Chapter 72: Chapter 72

It was 4: 30 in the morning on Wednesday. Azraiel was lying in his bed, his head placed on his palm, elbow popped up on the bed. He gazed loving at his mate who was facing him, her body curled up like a fetus. The light yellow light from the bedside lamp cast a shadow on her face, making her look ethereal. She looked at peace… maybe she was. He knew he was….

He has been waiting for this day for so long. To be able to wake up beside the person you love is truly a blessing. It fills one’s heart with gratefulness, love, and a sense of assurance.…that there is a person…. Only for you…. Your person….!

He smiled as she stirred. Placing a light kiss on her head, he quietly and slowly moved out of the bed. With one last glance at her, he picked up his towel and walked to the bathroom to take a shower. Lord knows that after cuddling with her all night, he needs a fucking cold shower..

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Charlotte smiled discreetly as she felt Azraiel press a kiss on her head.

He is a romantic at heart…isn’t he…? Or all wolves are…?

She heard the click of the bathroom door and stirred in the bed. With a happy sigh and a smile on her face, she sat up in the bed. She turned off the small lamp and turned on the lights. She’ll take a shower after Azraiel and then her training session will begin, she thought to herself. After doing a few stretching poses while sitting in the bed, she mentally made a to-do list in her mind.

She’ll have to complete all her training sessions and maybe put in a few extra hours since she missed it yesterday. And this evening, she’ll have to be with Katya as she wants to talk to her. Also, she’ll have to look for clothes if there was going to be an initiation ceremony this weekend.

Shoot….

She has no idea what happens in an initiation ceremony…!

I’ll ask Ayleen….She thinks to herself…

You should ask our mate…Her wolf suggests…and she agrees…

While she waits for Azraiel to come out, she picks up her journal and decided to write everything. Journaling has become an important part of her life. She looked forward to it. It also helped her sort out her emotions and determine what she was feeling and if it was warranted or not. She scribbled everything that happened yesterday…from the moment she met Katya to the one that she woke up…. from Azraiel’s revelation to her talk with him yesterday night. She wrote down everything that she was feeling at the moment.

Charlotte closed her journal when she heard the rustling. Azraiel would be out soon. Keeping her journal aside, she stretched her legs on the bed and leaned back.

But she wasn’t fucking ready for the sight that greeted her when he came out of the bathroom…

Her wolf made a whistling sound and purred…

Azraiel walked out of the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel……yeah…. just a fucking towel….! His hair was wet from the shower and he was rubbing them with a small towel. His whole body glistened with water droplets…. She had no idea she could see the details from where she was sitting, but she can swear she saw a droplet slide from his hair to his chest and then all the way down where his towel started.

She’ll have to give him some credit because he didn’t look at her once. He just came out and walked towards the dressing table and the mirror. The mirror was placed diagonally to the bed….and when he stood right in front of her, it gave her an amazing view of his back.

Fuck….!

She gulped audibly and had to make a conscious effort to not clench her thighs together, though she was sure he could smell her arousal all the same.

As his hands worked with his hair, his back clenched…. his ripped muscles moving and intriguing her. She wanted to trace the movements with her fingers and slide all the way down….and take off the fucking towel. Though she would never admit it to anyone, she had pictured him naked several times… Heck….. she had thought about him constantly…fantasizing about him... with numerous scenarios…. And none of them were innocent…. nor included any kind of clothes…!

How amazing would his muscles feel beneath her fingertips…. without any clothes between them…she wondered…

From where she was sitting, she not only got a great view of his back but a delicious view of his front in the mirror. She could see the bulge straining against the towel and this time her thighs clenched on their own. She licked her lips unconsciously without realizing that he was watching her. He could see her in the mirror and never once had he taken his eyes off her since he came out and stood in front of the mirror…!

As Charlotte dragged her eyes from his muscled legs to the bulge….and then to his amazing abs….her breath quickened. Fuck…she was getting turned on just by looking at him…! She had to make extra efforts to take her eyes to his face….

And he was staring right at her.

When her eyes met his…he grinned…like a wolf that he is…. showing his teeth and his eyes speaking that he knew what was happening…. His eyes were intense…the blue shining brightly…..with lust…

“You are staring, love…” he said, his voice utterly low…. making her gasp and telling her that he actually didn’t mind.

