Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Zaira's POV:

A mate is the most beautiful thing in the whole world, the best thing that can ever happen to you. He is your other half, the half that completely complements your soul. He will adore and love you like you can only dream.",

He was my mate, he would never reject me. Filled with renewed courage and hope, I smiled shyly at him.

"What's your name?" My pulse quickened as I waited for his answer. But she stayed away. His gaze still fixed on me and a face that showed no emotion whatsoever, he remained motionless.

I let out a small sigh. Maybe he just didn't feel like it at the moment? Or was he exhausted and tired? No wonder Zaira, he also killed all the pack members and then carried you all the way here because you fell asleep! I switched myself. Of course he had to be mad at me.

I had already given up hope of getting an answer from him tonight when his deep and cool voice gave me goosebumps.

"Aramis." his voice was covered with ice and his gaze wasn't heartwarming either. But that didn't bother me, just his name made my heart beat faster.

I whispered softly, testing out his name as he tracked the movement of my lips with his eyes. I immediately blushed.

"My name is Zaira" my lips curled into a small smile.

I felt his eyes drop to the ground and his hands clenched into fists. His tense muscles peeked out from beneath his tight-fitting black combat gear, and my gaze lingered on his incredible six-pack abs. Or was it an 8 pack? I wandered my eyes to his incredible arms with relish. Wow. Oh wow, that was a sight.

His biceps tensed and a sudden heat shot through my body.

His eyes darted in my direction. He had noticed my stare. I looked down at my hands in embarrassment as my head turned crimson. Luckily it was already dark, so at least he couldn't see my glowing head as well.

"I'm not staying here." before I even understood the meaning of this word, I was both confused and fascinated by his pronunciation. He pronounced them strangely, so slowly, as if he were carefully savoring each word. It sounded more like "I'm not staying here." He lengthened each vowel with relish. I wondered why I hadn't noticed this before? Most likely I was just too exhausted and drained.

"Tomorrow I will go away."

Without thinking, I answered him promptly. "I'll come with you." It came naturally to me. He was my mate and nothing in the world would separate us.

Or?

"No." his icy voice cut through the silence and I froze. My breath caught as I tried to process his answer.

"W- What?" I stuttered.

"You won't be accompanying me," he showed no sign of interfering or even caring as every muscle in my body tensed.

"But of course I will, I'm your mate." I was so confused that I forgot any shyness, so my voice was steady.

He was my mate, I had to accompany him! How could he say such a thing?

An annoyed snort escaped him and I had the feeling that the temperature would drop even further. Shivering from the cold, I wrapped the blanket even tighter around my body.

"No you will not." he didn't raise his voice, but the cold in it was worse. "We will go our separate ways from tomorrow, forever."

I felt like the ground was being pulled out from under my feet. My pulse began to race and my hands clenched.

"But..." my voice cracked. "But we're mates..." I looked into his eyes. For a brief moment I had the feeling that I read pain in it, but that moment passed as quickly as it came. I must have imagined it, because his green eyes now reflected only an infinite emptiness.

"Oh, and you really thought I'd want you for a mate?" He gave a bitter laugh, but without a hint of humor.

I felt as if he had hit me in the face with full force. My hands started shaking and my wolf whimpered in pain.

"I..." my voice trailed off into nothingness.

"Oh you- you thought just because I saved you I would want to spend my life with you?" He leaned forward and rested his elbows on his knees. There was something dangerous about his gaze. Like the wolf inside him was just beneath the surface, ready to attack. "You were wrong, little wolf. You would just be another burden for me and I can do without that."

"I won't be a burden to you again, I swear." my voice didn't sound as steady as I would have liked. She trembled and sounded pleading. I couldn't lose my mate. Not since I had only just found him! No, that shouldn't happen!

As my mind raced, I tried to figure out a way to convince him that I was worthy of being his mate. I knew I wasn't too good for anything, and I was the weakest werewolf there was, he didn't have to rub that in my face. The pack had taken care of that enough.

But I wasn't ready to lose him just because of me! That was absolutely not allowed to happen. Gathering all my courage, I straightened my back and continued in a slightly stronger voice this time.

"I won't annoy you, I won't ask you any questions. I won't-" But I didn't get any further because he interrupted me in the middle of the word.

"SHUT THE DAMN SILENCE!" his voice thundered through the forest. "I DON'T WANT YOU! AND I NEVER WILL!" I thought his icy voice was fearful, but I was wrong, in contrast to this one it was just a breath.

The disgust in his eyes finished me off. My lips started to tremble and tears stung my eyes.

Mate.. whimpered my she-wolf. How can he tell us something like that? I could feel how deeply hurt she was.

"I never want to see you again. I'll put you in a new pack and from then on you won't be my problem anymore. Never again."

I felt like a dagger was stabbed in my heart. My wolf whimpered in agony and tears flowed inexorably down my wagon. But I didn't want to give him that satisfaction. I turned and lay on the floor, hugging the blanket tightly.

Pain pulsed through my entire body and I felt like I was drowning in agony. Sobs shook my body as I pressed my fist to my mouth to keep from making a sound.

My mate despised me.

detested me

How could I even believe that anyone could ever love me?

my mate My hope. My life. The one who should carry me on hands. The one who should idolize me. The one who should love me to infinity.

In the end, he rejected me.

A deep hole gaped inside me, trying to suck everything in until finally only a shell of myself remained.