and squeezed the other with his hands,for crying out,I was throbbing,I needed to be touched down there.

"Ja-x"he bit on my nipple,ke kissed me hungrily squeezing my boobs

"I missed you so much"he said as kissed me,still pressing and squeezing my boobs, playing with my nipples.

He gently moved down kissing my boobs down to my belly, opening my legs apart,I knew what he wanted to do, I bit my lips

"Fuck,you're so wet for me,babe"I heard him say,as he slowly digested his tongue on my clit, licking away my wetness

"Jaxx"I maoned his name,he did it again, holding on my butt cheek as I moaned his name, holding on to his hair.he digged his tongue into my center

"Ha!fuck!"i screamed, holding on to the bedsheet,he used his tongue, rocking in and out of me,he kept pounding and licking into me faster with his tongue

"Oh my God,Jax!"I screamed

"Don't cum"he ordered me,what!my eyes widened,he was driving me crazy

"Fuck Jax!"I moaned louder as he flickered my clit with tongue repeatedly and digged a finger into me,I bit my lips harder

"Oh fuck"I cried out,I loved it.he did both in unison

"Don't stop!"I told him,I moved faster as he digged another finger, rocking in and out of me,I was about losing it

"Fuck"I heard his say,he moved faster,I was gonna cum,he withdrawed his hands as slow as he could as I cummed,felt like both pain and pleasure but mostly pleasure

"Fuck"i heard him say again,he gently licked me clean as I grip on his hair

"Jax"I called to him panting.he kissed his way up to my lips,fuck!I could feel his hard on directly on me,damn,he felt really big.

He wouldn't wanna penetrate cause one he's still on his shorts and two,we were not gonna have sex till out wedding night.i was already so exhausted,he sucked on my neck, slowly as I moaned

"I know you can feel my length"he told me as he squeezed my tits,still kissing my neck

"Open up,wider"he ordered as I did so. I felt him pulled off his short,I looked at him in amaze

"Jax"I called to him for explaination

"It's fine babe"he assured me,I could faint looking as his length,so I rather did not look at it.he brought his length to my openings, massaging my clit,damnn,this felt so good,and he's so big

"Jaxx"I moaned his name as I kissed him preventing me from moaning louder,he was fucking hard as fuck.he really was holding on from penetrating

"I fucking love how I feel right now,I love how I feel on you"he said giving me kisses on my boobs,this guy is good!

After some minutes of massage,that felt so good,I couldn't help it,he stopped as he gave me a Finally kiss on my lips,wore back his shorts and fell to the bed, covering me up,as I wrapped my hands around him, placing my head on his chest,he placed a peck on my hair

"I could do further more,babe, I'm resisting the urge"he said,I laughed

"Babe"I warned

"I love you phoebe"he told me

"I love you more"I smiled

"You're sore?"he asked

"A little,but I'm fine okay"I smiled,he smiled back

"I love the way you scream my name"he told me,I smiled,looked up at me,gave him light kiss on his lips

"Can't wait to penetrate into you"he said,I pinched him

"That's hurt babe"he said babyishly

"If you want me to off my shorts,your wish is my command ma'am"he said,I chuckled,this guy is really something

"Shut up Jax"I smiled

"I'm eating you out tomorrow for breakfast, period"he told me,I chuckled

"Let's sleep babe"I told him

"I love you"I told him

"I love you more"he said as I dozed off.