Chapter 14: Chapter 14

I woke up and it’s already two in the evening. I looked around and noticed that the bastard is already gone. I slowly got down from the bed and walked towards the bathroom. As I entered the bathroom I looked at myself via the mirror. Hickeys filled the body with messy hair. I sighed and went under the shower as I sat down on the cold floor while hugging my knees. I couldn’t close my eyes because my mind was still filled with Noah’s smile. Now I know that my baby lives a luxurious life because he's a member of the Winston family but what about my lost brother? He was only seven… I was all alone over these years.

The painful memories of three years ago came into my mind. After I left where I lived with my brother and my house. No… Don’t think now. I forced myself to bury those painful memories inside of me again. I stood up and quickly showered before going out of the bathroom. As I came out of the bathroom I looked for my clothes but all of them were torn. That bastard….

Then I saw a closet and I walked towards it as I opened the doors. Only male clothes. Urghh... Shirts and trousers. I sighed and took a black shirt out and wore it quickly. Then I saw the skirt I was wearing was in the corner of the room I went and picked it up. I sighed. Thank god it, Not damaged. I wore it quickly and left the room. I didn’t have my phone or purse with me and I remembered I left it before escaping from that old pervert. My heart tightened as I remembered what happened yesterday night. I walked towards the room that man forced himself on me and I entered no one was there so I quickly looked for my purse and phone. I let out a deep breath as I saw my purse and phone. I quickly grabbed it and left the room.

I never thought Mila would betray me and tried to sell me to an old man. How could she? She was the only friend I had over these years. I came here because of her. I’ll deal with her. With that thought, I went to my old house. Where I lived with my brother. Tears rolled down as I saw my old house. Nothing has changed. I took the keys out and unlocked the door. I walked into the house and went straight to Noah’s room. I sat on his bed and buried my face in my palms

“I miss you so much. I’m sorry darling” I sobbed hard and let my pain come out. Suddenly, I remembered Noah’s note. He has mentioned a man that he waited for. Noah had a letter for him inside of his notebook but he forbade me for opening it. Urghh... Where can I find him without even knowing his name? After some time I went to my room and changed into the clothes that I left three years ago. After a few hours, I left my old house that was filled with beautiful and painful memories. Then I went straight to the apartment that I currently live in.

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~ Ryan ~

Fuck.. Why did I rape her? I was fucking rough and she was crying. Shit... When did I become a fucking beast as she said? I lost my sanity as I heard her call me a heartless beast and monster. She even called me murder and why the hell was that?

I left her without even thinking about her. Shit.. her clothes were torn by me. I was in my office but I can’t get her out of my fucking mind. I can’t even focus on any fucking work. What did she do to me? Fuck.. am I in love with her? Yes. I’m in love with her from the fucking first day I saw her. She was the first woman who treated me like that, She even fucking slapped me twice and called my name without even thinking. Fuck.. She’s not afraid of me, my status, and the power I possessed in this country. She knew who I am yet she shouted and slapped me as she tore the check I gave her. I was shocked by her actions and I can’t believe she was a cheap woman as grandma mentioned. She didn’t give fuck about money and asked me to give her baby back. I still couldn't understand some things she told me. She said I threatened her. What the fuck was that I didn’t even know and She said I owe her two fucking lives.

“Yoo Ryan, what happened yesterday?” I was pulled back from my thoughts by Chris’s voice. I looked at him and he was already in front of me. Fuck I didn’t even hear him.

“From where did you find that woman?” I asked him as he looked at me with a shocked face.

“What? I didn’t find a woman. How can I send a woman? I didn’t even know where the fuck was” My heart stopped for a moment. Didn’t he send her? So she’s not a prostitute. My heart tightened because of how I treated her in the morning and how I call her a prostitute. Fuck…...

I looked at the time and it was already three-thirty in the evening. She has gone back, right? FUCK. I heard Chris’s phone was ringing but I didn’t care because my mind was filled with her sleeping face and the tears that I caused her. The way she told me that she hates me… I don’t want to think about it because my heart fucking hurts.

“She’s back” I heard Chris’s voice and I looked at him.

“Julianna... Noah’s sister is back. The old man who talked to me that day... He was the one who called me” My heart began to beat so fast. Is she back? It’s been three years. I can’t understand why am I attracted to this Noah’s sister and I was fucking curious about her. Deep inside of my heart always tells me that Noah’s sister is the same woman as the woman I unintentionally fell in love with but I know it was fucking impossible and It can’t be her.

“Where is she?” I asked him as shook his head. What the fuck does that mean?

“He said he saw her while she’s leaving the house,” I sighed. Again? I missed her. Shit.

“It doesn’t matter. We can find her because she’s already come back” I nodded at him. I will find and take what Noah left for me with her. I grabbed my phone to call Noel and saw 10 missed calls from Noel. Fuck. Shit. I forgot to check the phone. I immediately called back and he answered the phone with the first ring.

“Baby..” I spoke but I was cut off by his angry childish voice.

“No daddy. You’re a liar. You didn’t come home last night” I sighed. Shit. How am I going to coax this child now?

“I had so many works, Noel. Daddy’s sorry okay? You know I bought so many chocolates for you” I lied to him. Urghh This child is making things hard for me just like his mother.

“You’re lying daddy but it’s okay. You come home early and bring a big chocolate bag” With that, he just hung up the call. Urghh. This kid…

“Chris. Take care of these things I’m going home” I got up and left because I wanted to see my son as soon as possible.

“Alright” I heard Chris shout with annoyance.

I wanted to let my son know that his mommy is back but I can’t do it because I’m still not sure about her character. Noel always wanted his mother but he didn’t show it but I knew him too well because when I was his age I also wanted my mother so I don’t want my son to grow up without his mother and it felt like a missing part of him our soul. I knew that feeling very well because I also grew up without my mother.