“I can’t…?” She said while still looking into his eyes…her voice coming out much breathless than she intended it to be.

At her response, both verbal and her bodies’, his mouth opened slightly….and he had to adjust his towel to accommodate the boner he was sporting now…

But he was doing that while looking at her.

“You can…I am all yours to stare at Charlotte… and yours are the only eyes I wouldn’t mind being on me every second of the day…” Ugh….something so cliché has no business being so hot…!

She was hoping he would come towards her…. shove her into the bed…and have his fucking way with her…..

But he didn’t….

Even when the tent forming in his towel increased in size.

So instead of going to the bathroom like she initially planned, she laid back in the bed and clenched her thighs together and let of a groan at the way it made her feel. By the way Azraiel threw the towel in his hand and rushed over to her, she would bet it made him feel something too…!

He rushed toward her and leaned above her, caging her between his arms that he placed on both sides of her head.

“You really need to stop….or else I’ll need another cold shower….and then we’ll be late for the training…!” His eyes gleamed yellow and his voice was low enough to be perceived as a warning…but his eyes….they moved from her eyes to her lips…back and forth….

So she decided to take matters into her hands and thrust her hips upwards to meet his….and as soon as their bodies met, her spine arched….

“We can take a shower together…you know…to save time..!” She said breathlessly cupping his face as he pushed her hips away from him and into the bed with one arm while supporting his weight with another.

“Charlotte…” He was grinding his teeth together… “Please…I… just give me two days….Please… I want his to happen more than you know….but…I won’t be able to concentrate on any fucking thing other than you if we do this now….and with the rogues threat looming over our head….I need to stay sane for at least two days…please…!” He looked helpless….and she decided to help him out this fucking one time…!

“Okay…” She felt dejected…and extremely horny… “But promise me….you won’t hold yourself back for my safe when this happens…” She said.

“I promise…” He meant it…she could see it in his eyes….and she vowed that she wouldn’t let him break it…she wants to see him as he is…the animal…the wolf…uncontrolled…unfiltered….and she fucking will…!

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Azraiel breathed a sigh of relief as he saw his mate saunter inside the bathroom.

Fuck…! She is making it extremely difficult to control himself…!

“You are afraid…” his wolf observes.

He doesn’t reply….completely aware that it wasn’t a question….

You won’t hurt her….you can’t hurt her….his wolf tries to assure him…

“But what if I did…? What if I lose control…like I did…with…?” He doesn’t have to complete the sentence because his wolf understands. He knows everything.

His wolf doesn’t say anything for a few seconds and lets him compose himself.

To distract himself, Azraiel pulls out the clothes from the closet and starts wearing them. He brushes his wet hair back, away from the forehead and sighs…

I think you are hurting her more by keeping her away…His wolf quietly adds….

“I know….damn it…I know…but I can’t help it….The only Trueblood to mate with someone was the Alpha of the Black Onyx pack…Emmanuel Reed…and we all know how it ended…they all died…died….and since then…no Trueblood has been known to have a mate….how am I supposed to know that it won’t happen again…? What if I hurt her unintentionally and lose control? ” He shares his thoughts with his wolf.

“I know…but those women weren’t his mates, Azraiel….he raped them….He didn’t care for them…. Charlotte isn’t just any other woman…She is your mate…! Just think about this….Why would Moon Goddess give you a mate if she didn’t want you to be with her…? and trust me…there is no way that you could hurt her…no way that I’d let you or myself hurt her…and please give her some more credit….she is way stronger than you think…” His wolf reasoned….being more logical than him at that moment.

“I don’t know… I have too much on my mind right now…” He rubbed his face with his palms, feeling frustrated at the situation.

“Just think about it…and make your mind soon…or else I’ll make this decision for you…you are hurting hurt by keeping her away from you…you are making her doubt herself…I can fucking feel it….I know I can’t communicate with her wolf just yet…but I can sense her emotions…and she too doesn’t like this a bit…” His wolf sternly relays the message and Azraiel soaks in everything.

Squeezing his eyes shut, he makes a promise to himself. Today…yes…he’ll sort this out today…!

He’ll have to let go of his fear…. And surrender….to his wolf… to her….!