Absolute Being: I Am Nothing Chapter 54

Adam didn’t attack the net. He attacked the idea of the net. The concept of their unified will.

He clenched his raised fists and pulled them down, as if yanking on two invisible ropes connected to the heart of the sky.

For a second, nothing happened.

Then, a sound. Not a boom. Not a bang.

A pop.

A single, clean, impossibly loud pop, like the universe itself had snapped its fingers.

The vast, tightening net of divine light didn’t shatter. It ceased. One moment it was there, a cage of unimaginable power. The next, it was simply not.

The effect wasn’t contained. The pop rippled outwards in a silent, expanding sphere.

Where it touched the rank and file of the Heavenly Host, they didn’t explode. They didn’t burn. They just... stopped being. The legions of seraphim, the powers in their armor, the countless angels—they winked out of existence, as if someone had erased them from a painting. Tens of thousands, gone in the span of a heartbeat.

Only the exceptionally strong remained. Michael, Gabriel, Raphael, and Uriel were still there, though they staggered as if struck by a physical force. Fatimah, protected within the bubble of Annabeth’s quiet "no," remained untouched, her eyes wide with catatonic horror. A few dozen of the mightiest captains and elders, those who existed more as ideas than soldiers, were left standing amidst a suddenly, terrifyingly empty hall.

The glorious light of the Host was gone. The hall was dim, silent, and littered only with the fading motes of the erased and the bleeding forms of the wounded archangels.

Michael stared at the emptiness where his army had been. His sword dipped. For the first time, his expression held something beyond fury: disbelief.

Adam lowered his arms. He was breathing hard, sweat and luminous blood mixing on his skin. He looked terrible, but his grin was triumphant. "See?" he panted. "A show."

He turned from the stunned archangels. His work wasn’t done. He looked up at the cracked sky, which now seemed darker, emptier.

"Alright!" he shouted, his voice raw but loud in the silence. "Enough of the hired help! You’ve seen what I can do! Now get out here and talk!"

Silence.

Then, the hall... dissolved.

Not in a flash. It just wasn’t there anymore. The marble, the pillars, the high ceilings—they melted away like a dream upon waking. They weren’t in a hall anymore. They stood in a space of pure, white nothingness. No ground, no sky, no up or down, yet they didn’t fall. Fatimah, Annabeth, David, Alex, Kahdijah, the wounded archangels—they were all there, floating in this featureless void.

And in front of them, a presence manifested.

It wasn’t a man on a throne. It wasn’t a bearded giant. It was a point of gentle, overwhelming light that didn’t hurt to look at. It was simple. It was everything and nothing at the same time. A feeling of profound age, of infinite love, and of terrible, unyielding judgment washed over them all. It was the source. The creator. The first word.

A voice spoke. It wasn’t a sound that traveled through air. It was the voice of the void itself, calm, patient, and deeper than eternity.

"YOU HAVE MY ATTENTION, ADAM."

Even Michael bowed his head, unable to look directly at the presence.

Adam didn’t bow. He wiped blood from his mouth and stood straight, facing the light. "About damn time."

"YOU HAVE SLAIN LEGIONS OF MY CHILDREN. YOU HAVE DEFILED A PLACE OF PEACE. YOU HAVE DEMANDED AN AUDIENCE. SPEAK. WHAT IS IT YOU WANT?"

Adam took a deep breath. This was it. The moment.

"I want answers," Adam said, his voice losing its battle-hardened edge, becoming quieter, almost... human. "The questions every person down there," he jerked a thumb vaguely, as if pointing to Earth, "has asked when they’re lying in the dirt, bleeding out, or watching their kid die of hunger."

He took a step forward into the nothingness.

"Question one: Why? Why the suffering? Why the cancer? Why the earthquakes that bury schools? Why let a mother watch her baby starve? If you’re all-powerful and all-loving, that doesn’t add up. Pick one."

The light pulsed softly. "FREE WILL IS THE GREATEST GIFT—"

"Don’t give me the free will speech!" Adam snapped, cutting off the divine voice. The archangels flinched. "Free will explains why humans are awful to each other. It doesn’t explain childhood leukemia. It doesn’t explain tsunamis. It doesn’t explain natural evil. Did the tectonic plates have free will? Did the virus choose to be cruel? So, answer the question. Why create a world with so much pointless pain baked into it?"

Silence stretched.

"THE PATTERNS ARE TOO VAST FOR MORTAL MINDS—"

"Try me," Adam interrupted again, his eyes blazing. "I’m not mortal anymore. Try. Me."

A different feeling emanated from the light. Not anger. Something like... profound sadness.

