Chapter 46: Chapter 46
Austin
Numbness. That’s all I ever felt, all I've felt for the past six months since the death of my girlfriend. My snoopy. If someone told me seven months ago I'll meet a dying girl who will change my life completely, I will laugh at their face. And if another told me that I would fall so hard for that girl to the far extent of dating her, I would have replied that he or she is crazy like, nutsy cookoo. Now, lastly, if you told me that my heart will get shattered watching that sweet dying girl die in front of me, then I will say fuck you and your dumb predictions. The funny part of it is that it all those things happened to me. I get a constant reminder whenever I look at her bracelet on my wrist, the one thing I never had the heart to leave behind in California.
Call me a coward but yes, I ran away immediately after her death. I couldn't survive staying another day there after so much memories we shared together. I saw her in every part of my home, I felt her presence in all the places I went to and it drove me insane. I just had to leave for the sake of my sanity before I do something callous.
Being in college has helped me a lot in repressing the pains and taking my mind away from depression. We had a dream to be roommates after we found out we are going to the same state and applied for the same schools within the state. She would have been a fun roommate with me annoying her most part of the day. It would've been hilarious but we will still be happy.
Now, it's not.
"Hey Austin? Have you seen my brother?"
I didn’t bother look up to know its Abby making herself comfortable in my room. Again. Fellow frat housemates always get to tease me about having the hottest girl on campus begging for my attention. Not that she is not beautiful because she is. It's just, I really don’t see myself with her or any girl in particular on campus as a girlfriend material. Truthfully, I'm just not over snoopy yet. Maybe when I'm ready, I can give her a chance or anyone else at dating. So single and happy it is for me.
"I'm sure he's in his room angelica. Did you at least check him there?"
"Nope." popping the 'p'. When my Snoopy does that it sound cute but she...ugh again with Snoopy. I need to stop thinking about her and let go. "Came straight to you." her voice snaps me back to reality. I don’t want to sound rude but she's always in my space and I don’t like it when girls acts like needy or desperate for attention. Like it disturbs me.
I really don't get why girls always fall for the bad boys.
"Well, go check on him then. That’s what you came for right.?" I gave a snarky remark trying so hard to calm my inner demons. But she's really pushing it. On a normal, she won't have the guts to walk into my room because I have a strict policy about that in the frat house.
Maybe because she saw my door wild ajar.
"Ooh! whats that?" in time for my head to snap to her reaching to pick Snoopy's bracelet. In long strides, I seize her hand dragging her out of my room.
"Don’t you ever touch it or anything that belongs to me. Matter of fact, I want you to leave." throwing her out of my room.
"Whatever." she huffs just as I banged the door on her face. I walk till I got to my bed flopping on it.
"And never come back." my phones goes off and I picked before looking at the caller ID
hearing the voice.
"Hey mom."
"Austin hiii!" trust me, it isn't as cheerful as you think it is. It's a dry mock I tell you, knowing the reason why she called. "And before you say no again I need you to hear me out.
Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year's holidays is a couple of months away and I need the presence of my son." she said sternly.
"Ugh mum. I have school, games and after activities taking my time and I don’t think I can make any." poor but the quickest lie I could come up with. I'm ashamed to say I've not been home in forever but that place holds enough bad memories for me.
"Austin Cameron Mahone! I am your mother and I demand you come back home. You can't run away forever son." her voice drops from its octave talking softly to me. "This is your home…and your family misses you."
"Ok mum. I'll be back for one of the holidays but just for a few days and I'm out." I could picture the smile on her lips.
"Thank you and don’t forget to get a present for Gwen. Bye, love you."
"Love you too Ma."
I sigh letting out an exhausting breathe. No time to dwell on that as I pick up my jacket and keys, making sure to lock my door. Climbing down the stairs of my frat-house, the sight of my new baby got and ear shitting grin from me. I switched her for my old wrangler jeep. This is college and I'm so happy for that decision as I crouch low entering the sleek black car.
Driving to school, as usual getting stares and flirty winks here and there I thought to myself. I may not be the same guy I was in highschool all thanks to Snoopy but that didn't stop my aura from asserting power taking the title of 'the hot bad boy in campus'. I felt like a King.
Fixing my black RayBan on my eyes, I turn the wheel dismissing the eyes on me with a cocky
smirk on my face. I rule again.
If only she was here to see me. I would have gotten such an earful. I smile at that thought zooming off.