"SUFFERING WAS NOT THE INTENTION. IT IS A CONSEQUENCE OF A UNIVERSE BUILT UPON LAWS, UPON BALANCE. FOR LIGHT TO BE, THERE MUST BE THE POSSIBILITY OF SHADOW. FOR LIFE TO HAVE MEANING, THERE MUST BE THE POSSIBILITY OF ITS END. THE SYSTEM... IS FLAWED. FROM THE MOMENT OF CREATION, AN IMPERFECTION EXISTED. A FRACTURE. I HAVE SPENT ETERNITY TRYING TO HEAL IT, TO GUIDE IT TOWARDS THE GOOD, WITHIN THE CONSTRAINTS OF ITS OWN LAWS."

Adam stared. "So... you’re saying you built a broken system and you’re stuck trying to patch it?"

"IN ESSENCE."

"And you can’t just... fix it? Snap your fingers? You’re God."

"TO SNAP MY FINGERS, AS YOU SAY, WOULD BE TO UNMAKE ALL THAT IS. TO DESTROY THE CANVAS TO CORRECT A FLAW IN THE PAINT. THE PAINTING, WITH ALL ITS FLAWS, HAS ITS OWN BEAUTY, ITS OWN VALUE. TO ERASE IT WOULD BE A GREATER TRAGEDY."

Adam ran a hand through his hair, frustrated. "So we’re just... collateral damage in your art project?"

"YOU ARE PARTICIPANTS. YOUR PAIN MATTERS. YOUR STRUGGLE HAS MEANING WITHIN THE STORY."

"Tell that to the kid dying in a ditch," Adam said, his voice thick. "What ’meaning’ does his pain have? What ’story’ is he participating in?"

The light dimmed slightly. "I DO NOT HAVE AN ANSWER THAT WILL SATISFY YOU. I BEAR THE WEIGHT OF EVERY TEAR. I HEAR EVERY SILENT SCREAM. IT IS THE BURDEN OF CREATION."

Adam was quiet for a moment. Then he asked his second question, his voice low.

"Question two: The silence. Why are you so silent? When people pray, when they beg, when they’re at their absolute worst... why do they get nothing but quiet? No burning bush. No angel. Not even a feeling. Just... nothing."

"MY PRESENCE IS NOT ABSENCE. I AM IN THE SUNRISE THAT FOLLOWS THE NIGHT OF GRIEF. I AM IN THE STRANGER WHO OFFERS A HAND. I AM IN THE RESILIENCE OF THE HUMAN SPIRIT THAT RISES AGAIN. I SPEAK IN WHISPERS, NOT IN THUNDER, FOR THUNDER WOULD SHATTER THE VERY FREE WILL YOU ACCUSE ME OF VIOLATING. TO FORCE BELIEF IS TO DESTROY FAITH."

"Whispers aren’t enough!" Adam shouted, the sound swallowed by the void. "When a good man is broken and crying out, he doesn’t need a damn sunrise! He needs a sign! He needs to know he’s not screaming into a void!"

"AND IF I GAVE A SIGN TO ONE, I WOULD OWE IT TO ALL. AND THEN IT WOULD NOT BE A SIGN; IT WOULD BE THE NORM. THE MYSTERY, THE SEARCH, THE CHOICE TO BELIEVE WITHOUT PROOF... THAT IS THE FOUNDATION OF THE RELATIONSHIP."

"A relationship with a ghost," Adam muttered.

He asked his final question. The simplest one.

"Question three: Is there a point? To any of it? Or are we just... noise? Brief, suffering noise in a broken machine, before we blink out and become nothing?"

The light seemed to swell, filling the void with a warmth that was almost physical.

"YOU ARE NOT NOISE. YOU ARE THE SONG. EACH LIFE, A NOTE. EACH JOY, A MELODY. EACH ACT OF LOVE, A HARMONY THAT RESONATES THROUGH ALL OF CREATION. THE SUFFERING IS A DISCORD, YES. BUT THE SONG—THE OVERARCHING, ETERNAL SONG—IS ONE OF BEAUTY BEYOND YOUR CURRENT COMPREHENSION. DEATH IS NOT THE END OF THE NOTE; IT IS ITS RESOLUTION INTO THE GREATER CHORD. THE POINT... IS THE SONG ITSELF. AND YOU, ADAM, HAVE BECOME A NOTE SO LOUD, SO UNIGNORABLE, YOU HAVE FORCED THE COMPOSER TO PAUSE AND LISTEN."

Adam stood there, in the white nothingness, before the presence of God. He had his answers. They were terrible, unsatisfying, and heartbreakingly honest.

He had won. He had wiped out an army, stormed heaven, and forced God to explain himself.

And he felt emptier than he ever had.

He looked back at his brother, at Kahdijah, at Annabeth protecting the shell-shocked Fatimah. He looked at the wounded, defiant archangels.

Then he looked back at the light.

"Okay," Adam said, all the fight gone from his voice, leaving only a deep, weary flatness. "I’ve heard you."

He turned his back on the presence of God.

"You are not fit to be God."

A/N

Please to my Christian readers, this is not the real God of our world, so don’t take it personal.